Text on Practice Muyang

The Ruined Map is an experimental film that combines existentialist fiction, 3D animation, and distorted sound waiting in an underground station. It stems from the fetishization and sexual racism I have suffered from white men on dating apps in the Netherlands and explores the transformation of the Chinese diasporic subjectivities amid uncertainties and challenges. Finding a partner has always been a big part of my life and each long wait and many fleeting love affairs left me in a peculiar liminal situation and reinforced my strong sense of displacement and isolation.

Banana and twinkie are typical racist everyday Western epithets for East Asians who have lost their heritage. And I associate their images with the stereotypical East Asian small penis. In the animations, the objects are converted to "characters" who are repeatedly inflated and deflated, like disembodied ghosts. I arranged them in three liminal places: in darkness and mist, suspended over the ocean, and inside the bedroom. In the script part, using my memories from China and the Netherlands, I wrote a story without a single protagonist, using both fact and fiction. A disembodied queer ghost who has to enter a life of obedience to masculinity, trapped by a penis. Through a surreal, fast-paced, and hauntingly dreamlike narrative and the impossible clues found therein, I attempt to engage the audience in a reflection of (sexual) racism that lives ubiquitously in subtler ways, China’s contemporaneity and its counterfeit sense of inferiority, etc.

Next, I will explore an encounter between experimental film, queer theory, pornography, and science fiction. I am trying to portray the anus as an alien, combining the Chinese story  “The Peach Blossom Spring” and gay cruising culture, and write some auto-fictional poetry about the anus.

This is a study of how relationships, represented by parts of the body, transform and restructure the context of the social and language. It is a work that started out as a question about whether the butt has the political potential to re-bind us together in a time of confusion with big and small wars. It is a work expressing the subjective and liberating potential of the anus, from the utopia represented in the Chinese story The Peach Blossom Spring to Paul B. Preciado's book Terror Anal, about the anus as a post-gendered organ.

I will study the symbolic meaning of queer and feminism that anal has, which is a democratic symbol representing all regardless of sex and gender, the sexual communist symbol of the public joy that we all experienced, the symbol of the liquidity of power from behind and from below and the various symbolic meanings of the anus.

Thoughts by Clara:

-        more on other projects

-        more on the practices you use to visualise your work and why you choose them (animation, film, text...)

-        WHY do you want to create what you are creating

Thoughts by Yalou:

-         Layered project that touch major and important issues in the world.

-         I find it very beautiful how personal your work is.

-         What did you do before this? I would love to hear a little more background or work from you?

-         How would you describe your critical voice? I feel it is very layered

-         What would you like to see and grow? And what have you learned from your passed art works? Is there anything that you would do differently?

-         In your next draft it would be beautiful to see some images of your work

-         Why is It important for you to use animation, 3D animation and documented footage in your films? Maybe you can clarify a bit more on your process of making? Step by step maybe