I am here to find a epistemological position
in the process of finding one
every pursuit is one that is personal (including anything in the framework of academia)
the right livelihood
if i were to do a phd
it would be to contribute to a marginalized, undernoticed, understated discourse
it would be the bridging of quiet rustles in a yoga studio, the lime light at the Academy Award and "fling with the philosophers" (Nelson)
photo-taking as an extension of the body
Talked to Ine and spoke about my involvement (or the lack of) with taking photos in Iceland.
I wanted to see with my eyes and I wanted to speak with a sculpture...
I made a rule for myself to not take photos or write. Even asked my friend to bring back the analog camera I carried with me.
I broke the rule during my trek. It felt necessary to take the photos.
"It's saying I am here. I am present," Ine said, "do you feel what you see online are the same as the photos you took yourself?"
"No. I took them after hiking up a mountain. There was rain, wind. I was isolated. I was cold. The moment makes it different."
"It's an energy... When you see these snapshots from others it's as if something has been ripped from you."
via The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows
The more I make film, the less I care about art [exhibited with a lot of wall text].
what is your purpose
my emotional register as a filmmaker
grammar is related to purpose - there is no inherent right or wrong
defining purpose makes editing easier
taking control is okay
repeat, taking control is okay
just because you are good at something doesn't mean you shouldn't do it...
What is in an image? Does the image conduct my intention?
Gee, if my intention is blurry...
If I become aware and articulate all the decision-making in the making of an image...
I feel exhausted.
This thing about moving image is...
I have a ton of footage. I want to be precise. I am not always motivated to edit...
For a few years I drew rectangles.
Everything happens within the bounds.
In the beginning, screens are flattened, senitized surfaces.
Projections are light without a screen.
The screen catches.
What is the materiality of light... Memory image.
Cameras are portable.
I like to be centered when everything else moves.
I do not like moving much, to be honest.
I enjoy moments when things are quiet, when I am quiet.
I enjoy being quiet.
The hierarchy of images is not dependent on the way they are produced, it comes from within. I have distrusted that within, but I will change now.
I am precious with this image and will not show it until it is done. Test the boundaries.
RSVP photo booth with curtains.