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<blockquote>not so much about homosexuality, it is what happens if you are so afraid that you finally cannot love anybody
-- James Baldwin</blockquote><blockquote>It’s only from the destituent standpoint that one can grasp all that is incredibly constructive in the breakage.                                                  -- The Invisible Committee</blockquote>I would write to you as a way to process


(The fascism of water,
human-beaver worlds,
the national site of transformation: China,
the “curse”,
cultural tourism,
mirrored heartbreak
the archival presence
of a white man’s disease
the backfiring of good intentions)
a kind of infectious melancholy
a state of unfitting-ness of being,
of not being the universal
so incendiary
I feel suspicious
I shouldn’t want to know the people or keep them
an abstraction
a perfect fantasy of whiteness
a fleshy contingency.
You told me when we were hanging out at the beginning that I didn’t
feel
“that white”.
THAT WHITE
NON-WHITE
WHITE TERRORISM
But I know the epidermis. What do I have to say of
race,
WHITE LIBERALISM
of colonialist rampage? I am the oblivious offspring of
conquerors,
WHITE LIBERALS
educated in its willful amnesia, crafting a body out of
desire,
WHITE MAINSTREAM
to be what I wasn’t assigned to be
be.
TOO WHITE-WASHED
LOVE OF WHITES
WHITE MEN
WHITE WOMAN
WHITE PERSON
WHITE HEROES
BECOME WHITE
WHITE SUIT
WHITE FILAMENTS
SNOWY WHITE
SAFE WHITE FRAME
WHITE HUNGRY BEAST
WHITE BUTCHERS
WHITE SUPREMACY
WHITE SEPARATISM
In the book you lent me,
Maya Deren writes,
“the artist constitutes... an ‘ethnic group’
subject to the full
‘native’ treatment.”
The entitlement to experience “Orientals
because they are clean”.
If I say, “I am partial to you” as in
“I prefer lemon sorbet to cookies and
cream”
you might object to the comparison.
DARK CHOCOLATE
MILK CHOCOLATE
But one is always in some kind of
BUTTER filled with things that tend
store
CHOCOLATE
towards disappearance: being
CHOCOLATE
PAIN
AU CHOCOLATE
eaten, melted, evaporated.
MOUSSE
Our fugitive bravery.
The vague feeling of release.
STRAIGHT FROM THE JAR
PAYDAY
the vagueness between my legs
I, too, find it hard to follow recipes.
About performativity, words do things.
If anyone asked me—
“yes,” “I do,” “I promise.”
in silence
The cost of relation
parallel to each other
a certainty of being infringed upon
or the impossibility of imagining such.
wound
But the skin persists
I hid it under a fallen rock
One has to deal with the given
A form of bureaucracy.
Speaking of a lesbian frown, I once saw these two pictures in close intervals of time and was struck by the similar
expression, especially in the gums. Could there be such a thing as a lesbian smile? How does sexuality shape one’s
face?
not only ‘sir-ed’ when encountered but also on the telephone
what is that fear that gets solved through classification?
how ironic that when confronted with a real symbiosis,
when I became aware that I wasn’t one but two,
perhaps many
that I was never alone
a melange of signifiers sprouting or harvested from our bodies
however fraught the feelings inside
the
one
I learned to deceive the master to recognize me as its equal
There will never be a master narrative
a simple Google question
intersectional emasculation
where one tragic body transforms another.
our interest is mutual although it might not be the same
“Wrath” in Spanish is colera, like the disease, where the Mississippi river
bends became thick and gelatinous with fat and skin.
Phantom symptoms for equal rights
transforming into a commodity.
imprinted on my skin, staining the course of the rest of my existence
Homosexual in modern Turkey is tulip, like the disease
A national symbol
A eugenic process of purity or
“how we bled across each other”
replicating the parlance of power
a clash of diseases striving to emerge triumphant
I stopped taking the medicine.
I so wanted that flexibility
I wanted something else but I got “this”
the mismatch
mistranslation
a decorative object to be contemplated
your “high faggoty voice”
a translucent oily bubble
wrapped around my heart like a fried onion
a miracle of display.
I find myself rankled by your latest writing
as perhaps you were by mine that
won’t wash out of your hands
standardized regulations
speculative frenzy
unused build-up
the untruth is too angering
divination of an invisible, internal state
more complex and subtle means.
So you can say
It’s a mystery I’d like to work on with you
I shrug and think, everything has work in it.
What time are you out of your meetings?
==Graduation Project Reading Research - Octopus in Drag==
毒性、多孔性、传染、爱情、边界、苦中作乐、种族批判、性/酷儿生态学、动物性、有生性、怪物性、新怪异小说、异诗学、移民、理论的克里奥化、批判性虚构、变装表演、黄色恐怖、崩塌,他方,雄性气质,多孔性
=== Latest thinking ===
* From ''Animals, Sex, and Transsubstantiation:''
* What do to think about the various issues of metamorphosis and Trans- in this work?
* What do you think about octopus genitalia? Or orifice?
* cannibalistic tendencies?
* How to threat whites?
* From ''Following Mercurial Affect:''
* Differences in virus and toxicity
===Core Readings===
*'''''Animacies - Biopolitics, Racial Mattering, and Queer Affect (2012), Mel Y. Chen'''''
*'''''Wild Things The Disorder of Desire (2020), Jack Halberstam'''''
*[https://pw-magazine.com/2021/jack-halberstam-refusal-an-aesthetics-of-collapse '''''ART SPECIALS BERLIN Jack Halberstam Refusal: An Aesthetics of Collapse''''']
*[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tshNSOjd5aY '''''Jack Halberstam, Unworlding and Q&A at Queer Earth and Liquid Matters | Serpentine''''']
*[https://nieuweinstituut.nl/en/events/wild-things-jack-halberstam '''''Wild Things with Jack Halberstam''''']
*[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yJge51E4WMY '''''Paul B. Preciado with Jack Halberstam''''']
*[https://www.betonsalon.net/IMG/pdf/bs22-final-complet.pdf '''''A Hard White Body - Candice Lin''''']
*[https://www.e-flux.com/architecture/sick-architecture/352870/the-virus-figure-and-infrastructure/ '''''The Virus: Figure and Infrastructure (2020), Elizabeth A. Povinelli''''']
*'''''More Lessons from a Starfish: Prefixial Flesh and Transspeciated Selves (2008), Eva Hayward'''''
*[https://thedrummersrevenge.wordpress.com/2009/03/31/racism-and-homophobia-the-chinese-in-victorian-canada/ '''''Racism and Homophobia: The Chinese in Victorian Canada (2009), Hamish''''']
*'''''A View from the Bottom Asian American Masculinity and Sexual Representation (2014), Tan Hoang Nguyen'''''
*'''''The Against Nature Journal'''''
*'''''Sex Ecologies (2021), Stefanie Hessler'''''
*'''''The Material Kinship Reader (2022), Kris Dittel and Clementine Edwards'''''
*'''''Death by Landscape (2022), Elvia Wilk'''''
*'''''Lovebug (2023), Daisy Lafarge'''''
*'''''Elsewhere, Within Here Immigration, Refugeeism and the Boundary Event (2010), Trinh T. Minh-ha'''''
*'''''Alien Rhymes (2019), Amy Ireland'''''
*'''''Vampires in Space (2023), Isadora Neves Marques'''''
*'''''YWY, Searching for a Character Between Future Worlds (2022),''''' '''''Isadora Neves Marques'''''
*'''''[https://www.notion.so/d985e47ce8cf49eb97f417fb12ca8088 他者的身份政治:马华文学,或理论的克里奥化]'''''
*[https://mp.weixin.qq.com/s/9NYWVwYatOnq0JFzg4bZVQ '''''天使岛, 翁笑雨''''']
*[https://mp.weixin.qq.com/mp/appmsgalbum?action=getalbum&__biz=MjM5MjAzMzUyMA==&scene=1&album_id=1761260037747834888&count=3#wechat_redirect '''''猪仔叹和毒物赋,林从欣''''']
*[https://www.guggenheim.org/articles/checklist/responding-to-anti-asian-xenophobia-during-the-pandemic-part-one '''''Responding to Anti-Asian Xenophobia during the Pandemic, 翁笑雨''''']
*'''''[https://www.e-flux.com/journal/28/68031/queer-temporalities-and-the-chronopolitics-of-transtemporal-drag/ Queer Temporalities and the Chronopolitics of Transtemporal Drag (2011), Antke Engel]'''''
*'''''[https://www.e-flux.com/journal/44/60173/toxic-assemblages-queer-socialities-a-dialogue-of-mutual-poisoning/ Toxic Assemblages, Queer Socialities: A Dialogue of Mutual Poisoning (2013), Antke Engel and Renate Lorenz]'''''
*[https://www.boudry-lorenz.de/media/Aftershow_Letters_Virginie.pdf '''''Aftershow Letters Virginie''''']
*'''''Rethinking Homonationalism (2013), Jasbir K. Puar'''''
*'''''Racism or Race Play: A Conceptual Investigation of the Race Play Debates (2017), Susanne Schotanus'''''
*'''''White Innocence: Paradoxes of Colonialism and Race (2016), Gloria Wekker'''''
*'''''The RIght to Sex (2021), Amia Srinivasan'''''
*'''''[https://www.awhammagazine.com/queeronomics-neoliberal-co-optation-of-queer-masculinities Queeronomics: Neoliberal Co-Optation Of Queer Masculinities, Mudar Al-Khufash]'''''
===Creolization===
Edouard Glissant
Shu-mei Shih
Trinh T. Minh-ha
===Toxicity, Infectiousness, Animality, Migration===
Candice Lin
Mel Y. Chen
Isadora Neves Marques
Antke Engel
Pauline Boudry / Renate Lorenz
Anicka Yi
===Monstrousness, Collapse, Failure, Dance===
Paul B. Preciado
Jack Halberstam
''Hysteria'' by The Institute of Queer Ecology
===Cyberfeminism, Critical Fabulation, Gathering===
Saidiya Hartman
Mindy Seu
===Xenopoetics, Compost, New Weird ===
Amy Ireland
Mark Fisher
Elvia Wilk
===Sex, Sexuality, Race===
Andil Gosine
Gloria Wekker
Amia Srinivasan
Susanne Schotanus
Awhãm Magazine
The Against Nature Journal
Jasbir K. Puar
===...===
Zach Blas
Carlos Motta
Adham Faramawy
Basel Abbas and Ruanne Abou-Rahme
Fuyuhiko Takata
Sunpride Foundation
Jimmy DeSana
== Readings ==
=== Readings from Institute for Postnatural Studies ===
* '''''Death by Landscape, Elvia Wilk'''''
* '''''The Left Hand of Darkness, Ursula K. Le Guin'''''
* '''''A [White] Cyborg’s Manifesto_ the overwhelmingly Western ideology driving technofeminist theory'''''
* '''''Race, Gender, and Virtual Inequality_ Exploring the Liberatory Potential of Black Cyberfeminist Theory'''''
* '''''Podcast: <nowiki>https://archive.ica.art/whats-on/what-can-post-cyber-feminism-do-reproductive-justice/</nowiki>'''''
* '''''Legacy Russell, Glitch Feminism: A Manifesto (London: Verso, 2020)'''''
* '''''Tiziana Terranova, ‘Free Labour: Free Labour, Producing Culture for the Digital Economy,’ Social Text 63: <nowiki>https://web.mit.edu/schock/www/docs/18.2terranova.pdf</nowiki>'''''
* '''''Anastasia Siaoka and Elisabetta Biasin, ‘Bleeding Data: The Case of Fertility and Menstruation Tracking Apps,’ Internet Policy Review: <nowiki>https://policyreview.info/articles/analysis/bleeding-data-case-fertility-and-menstruation-tracking-apps</nowiki>'''''
* '''''Sadie Plant, 'On the Matrix: Cyberfeminist Simulations' in The Cybercultures Reader, eds. David Bell and Barbara M. Kennedy (London: Routledge, 2000), 325–336.'''''
* '''''Annihilation (film), Alex Garland dir., 2018.'''''
* '''''Amy Ireland, ‘Alien Rhythms’, Litteraria Pragensia, vol. 29, no. 58, ‘Avant-Futures’, 2019: 58–71 (or online).'''''
* '''''Troubling Ecology: Wangechi Mutu, Octavia Butler, and Black Feminist Interventions in Environmentalism​ (​32 pages) Chelsea M. Frazier in Critical Ethnic Studies Vol. 2, No. 1 (University of Minnesota Press, 2016)'''''
* '''''What the Sands Remember​ ​(21 pages) Vanessa Agard Jones (GLQ, 2012)'''''
* '''''Story/Podcast: ​The Ocean that Fades into Sky Kathleen Kayembe (Lightspeed Magazine, 2019)'''''
* '''''Undrowned: Black Feminist Lessons from Marine Mammals Alexis Pauline Gumbs (A.K Press, 2020)'''''
* '''''Black Atlantic Queer Atlantic​ ​(26 pages) Omise’eke Natasha Tinsley (GLQ, 2008)'''''
* '''''Bodyminds Reimagined: (Dis)ability, race and gender in Black Women’s Speculative Fiction Sami Schalk, ​(Duke University Press, 2018)'''''
* '''''Podcast: Back to Earth - Queer Currents Serpentine Gallery (2020)'''''
* '''''Introduction: Black Ecology Nathan Hare (The Black Scholar, 1970)'''''
* '''''Let them Drown: the Violence of Othering in a Warming World Naomi Klein, (London Review of Books, 2016)'''''
* '''''Black Feminist Ecological Thought: A Manifesto Chelsea M. Frazier (Atmos Magazine, 2020)'''''
* '''''Aww Shucks: How do we Prepare for Climate Apocalypse [podcast episode, transcript available] adrienne maree brown & Autumn Brown, How to Survive the End of the World Podcast (2018)'''''
* '''''Introduction: Black Global Ecologies J.T. Roane & Justin Hosbey, Environment and Society: Advances in Research (2022)'''''
=== FEMINIST KILLJOY, Reading from Sara Ahmed ===
* '''''Gloria Anzaldúa, Borderlands / La Frontera: The New Mes-tiza (San Francisco: Aunt Lune Books, 2nd edn, 1999)'''''
* '''''Lauren Berlant, The Queen of America Goes to Washington City (Durham: Duke University Press, 1997) and Cruel Optimism (Durham: Duke University Press, 2011)'''''
* '''''Judith Butler, Gender Trouble: Feminism and the Subversion of Identity (New York: Routledge, 1990) and Precarious Life: The Powers of Mourning and Violence (London: Verso, 2004)'''''
* '''''Angela Y. Davis, Freedom is a Constant Struggle (Chicago: Haymarket Books, 2016) and Abolition. Feminism. Now., with Gina Dent, Erica R. Meiners and Beth E. Richie (Chicago: Haymarket Books, 2021)'''''
* '''''Reni Eddo-Lodge, Why I'm No Longer Talking to White People about Race (London: Bloomsbury, 2017)'''''
* '''''Mona Eltahawy, Seven Necessary Sins for Women and Girls (Dublin: Tramp Press, 2021)'''''
* '''''Marilyn Frye, The Politics of Reality: Essays in Feminist Theory (Trumansburg: The Crossing Press, 1993)'''''
* '''''Roxane Gay, The Bad Feminist (London: Corsair, 2014)'''''
* '''''Alexis Pauline Gumbs, Undrowned: Black Feminist Lessons from Marine Mammals (Chico, CA: AKA Press, 2020)'''''
* '''''Ruby Hamad, White Tears, Browm Scars: How White Feminism Betrays Women of Color (New York: Orion, 2020)'''''
* '''''Saidiya Hartman, Wayward Lives, Beautiful Experiments: Intimate Histories of Social Upheaval (London: Serpent's Tail, 2009)'''''
* '''''bell hooks, Feminist Theory: From Margin to Center (London: Pluto Press, 2000) and Talking Back: Thinking Feminism, Thinking Black (Boston: South End Press, 1989)'''''
* '''''Audre Lorde, Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches (Tru-mansburg: The Crossing Press, 1984) and A Burst of Light: Essays (Ithaca: Firebrand Books, 1988)'''''
* '''''Aileen Moreton-Robinson, Talkin' Up to the White Woman: Indigenous Women and Feminism (Brisbane: University of Queensland Press, 2020) and The White Possessive: Property, Power and Indigenous Sovereignty (Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press, 2015)'''''
* '''''Mikki Kendall, Hood Feminism: Notes from the Women White Feminism Forgot (London: Bloomsbury, 2020)'''''
* '''''Lola Olufemi, Feminism, Interrupted: Disrupting Power (London: Pluto Press, 2020)'''''
* '''''Claudia Rankine, Citizen: An American Lyric (Min-neapolis: Greywood Press, 2014) and Just Us: An American Conversation (London: Allen Lane, 2020)'''''
* '''''Prisca Dorcas Mojica Rodriguez, For Brown Girls with Sharp Edges and Tender Hearts: A Love Letter to Women of Color (New York: Seal Press, 2021)'''''
* '''''Chelsea Watego, Another Day in the Colony (Brisbane, University of Queensland, 2021)'''''
* '''''Rafia Zakaria, Against White Feminism (London: Hamish Hamilton, 2021)'''''
=== Queering the Narrative ===
==== '''''Write in anachronistically with multitude (rethink time)''''' ====
* '''''Mark Fisher - The Slow Cancellation Of The Future'''''
* '''''PBS Idea Channel - What is history'''''
* '''''Aihe Wang - Cosmology and politics in Ancient China'''''
* '''''Future Host - Xiangliu'''''
==== '''''Write anachronistically with multitude  (rethink space)''''' ====
* '''''Gayatri C. Spivak  - Planetarity'''''
* '''''Mike Parker Pearson -The Archaeology of Death and Burial'''''
* '''''Yuri Pines -The One that pervades All in Ancient Chinese Political Thought: Origins of “The Great Unity” Paradigm'''''
* '''''Future Host - Ze + Youli'''''
==== '''''Playing with pronounce/ Write erotica''''' ====
* '''''Future Host - Shuangshuang'''''
* '''''Zairong Xiang - Yingyang transdualism  '''''
* '''''Zairong Xiang - Queer Ancient Ways: A Decolonial Exploration'''''
* '''''Adrienne Maree Brown - Pleasure Activism: The Politics of Feeling Good'''''
==== '''''Bending the reality (rethink genres)''''' ====
* '''''McKenzie Wark - A_Hacker_Manifesto'''''
* '''''Rebecca Jennings - Is a new kind of religion forming on the internet?'''''
* '''''Helen Hester - XENOFEMINISM'''''
* '''''Friedrich Engels and Karl Marx - The Communist Manifesto'''''
==== '''''Embodying the narrative''''' ====
* '''''Alice Sparkly Kat - Introduction To Postcolonial Astrology'''''
* '''''Lindsay Choi - Transverse  '''''
* '''''Robin R. Wang - Kundao'''''
* '''''Yuhang Li - Becoming Guanyin'''''
* '''''Michael Taussig - The Magic of the State'''''
==== '''''Return (alternative autobiography)''''' ====
* '''''Bassem Saad - Syringe Spindle Scepter'''''
* '''''Elvia Wilk - Oval'''''
* '''''Nieh Hua-ling - Mulberry and Peach'''''
=== [http://artjournal.collegeart.org/?p=16500 A Syllabus on Transgender and Nonbinary Methods for Art and Art History] ===
== Research Methodologies ==
*[[MuyangPOP@)@|Text on Practice]]
*Project Proposal
*[https://vanilla-tennis-f53.notion.site/Octopus-in-Drag-_-Thesis-Outline-_-Muyang-Teng-bdc0db5503334732a12e7fdaf9558913?pvs=4 Thesis Outline]
*Graduation Thesis
==Practice==
HOW DO YOU throw a brick through the window of a bank?
[[VPMY|An Artist Who Only Participates in Group Exhibitions]]
[[The ruined map|The Ruined Map]]
[[Writing Through Editing TMY|Echos of an Unverifiable World]]
[[DAF2|Purple Kiss]]
[[Dear Abliz (ئابلىز)]]
==Margins and Identities==
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Theory The Margins of Theory] ===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Language The Margins of Language]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Empire The Margins of Empire]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Time The Margins of Time]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Diaspora The Margins of Diaspora]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Gender The Margins of Gender]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Ethnicity The Margins of Ethnicity]===
===[https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/The_Margins_of_Culture The Margins of Culture]===
==Feminism, Queerness==
===[[Erotic Writing Muyang|Erotic Writing]]===
===The Material Kinship Reader===
===Sex Ecologies===
===The Against Nature Journal===
===Queer Ecologies: Sex, Nature, Politics, Desire===
===Pedro Neves Marques===
*YWY, Searching for a Character between Future Worlds
*Vampires in Space
===Tabita Rezaire===
=== Heather Davis===
===Sara Ahmed===
===Sophie Lewis ===
===Paul B. Preciado===
* ''Manifiesto contrasexual''
*''Testo yonqui''
*''Un apartamento en Urano.''
*''Dysphoria Mundi''
*Preciado write articles for: <nowiki>https://www.liberation.fr/?redirected=1</nowiki>;
*[[Anus my|Anal Politics]]
===Jack Halberstam===
===Donna Haraway===
*[[Donna Haraway Muyang|notes]]
===Elvia Wilk===
*<nowiki>https://elviapw.com/</nowiki>
*<nowiki>https://lithub.com/toward-a-theory-of-the-new-weird/</nowiki>
*<nowiki>https://www.e-flux.com/journal/92/205298/the-word-made-fresh-mystical-encounter-and-the-new-weird-divine/</nowiki>
*<nowiki>https://granta.com/erotics-of-rot/</nowiki>
===Antke Engel + Pauline Boudry / Renate Lorenz===
*<nowiki>https://www.e-flux.com/journal/52/59935/the-elegantly-strong-triad-defamiliarizing-the-family-in-works-by-latoya-ruby-frazier-and-henrik-olesen/</nowiki>
*<nowiki>https://www.e-flux.com/journal/17/67418/desire-for-within-economic-transformation/</nowiki>
* <nowiki>https://www.e-flux.com/journal/28/68031/queer-temporalities-and-the-chronopolitics-of-transtemporal-drag/</nowiki>
*https://www.e-flux.com/journal/44/60173/toxic-assemblages-queer-socialities-a-dialogue-of-mutual-poisoning/
*http://www.queer-institut.de/en/
===Mel Y. Chen + Candice Lin===
*Animacies
*<nowiki>https://www.e-flux.com/journal/130/492951/death-to-death-life-by-cuts/</nowiki>
*<nowiki>https://gws.berkeley.edu/about/department-faculty/mel-y-chen/</nowiki>
*https://read.dukeupress.edu/glq/article-abstract/17/2-3/265/34745/Toxic-Animacies-Inanimate-Affections?redirectedFrom=fulltext
===Carlos Motta===
*https://www.e-flux.com/journal/44/
*https://carlosmotta.com/
*https://vimeo.com/user3319523
===Zairong Xiang===
*https://www.xiangzairong.com/
*[[Yin-yang, Transdualism|Yinyang, Transdualism]]
*https://timesmuseum.org/cn/journal/south-of-the-south/shanzhai-a-theory-of-the-south
===[[Taoism Muyang|Zhengbo, Daoism, Ecology]]===
===Cyberfeminism===
*Glitch Feminism
*Mindy Seu
===Glossary===
<nowiki>https://keywords.nyupress.org/</nowiki>
Posthuman glossary
<nowiki>https://www.queernature.org/</nowiki>
<nowiki>https://queerecology.org/</nowiki>
==Other Readings==
===[[Post-colonial, Post-Soviet, Post-Earth]]===

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