User:Mirjam Dissel/proposal draft

yeah under construction.

General Intro

BITESIZE CHUNKS

I want to work with my dreams,
BUT
not necessarily about the content of these dreams.

I'm trying to discover a pattern between these dreams.
BECAUSE
The subject fascinates me: the information about the past dreams is available to me only while I'm dreaming - not when I'm awake.

NEVERTHELESS,
the dreams are only to be seen as the material I want to work with now. I want to produce a series of works, that I'm going to analyze afterwards and discover what's the underlying pattern of my fascination.

I would like to develop small projects in order to find out for myself what the underlying themes are. I know what I am fascinated with, in order to find a concept for the graduation project, I'd like to trace connections between these different fascinations and reach the core of the matter and come up with a solid proposal, consistent with my methodology.

FOR EXAMPLE:
Memory, remembering, iteration of memory (previous project, 'Man on a Beach, Posing')
Machines that work in a similar way to the process of my dreams (connections, translations).

Previous Practice

Descriptions previous projects what why how

De Sprookjesbrij [The Fairytale Pulp]
This is a table with 4 scanners embedded in the surface that scan at an interval, one after the other. Categorized into 4 open boxes on the table are hundreds of transparent sheets, printed on them are very diverse images and texts. The audience can create a collage and after each round of scanning on one side under the table a printer spits out the combined images.
Inside the table there are in fact 4 iMacs, linked in a network. A script separately running on all machines makes sure the scanners scan and save the image. One script combines the images, not just stacking them on top of one another, one image is displayed small in the upper corner while another may be enlarged. Then it sends it off to the printer, while the first scanner is already scanning again.
I wanted the scanner table to bring people together, this is why you can create a text and image based collage with multiple people. The texts in fact are fairytales, rhymes and urban legends, because all these folk tales are uniting people for centuries. The images are mostly animals (fables). Every day, the stack of paper rolling out of the printer becomes one volume of a collection of fairy tales. I did not want the technology behind the installation to be visible, the scanners are now only visible as a mesmerizing purple lines, magically moving from one side to the other. In a table, they intuitively let people interact with the installation, move the sheets around, but most importantly: interact with each other. They work together on one composition or try to sabotage each other.

Knitting pattern This is a very small project, very simply said: this is a generator that uses your personal data (telephone number, Albert Heijn bonuscard number, BSN (social security) number, and bank account number) as an input to generate a unique knitting pattern.. Each parameter is responsible for an aspect of the pattern: width, height, color, holes, knit or purl stitch. I was researching what defines my personal style, or what defines me? For example I buy a scarf, I try to be unique, I try to be fashionable. But when I see someone else walking with that same item months later, maybe combining it completely different, it still feels awkward, in that moment the scarf doesn't feel mine. The government and other businesses distinguish me from all the other people by giving me a number. I tried to combine these two very different concepts of what defines me, fashion and corporate filing.

Man on a Beach, Posing
In an old Dutch photo album from the 1920's a story is told through text written in Dymo tape. The pictures that were once in the album are hung on the wall, themed together on subject. The story in the album starts out plain and descriptive, and as you go on the story gets more informative, more background information is revealed: what beach actually is visited, where the depicted mill stood, character development and through that the relationship between the characters are also shared. The reader gets to know the names of the characters and towards the end, the point of view shifts between the protagonists.

I bought this album on marktplaats.nl (a dutch craigslist.com, for selling second hand items). I started looking at the pictures inside and investigating them closer. With online research, consulting other people and prior knowledge, I found out the basics of the pictures. I took my own journey of discovery as an example (as opposed to giving the reader the full story right away) and in the beginning I placed only a little bit of text and in the end the story climaxes. I used 26 meters of Dymo tape in total.

These pictures in private photo albums function as placeholders for complex and rich memories that are activated when we see these pictures. Abandoned photo albums have something sad about them, because there is nobody left whose memory could be activated anymore by these pictures. I wanted to let people think about memory and remembering, every time you look at a picture and remember the event, you are recreating it in your mind, this is highly connected to imagination. With the pictures taken out of my bought album and replaced by Dymo tape, there is only a textual description visible and you start imagining the story on the fantastic visualizations you have created in your mind. So by making up an entire story that could be called 'memory', I am reactivating the album by reconnecting it to a potential memory. It could be the story told by the pictures. The story could also be different - we simply don‘t know.

METHODOLOLOLOLOGY
My projects revolve around collectivity. I like to work with a collection, whether already present or made on the spot by participants. Next to collectivity, I like to work with individual fantasy and imagination next to a collaborative and collective memory. A key aspect in the projects is the role of choice. How do we choose? The manual labour that is involved in adding to, arranging or augmenting the collection in ways that are instinctual but mostly come from tradition and semiotics are a thing for me to play with and investigate. The personal perspective from this manual labour, sometimes craftsmanship, gives it value and uniqueness. I then deconstruct and rearrange the collection myself. The different ways of organizing this data become the final product. Or, the work consists of the (re)arrangements of others, as an interactive platform to continue from.

Usually, my work is a result of a broad and long research. I need dialogue with teachers and fellow students to get stimulation. At the same time I like to distance myself from the project to let things bed down and get a broader perspective. I do this by looking at other people's work, at what's already out there, so I can take different opinions into consideration. Next to that, I make small prototypes, from there it naturally evolves into a conceptually solid project.

More on graduation project

What have I been doing so far?

I have been experimenting with writing down my dreams: voice recording, writing down these dreams immediately after waking up, writing down notes after waking up and making a story out of it later. I've notices very different experiences between these methods: when listening to the voice recording again it's almost as if I've never heard of this story before, because when recording I was free to speak, I wasn't 'obstructed' by creating grammatically correct sentences or the plot. When I write down the dreams much later I still remember the dream, but I forget if and which previous dream popped up in my head while dreaming, but I can sometimes remember other dreams afterwards, when they have something to do with the scene I was actually dreaming about that night.

I have started to make a map out of these dreams. The places I to dream about all seem to be based on the places I know from childhood. The most occurring places are: my parents' backyard and my grandma's living room and (back)yard, both situated in my hometown, Dalfsen. When drawing the map I noticed that I always dream that the north and south are the other way around.

A lot of times it happened that I dream of brilliant designs or ideas in my dreams, that are the basis of future projects. I'm starting to draw everything I think is interesting. It's proven to be very difficult to draw something that in a dream can make perfect sense, but in the physical world cannot exist (think M.C. Escher).

Next to this I have also started a collection of inspiration. Pictures of projects that I think are interesting and relate to this project in one way or another.

What am I reading? Sigmund Freud - The Interpretation of Dreams Sadie Plant - The Future Looms