On Audiences

My secret Garden

"We spend most of our fucking lives trying to be alone, trying to improve the privacy of our fucking. But fantasy goes into the opposite direction: more often than not there are other people present. Not being part of the scene (orgy) but simply being present. Also the possibility of being seen, watched, discovered, can be more exciting than the actual presence of an audience. But not all fantasy audiences are passive bystanders some are active and the participating role of a real audience - they have them applaud and the fantasizer becomes the Sarah Bernhard of Fucking and the Fellini of Fantasy, controlling both her own performance and that of the audience, her critics, pacing one against the other so that her fantasy audience reinforces her fantasy performance. Some of the cast of Oh Calcutta became so dependent on the excitement the audience brought to their performance in the theatre, that they were unable to perform sexually without an audience at home."