What has been done so far

Mushroom and Charcoal Sketches
Artificial Voice Expriment 1
Artificial Voice Experiment 2
Research into living networks (fungi)
Short Daily Aims List
Python Experiments 1 (Image)
Python Experiments 2 (Video)
Media Blight

Developing Interests

Technically

Trim1: In the first trimester I focused more on the play with digital media using unconventional yet simple methods for getting my message across. I was more interested in learning than doing, I nonetheless made some memorable presentations like "Skype & Cigarettes". I felt uncomfortoble in my simple approaches to media. What I made were merely manipulations of the physical sphere through the digital. There was no real feedback between them and what I made ('Skype and Cigarettes' to a lesser degree) did not feel grounded in both, which I wanted it to be. I also wanted to make a larger project where I could collect my media exercises into a coherent model, but my media experiments seemed so seperate, so far apart that I couldn't begin to imagine how I would make a collection.

Trim2: With the photobook exercise I began to work more with a solid narrative, literally. I found that making what was physical, a photobook, but connected to the virtual was a fresh breath of air. I had such big ideas for how I was going to do it! I wanted to create a narrative, what developed into Media Blight, which was both grounded in the physical and the digital; the photobook as printed media with a message about what the digital 'actually' (according to the Media Blight) was. But something kept me from doing it, I began to doubt myself; whether I could actually do this; and this doubt went from a nuisance in the middle of trimester 2 to a full-on paralysis at the end. I could not put my thoughts in paper without immediately coming up with a 'better' alternative. As time went on I spent more and more time on trying to order my ideas, focusing on one thing, which was a lost cause and it consumed all my energy. Hindisght is a female-canine as they say. I started working with my hands, but the ideas were too large, too vague to put into a larger context. My doubt spread to other areas of my life until I was completely cocooned in doubt. I was afraid of telling you tutors that I didn't know what I was doing, but, of course everyone noticed. I was insecure, and so I took to pride as I suppose I thought I could solve it myself.