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Lens Based

Arabella

Will You Meet Me Here (Part II)

Using prose, music, actors, 3D modelling, video and digital interaction software, Will You Meet Me Here (Part II) invites audiences to enter a cave wherein lies the forgotten futures and histories of technology; and the people who have always and continue to resist - insisting on keep the door of imagination open. I aim for this work to be 10-15 minutes in duration.

Why make it?

I want this work to carve out a space to resist and reveal the power dynamics that are shaping our imagination around technology. As an artist, I think we can use our sensitivities to be aware of when an imaginary around any subject matter is being hijacked. Currently, this subject matter is my primary concern due to the discrepancy between the potential these technologies have to effect the lives of everyone and the small group of people who yield the power.

Workflow

I would like to split the project into _ stages: research/sketching, writing, shooting, editing and detailing. The research stage consist of two sections: reading/watching/listening and sketching (i.e. developing the content and aesthetic of the work). Following this is a writing stage, which is where I will decide on the script. Then shooting/creating, this will consist of live action, digital animating and potentially coding. Lastly, the editing period - which will also be the point where I invite feedback and focus on details. Make a timetable for the project

Timetable

START: Now

24th May - June 4th: Research

June 5th - June 23rd: Script Writing

June 23rd - August 1st: Shooting

August 1st - September 11th: Editing/Detailing/Feedback

END: 11th September

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

SCRATCH 1

Write one page of script

SCARTCH 2: Draft some audio for the opening scene File:Scratch Audio.mp4

SCRATCH 3: using blender create a rock material and engrave it with some text from the scene above.

Yalou

Eva (Video Documentary, duration 10 to 15 minutes) will be about the connections to my grandmother,Eva; her music (she was a piano teacher and wrote her own music), and the Hungarian culture (she fled to The Netherlands in 1956 because of the Hungarian Revolution). The piece will chart the different connections that my mother, brother, uncle and me have with the meaning of Eva. And how we feel that this connection and the being of my grandmother still has influence on our lives now.

Why make it?

I feel that this is an opportunity for me to connect with my roots and ancestor(s). It is a connection that has always been there but has never been explored. I am curious to what the dive into this personal connection will develop for me and others.

Workflow

Stage 1: At first I have to go through all the family archival footage, my grandmother's written letters and her written music.

Stage 2: This upcoming summer I will be visiting Budapest and film what once was my grandmother’s home, school and living environment.

Stage 3: And than the most important voice is her music and how we connect to that, my brother is diving into that with me.

Stage 4: This whole process will be recorded, just like all the conversations that I will have throughout it.

Timetable

June: Go through the archival footage, Making music with brother and start conversations

July: Visit Budapest, Start selecting archival footage, Making music with brother and have conversations

August: Making music with brother, have conversations, start editing FINISH: Visiting Budapest

September: Making music with brother, Have conversations, Editing, Start structure first edit FINISH: Go through the archival footage.

Oktober: Making music with brother, Have conversations, Editing

November: Finishing up the music, Have conversations.

December: Have conversations

FINISH: Finish music, Finish first edit …. … … … May: Final edit of the documentary.

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

1.Find archival footage that fit the connection to a someone (my grandmother Eva)

2. Use piano recording to write a poem about connecting

3. Edit the found archivel with existing archival and the music

1.https://youtu.be/Kh5wO7r0uxI

2. Poem is in Dutch:

Het is allemaal bedacht, fladders in mijn hoofd.

Jouw realiteit is te zien, in alles wat is bewaard.

Maar nu spreek ik voor jou, want jouw zijn is zo aanwezig.

liefde

angst

Voel

hoor

De noten die spreken.

Genoeg om te maken.

Dit is geen verering

Dit is het zijn, het zijn van ons.

De keuzes die zijn gemaakt

Want we zijn verbonden.

Allemaal verbonden.

En we zijn benieuwd

Naar de wereld die onze banden heeft gelegd.

En we zijn benieuwd

Naar het effect van de wereld op onze banden.

Dit is het zijn.

De maak van wat voelt.

De maak van het nu.

Dat verbonden is met toen.

Maar misschien allemaal bedacht als fladders in mijn hoofd.

3. https://youtu.be/berqeeIXunM

Claudio

Images from a desert island (VERY BAD TITLE, i'll think of something better)

What?

A multimedia installation in an exhibition space about North Sentinel Island. [Steve: what will we see? (describe some of the images)] It will be made of a series of excerpts - mostly short moving images pieces, but not exclusively - that were produced in the research process. It will be displayed as a fragmented yet cohesive body of work, in different media - projections, monitors, prints, … - that tries to give a sense of what the project is about and what are the tools that I have been using in it. [what kind of role are you taking on as an artist in this exhibition? are you presenting it as documentary / speculative work ? What will the narrative?] [will you use excerpts of your EYE film? ] >> will be a critique on the violence and the power dynamics that envolved in making images on this place.

Why make it?

I want to make it as an intermediate stage between the early phase of the research that I have been carrying so far and its final outcome, that I still imagine as a one-screen film piece. I feel the need to bring together in a temporarily stable form all the different bits and pieces that this research project has been unfolding, to make sense of their mutual connections and to get a more clear idea of the direction that the project will follow. Ultimately, I would like to have a chance to experiment with possible ways of bringing my research and thoughts outside of my computer/studio/head, showing it in a space and seeing the way it can affect an audience. I think it is a wonderful idea to place the research and all of your work outside of the studio / your head. Do you have any examples of exhibitions / art works / installations that you might drawn inspiration from to build your installation?

Workflow:

Make a selection of the most important elements/excerpts of the research that I feel I want to share with the audience. Make sense of their mutual relation and devise ways to make them visible/understandable/appealing to an audience. Find a space and spend time experimenting ways to bring these elements in it - think of spatial relations, dimensions, time/space experience. Open it to the public, get feedback, learn something from it, carry on the project towards its next steps. [ what are strategies that you can implement to make the research visible / understandable / appealing to an audience ?]

Timetable:

Select fragments/parts of research that I want to display in the installation. Make maquettes, draw plans, write notes about the form that the installation could take, about the way these elements could possibly inhabit and make sense together in an exhibition space. Try to find a suitable space. And find a good compromise between my plans to its physical constraints. Find someone who can deal with the practicalities of organizing an exhibition. Make the exhibition. [ what type of space do you envison the work to be exhibited? ]

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

SCRATCH - gather ideas about the elements of this installation; imagine their forms, their devices, their possible ways of being in a physical space; take notes, draw sketches to keep track what you come up with.

Luni

War On Social Media - Grandma Edition is a lightweight, colourful, quirky (short) experimental documentary about old/er adults on social media, focusing on feelings and interactions. I got inspired to make this project by observing my grandma’s (71) behaviour on social media (Facebook) as she’s a huge stalker of her ex husbands and get’s mad if someone from the family likes a picture that he posted, and turns it into this silent war on likes, posts emotional images and is pretty addicted by now (also joined a club where they teach elderly to use smart phones (better)). My other grandma (79) have never been on the internet, still has the button phone, yet claims she would like to write some comments on daily news posts, and I’m sure she would be a huge internet troll.[:-) love the humour here:-)

Why make it?

I think a lot has been already told and explored about the general effects of social media, but I would like to focus on the side of the people who have suddenly entered this new online world of relationships after spending the majority of life offline.

Workflow

1. Observing grandma’s post’s on facebook, talking to her about what’s going through in her head; collecting screenshots and maybe some related found footage.

2. Stalking fb group ‘Vienišų Senjorų Grupė ‘(Single Senior‘s Group).

3. Talking to my internet free grandma, scrolling through facebook feed together, asking her to write her comments on the sheet of paper.

4. (In the ideal situation) Organizing a workshop for the seniors to create hearthwarming videos (as they do with images (see example))

Timetable

No timetable. Do this project on the side of my ‘serious project’, on my free time, not pushing it, collecting material when feeling like it.[<< S:please imagine it is a real project with a deadline]

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

- collect 10 images from Lonely (or single?) Seniors fb group. Look for the images that are different from each other, different elements (as they tend to be very similar).

- make a collage of those images (moodboard for the upcoming film?)

- design a poster

Sam

What?

The project is about sitting spaces that emulate and reflect upon public space; ideally in an exhibition format that makes use of sound, image and physical material. Short videos, (fragmented) conversations, collages of photo and constructed

Why make it?

I want to make it because I am continually working with encounters, with so-called ‘strangers’ that I meet in my life. I am very curious how other people have encounters with each other, but also how people encounter the physically built (or non) spaces within urban environments. What are the theoretical intentions of these places, and how does this come out in practice?

Workflow

To make this, I need to begin by selecting different places that I would like to specifically focus on. Then I must spend lots of times in these places, observing and melting into them, but also actively speaking with people there (and away from there), recording audio and visual (separate and together). I then need to proceed with sifting and sorting through the collection of material I gather, to try to build a larger cohesive work amongst it all. Finally I would like to build a public space, that can be used to ones liking, while exploring the sounds and images.

Timetable

June: research, look at different places. Also begin experimenting/research through recording people discussing the topic (Room for Sound)

July/August: Spend time in these places, each day spend bringing a different tool or combination of tools. Review materials, attempt to understand and strategize a strong audio-visual language for the project

September: Spend more time, focus on collecting quality material by honing in on my method/process

October, November, December: Organize material, construct working/rough versions. Begin to plan construction of the space.

December onward: revise, revise, find a space (and money!) to put it all together.

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

Anni

What? [S: Please give provisional title to the project]

I am making an art installation about the growth of mosses that are [re] covering areas of trauma in Zuid-Kennemerland. The installation is presenting a space where green mosses are covering up the scars and wounds of industrial territory and war. The work provokes critical thinking about the agency of more-than-human forces that are reclaiming, recovering, recolonising the natural landscape. [what kind of media/materials are you planning to use? how do you plan to visualize these topics/situation? what context - a gallery, a museum, an open space... - would be the most suitable for this work?]

Why make it?

As an artist, I constantly question my position, not only as a creative but also as a human being that has agency over the world she lives in. With this work I am inviting humans to question the hierarchy between human and more-than-human entities. I am determined to make this work because I want to raise awareness about the polluting factory that is destroying the natural landscape of my hometown. [ I find very interesting the overlapping between these big/universal topics and the fact that you are working on a place that you have a deep personal connection with - I think that this could possibly be a strong point to keep in mind in developing this project to make it unique and possibly more touching for others as well ]

Workflow

Stage 1: Research and document the Bunker Route od the WOII in Zuid-Kennemerland.

stage 2: Research the growth of The Schaduwtandmoss that is growing on the industrial terrain of the Tata Steel factory next to Zuid-Kennermerland.

[how do you plan to carry this research part? do you have to ask for permission to access this place/ to take pictures/recordings ... I think it's always best to sort these practical things out beforehand]

Stage 3: Research the biological functions, DNA and capabilities of the mosses growing in these spaces. > Work together with a biologist who is specialised in researching mosses. [S: how so? Who do you contact? What kind of dialogue do you want to establish?]

Stage 3: Translate the documentations into visual data analyzations. [ collage, video, photography, graphic design, 3D renders ]

stage 4: Translate the data analyzation into data dramatization. [ think about the display of these data visualisations > Scenography > Music > Environment [are you already familiar with these kind of softwares/practices of data visualization? if not, maybe find someone in the school who can help you with it?]

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

Aitana

What?

A film approaching orthopaedic environments, exploring physical and mental spaces. Physical spaces being the workshops where the prosthesis and orthosis are made and commercialized, whereas mental spaces will be explored by encounters and conversations with patients. My aim is that the exploration of these two worlds will take a hybrid form between documentary and fiction involving a Voice Over narration.

Why make it?

I have been a patient since I was a child and I have also had the (unexpected) opportunity to work in a multinational orthopaedic company. This made me discover the massive male burden inherent in the whole process of patient treatment and the alienation that accompanies the production of medical products in the capitalist system. I am interested in creating spaces of encounter with workers and patients to talk about the process of both physical and mental treatment.

Workflow

The working process will be divided into three main stages (which I call "active or external") and a parallel one that will accompany the whole process (which I call, for the moment, "internal"). The first is a pre-production stage, resulting in a list of orthopaedic centres, organisations or institutions that I can contact either to meet with them or to obtain archival material. After this, the production will consist on the creation of sound, texts and visual material resulting from the potential encounters and exchanges. The editing will take place in the last stage, the post-production. These three active stages will be accompanied by a parallel process of readings, theoretical research and reflection and also by the creation of other type of content subjected to the world of the imagination.

Timetable

Preproduction: June - July 2023

Production: September 2023 - February/march 2024

Postproduction: march - may 2024

Rapid prototypes (scratches)


#SCRATCH 1: 
create a short story with words related to the term "orthopedic"


Our character was born somewhere in Europe in the 20th century. 

English was the omnipresent language tracing and mapping the historical context in which he was born, raised and dead, but we don’t think he spoke English, he could have spoken a more eastern language, perhaps. 

His family was middle class pero se construyó a sí mismo, humildemente, pero no era un pedante, era un buen tipo, amable, trabajador.

He was successful all his life, he helped poor people, in general. 

Nevertherless, despite he always had a positive mood, he also had lots of destructive thoughts related to his profession, surgery. He was a surgeon. He could have been a physician but may be this would have been too much.

He dreamt about repairing and sewing but also about breaking and exploding things, in general, in a very violent way. These thoughts, at some point, became quite problematic, he didn’t know what to do about it, he had lots of nightmares, he was very tired.

He thought he could improve his sleep by taking some kind of mental protection in order to understand more his subconscious mind, so he thought that speaking with a friend would be great.

His friend, an orthodontist suggested him to improve his posture while sleeping. Also a new pair of shoes could help. 

“It is paradoxical” he thought.


#SCRATCH 2:
1- Find two videos related to "ortho"
2- Create a new text by mixing dialogues from the two videos


From the 1880 til 1907 various pests cost major damage to local crops. By the turn of the century, pests like the coddling moth infected apples grown in the Pájaro Valley. Growers lost nearly half a million dollars during that time, which is equivalent to over 13 million dollars in today’s money. 

Two brothers who where living in that time were a key part solving this problem.

CLASSIC V2: ray ortho sensor, sharp wall bug.

NEW V3: collision ortho sensor, sharp wall ok :) Perfect collision

CLASSIC V2: Telepatic fly bug.

NEW V3:  Perfect collision

CLASSIC V2: sewer, tubes, collision, bug

NEW V3: perfect collision behind objects, perfect collision behind tubes. 


After experimenting, they were able to formulate a pesticide that was effective in stopping pests but wouldn’t damage the crops like previous pesticides.  The two brothers found a company in Watsonville called ORTHO and sell the product worldwide.

#SCRATCH 3:
Quick analysis of a medical interview

Te

What?

A time-based media titled Repeat After Me will focus on the repetition of dialogues and actions in Thai propaganda films that were used to brainstorm and manipulate people in the society. It will create the sense of hypnosis and make you aware of what you are perceiving. It will be shot on both digital and analog format.

Why make it?

I would like to develop the research on propaganda in Thailand further. I consider "The Holy Sponge" , my recent film, as a start of creating political work in an ironic approach. I think there is a lot of possibility to dive deeper into this topic and it is one way to understand the society that I grew up in.

Workflow

Firstly, I will select and watch the propaganda films that are effective in terms of implanting a certain idea, analyse them and pick some terms or sentence that were used several times in the films. Secondly, I will create work based on the selected term and sentence that I got from the previous stage. Then I will explore the term, phrase or sentence from the works I made. Lastly, I will select some terms and sentence to depict them through time based media.

Timetable

Now - June : Research on propaganda films from Thailand. Watch and select the films regarding their efficiency in brainwashing. July - August : Analyse films and make work based on selected terms or sentences that derived from the films. September : Analyse the works I made from previous stage and explore some terms, sentences, ideas.

October : Select the final terms, sentences and direction of video. Plan on pre-production process.

October - November : Production, shooting.

December - January : Post- Production, Editing, Color-Grading.

February : Feedback and Fixing.

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

Find a propaganda film you found on https://archive.org/ or other source on internet
Collect the cheesy terms / dialogue said in the films
Reproduce it (again & again)

I was born here. And I will die here.

Sara

What will it be?

I would like to create a short documentary on the Rotterdam city's secret identity through the stickers all over the city. I want to explore and follow the person or people behind them and interview them or make footages of their daily life.

Workflow

The first stage is to go for a walk in the city and find the stickers are interesting to me. step two is to make pictures of the stickers for future refrencces and organize them. step three would be to google the stickers or scan their QR code or search the name on them to see where it would take me. step four is to contact te person or go whereever they are and start a conversation with them and ask if they are ok to be filmed. step five is to take picture and footages of the person and their story of what made them to make that story and explore the secret identity of the city.

Timetable

Now-june : start the step three because i already made the step one. july : start the step four and shooting and start the editing process alongside of shooting. work on the script of the film and sound too. september : hopefully i have the irst draft of the film. october - november : work on developing the film to the final draft december : search for galleries to have an exhibition of the picture and a short version of the film january : make a site for the project to find more artist and collect more stickers february : enter the festivals with them film i made and have the exhibition in more galleries and cities

Add images (today's scratches here)

1) take pictures of the stickers through the city

2) research one of the stickers

what is Dona Daria?

3) try to explain the history behind the sticker in a paragraph

Dona Daria is an organization based in Rotterdam that helps the society to grow and makes the opportunities for them.

the name Dona Daria means sharing knowledge and learning. The space, is a department in Dona Daria which works with the youth generation and helps them to grow. they recently started a podcast with Matheus Santana, a content creator who recently moved to the Netherlands. the recorded the first episode recently and i think i am going to contact them about the space and the podcast to have an interview with the Matheus.

Dona Daria has fifteen different programs right now that are active. i personally think connecting with this organization would help a lot of expats and students who recently moved to the netherlands and try to be a part of the society.

Muyang

What?

I want to make a series of collage sculptures/paintings from leftover recycled plastic to establish my queer kinship with plastic. I wanted to see this project as a game in everyday life, exploring the potential of plastic through aesthetic experiments in blending color, transparency, opacity, texture, volume, etc. I want to use a playful approach, inherited from the Dadaist subversion that appeals to me, which is closely linked to collage.

Why make it?

I spent my childhood in the rapidly developing years of China, growing up with lots of plastic toys and colourful stickers. I had a wall of stickers in my house that was covered in all sorts of colourful, glowing plastic stickers and had lots of traces of my handiwork. Playing with plastic is still very popular in China and many adults still enjoy it. Many children buy cheap, colourful plastic, moldable materials from small shops in front of schools. I secretly played with tape, ballpoint pens, coloured ink and other materials in class, it was sticky and malleable and I enjoyed the richness of the transformation process inside.

Workflow

I am reading some articles on material kinship, non-binary materiality, and forms. I think I will start collecting materials in the near future (downloading from the internet and printing them out at print stations, collecting from everyday life, buying from second-hand shops etc.). I will then start working on a physical sculpture and photograph some of the results of the process through photography and then print them out again as material.

Timetable

June: gathering materials and reading literature

July to August: Complete initial production

September to October: get feedback from tutor and complete

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

Find a plastic toy from your childhood that relates to my gay identity

Think about this image

Obviously the characters in this image don't have much to do with the real Japan. In my time dating gays all over the world, I found out that everyone grew up under the influence of Japanese anime. It's a kind of fabricated pseudo-Japan. White gays like to appropriate East Asian aesthetics in their rooms, in the places where they fuck and party. Violence happened when I embraced a globalised homogenised queer identity. I want to find another way to use this material and to avoid this orientalism and ornamentalism.

The image shows an elaborate Japanese-made toy. But I didn't have such elaborate toys as a child, most of them were cheaper Chinese products. It got me thinking about this culture of copying things that are well-known or authoritative, not just criticizing with clichés the lack of attention to copyright, etc.

Clara

What?

A (short) film that explores the fine lines between friendship love and romantic love and the importance of all human relationships.

I wish to make a film that feels authentic, that feels intimate, that shows nuances and the actual confrontations and lessons I find in my relationships on daily basics.

This I would like to see in an autobiographical-fiction narrative story in which I mix my own experiences with those of others and stories I would like to have visualised more.

I want it to feel tender, relatable, leading to self reflection and also just use my own humour more.

(A topic I would like to also include might be the influence of the privileged/constant moving lifestyle on relationships.)

Why make it?

I was missing different narratives of love in the film industry and realized what a toxic influence many movies had on my perception of love and relationships as a teenager. A narrative that is drenched by hardship, drama, fighting for each other, pain or unrealistic happy endings. No stories of fights over little-not-so-little aspects of daily life and facets of love with a queer perspective.

At least this is what I grew up with mostly. Now the film world is already shifting, with some of my favorite examples being “Close” by Lukas Dhont, “Something you Said Last Night” by Luis de Filippis or the more known ones “Little Miss Sunshine” and “Call me by your Name”.

All examples to me from which I want to draw inspiration when it comes to the portrayal of love, relationships and appreciation for the other, learning from each other, but also a realistic idea of what we treat each other like, when we are our worst, most unfiltered self.

Workflow

1/ Collect scenarios that describe the feeling/ relationships I wish to portray and start writing small scenes (storyboard).

2/ Collect further references in films that give the feeling I want to give

3/ Define out characters and search for actors that are fitting (maybe if realistic people playing themselves?)

4/ Start shooting scenes

5/ The editing will most likely be a “writing by editing process”, in which I define the final narrative.

Timetable

Before September 2023: Writing first script/storyboard draft

September 2023 - December 2024: rounds of feedback, trial shoots, finalizing, organizing, finding team

January 2024 - June 2024: Film & edit

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

(they could be drawings, brief script, photos, mock ups, maquettes, collage &c)

[Steve note: Yes, it could be many things. Please make specific propositions for rapid prototype [scratch] (as in previous sessions).]

Lau

Version 1:

Back to Ever / Terug naar Altijd (worktitle)

What will it be? (Three sentences max)

A series of artworks surrounding genetic mental health problems, generational trauma, healing the inner child and revisiting the past while also letting go through traveling. I will use this theme as a starting point for different outcomes of expression. The outcome of this research is not yet determined and can be in the form of written text, paintings, a performance, a fiction script a visual essay and/or an installation.

Why

Generational trauma has been a big part of my own psychological development and is a recognizable theme for many around us. I want to expand my practice and use multiple ways of creating to research the subject of my roots and childhood further. I consciously choose to research a given theme, instead of proposing an idea for a finished product (like a film or installation) because I want to remain open to new possibilities.

Workflow

For my eye-film I used some of my personal archive in telling an associative story and I want to work with this material again in exploring this theme. Also I made a lot of pictures during my interrail trip while processing certain experiences. Looking through 10 hours of footage of the past shot by my father since and these photo's from the present will be the starting point of the process. I want to let the form unfold itself by collecting material by creating on the on hand and researching the subject theoreticallly on the other. Through different forms of expression and writing I will work towards a prototype for an art-piece that is presentable.

Timetable

Week 23: Diving into the subject, reading alongside creating (this will be ongoing).

Selecting the pictures from the interrail trip, starting to play with them

Week 24: Starting with writing, poetry and performance piece about fatherhood for Kaleido

Week 25: Making pictures, paintings and writings during faerie gathering

Week 26: Spotting the footage of my childhood, trying to digitalize the smaller tapes

Week 27: Performance at Kaleido at the 8th of july. Preparing in the days before. Making recordings the day itself.

Week 29: Making some edits, combining poetry with archive footage

Week 31: Making paintings

Week 32: Reflecting on the given outcomes. Making new edits.

Week 33/34: Holliday break

Week 35: Shaping new plans/prototypes, looking for combinations, new angles

Week 36: New studyyear. Writing a script for a new prototype

Week 38: Refecting on script/dummy for prototype

Rapid prototypes (scratches)

1.Writing: start a freewrite and pick the best sentences

Dagen worden weken worden jaren

Landschappen trekken door het glas voorbij

In de coupé speelt een film steeds opnieuw

Moeder duwt je tegen haar borst

Fluistert wat ze zelf ook niet kan

Wanneer wordt therapie kunst

Wanneer wordt kunst therapie

Ik maak een beeld

Een voorbijganger huilt

We praten over zijn gezin

Helen is een eenmansweg

gedeeld met anderen

Bonne voyage

2. Collage with four elements combined

3. Make an edit with 3 ingredients: a picture from the trip, a clip from the past, a sound from the train

Skratch edit_Lau

File:Draft edit .mp4

Version 2:

Back to Ever / Terug naar Altijd (worktitle)

What will it be? (Three sentences max)

A series of works covering several topics: genetic mental health problems, generational trauma, healing the inner child through traveling and the influence of gender norms on my and my parent's well-being. I will use these themes as a starting point for different outcomes of expression. The outcome of this research is not yet determined and can be in the form of written text, paintings, a performance, a fiction script a visual essay and/or an installation.

Why

Generational trauma has been a big part of my own psychological development and is a recognizable theme for many around us. I want to expand my practice and use multiple ways of creating to research the subject of my roots and childhood further. I consciously choose to research a given theme, instead of proposing an idea for a finished product (like a film or installation) because I want to remain open to new possibilities.

Workflow

For my eye-film I used some of my personal archive in telling an associative story and I want to work with this material again in exploring this theme further. Also I made a lot of pictures during my interrail trip and I want to work with these to give the present time a place in the work as well. Looking through 10 hours of footage of the past shot by my father since and these photo's from now will be the starting point of the process. I want to let the form unfold itself by collecting material through creating on the one hand and researching the subject theoretically on the other. Through different forms of expression and writing I will work towards presentable prototypes that can raise new conversations.

1) previous practice (use material from text on practice)

During my bachelor's I was primarily focused on documentary and fiction moving images in a traditional way in the role of a writer and director. These were films that represented a certain message in scenes and through characters. Now I want to focus on a more autonomous way of making, in which I work more playful, hands on and with material from various sources. Also I try to expand my practice and create new and surprising outcomes.

2) relation to a wider context (no more than three sentences)

Thematically I resonate with other queer artists that try to uncover society’s demands and show the desires and stories within the community. Examples are David Wojnarowicz, Nan Goldin and Alok Vaid-Venom. My focus on personal experiences and emotions aligns with the trend of autoethnographic storytelling, while my exploration of the queer community connects to the study of gender and sexuality in queer theory.

3) What was the biggest CHOISE you made in relation to your work this year? ; as in: "this year I chose..."

This year I chose to let go of the conventions that I implemented in my practice and start again by making from scratch. I tried to let go of old ways of producing images in a more traditional role and learned to be curious again to new forms. I chose to love multiple things simultaneous next to each other without feeling the urge to produce one single thing as an artist.

Ieva

What will it be?

“Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows” will be a 15-30 minute video installation, through which the viewer will get an opportunity to delve and travel into my imaginary world. The work will touch up on the topics of loneliness, addiction and the never ending desire to feel a sense of belonging, while simultaneously wanting to escape.

Why make this work?

I have realised there is a certain value to sharing your true self, that connection to the viewer does not have to be manifested through extensive, “intellectual” research on a certain, “important” topic. Through this project, I want to cope with my own resurfacing feelings, while also showing viewers they are not alone in their insecurities and heartaches, I want them to join my safe space.

Workflow

I have started this project by doing experimental TouchDesigner, Aftereffects and Archive Footage videos of travelling through space. I want to continue on making as many experiments as I can (that depict the travel), to gather at least 3 hours of footage to choose from. I want to make my own sound design, composed of sounds from freesound.org. Lastly, I want to design the installation space, and plan, and gather the materials needed.

Time Table

START: now

June 7th: Save all the existing videos and put them onto a hard drive

June 7th: Watch Coraline for inspiration and read about the movie more in depth, collecting data (touches up on darkness, imaginary worlds, childhood wander, boredom, the want to escape)

June 10th: Make a new, additional tunnel render in Blender

June 14th: Make a new, additional tunnel render in Blender

June 16th: Gather at least 3 good, usable videos from Nasa Archives

June 21st: Gather storm videos for any Archival footage website

June 24th: Decide the theme of the worlds that the viewer will travel through + put all new existing videos on a hard drive to leave space

July: Borrow friend’s camera and film videos in Lithuania of the attributes I will find useful during that time. What surroundings make subconscious connections to my project? (for instance- I make choices that do no make sense or do not seem connected to one another at a certain time, but looking back, I find everything is more intertwined than previously imagined. I got a tattoo of the sun, without thinking about it much, later on connecting the dots of what a big role the sun plays in my life- the facility I spent time in to better my mental health was called Summer’s 5 which was a SUNflower as the logo, I also have pretty severe seasonal affective disorder in which light plays a huge roll, I grew up 4 years in Egypt, where one of the oldest, most important deities was Ra- the sun god, my old best friend, who changed my life, connected with me on the love of bodies of the sky, and even the project I am currently working on is a journey through space.

July-August: working + vacation = break from project if needed

September: Collecting data, making more tunnels, mixing and gathering footage

October: Reading research

November: Feedback + Fixing

Rapid prototypes (Scratches) (for now it is just screenshots, I will add more later)

Pad: https://pad.xpub.nl/p/Future_projects_that_MAY_or_MAY_NOT_be_made

Scratch Directory: (Lens Based) https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/ScratchDirectory

Rapid Prototype Directory Including Lens based and Xpub entries

Home: https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mediadesign/Future_project_that_MAY_or_MAY_NOT_be_made

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