SI25 Broadcast 8: Lost Music
by Chrissy, Imina, Kiara, Tessa & Charlie
LOST MUSIC
Hello XPUB1!☺
For the Week 7: Radio Show, we would love to hear your songs!♫♪
More specifically, songs from your early teenage years (13 to 16y.o.)! There are specific themes for the songs we are looking to collect, explained in the sections below.⇊
Please, upload your songs as .mp3, add your name, the name of the song and artist and if you want, a short description as to how & why your song relates the theme/prompt. We already uploaded a song as a template to copy/paste with your songs.
Thank you!♡
SHAME
Prompt: A song you were ashamed of liking when you were 13-16.
Charlie: "Ningyo Hime" - Rie Tanaka (CHOBITS Anime Ending)
Age: 13-15
Context: Chobits was the first Manga I ever saw/read at 10 y.o., which sparked my love for Manga and Anime, which ultimately sparked my love for drawing and arts.. I still LOVE the song but I was super ashamed to unironically listen to anime music back in my early teenage years.
Zuhui: "Prologue" - David Newman (Soundtrack from Disney movie 'Anastasia')
Age: 14-16
Context: I remember feeling a sense of shame for liking music from animated series or movie when I was a teenager. As a kid I wanted to be seen as grown up as much as possible and do grown up stuffs, so enjoying something from animated contents made me feel immature. Apart from how misleading the historical facts are in this Disney movie, I still love the atmosphere and the song it created around the pre and post Russian revolution, with magic in between.
Alexandria: "Joker And The Thief" - Wolfmother
Age: 13-15
Context: I found it very hard to make friends starting highschool, and one of the things I was hoping was that there'd be people who liked the same music I did. Unfortunately very few people did and I kind of got bullied out of the things I liked and into things I didn't really care for. Thankfully now I can very much embrace the music I loved back then, and most of it I still do!
Kiara: "What makes you beautiful" - One Direction
Age: 12-14
Context: Everyone was listening to One Direction back then, and even if I was trying hard not to fit it the mould...I couldn't help but like the song...
Martina: "Memento Mori" - Crywank
Age: 15-16
Context: I was a very angsty and existential teen, so I related a lot to this song but now I feel shame/ cringe when reading the lyrics.
Imina: "Follow Me Down" - The Pretty Reckless
Age: 16
Context: I was 16 & sitting in the car with my dad after I had just gotten the new single of The Pretty Reckless. Driving back home from the city I was like "Dad, let's listen to this!! It's gonna be amazing" not knowing about the beginning of this song (which understandably is embarassing at 16 in the car with your dad listening in silence). However the song is great and we both agreed on that after listening.
Claudio: "Obsesion" - Aventura
Age: 13-16
Context: I remember listening to a lot of latin american music when I went to visit my father and his family, we also listened to it when we travelled by car because he used to make mixes on CDs. All in all most of the songs were normalized to me but I remember feeling shame when playing them when my friends were around.
Chrissy: "Mittelfinger hoch" - Casper, Favorite & Kollegah
Age: 15-16
Context: I was a super huger Casper Fan at the time, but this song was very different from any other he'd released & I was kind of ashamed liking this one, because idk it was so „gangster“?! & also because I really hated the other featured rappers in the song.
Feline: "Beauty and a beat" - Justin Bieber ft. Nicki Minaj
Age: 14/15
Context: No context, this was just the shit, but none of my other friends liked it.
Kim: "Nicht Nichts" - AnnenMayKanthereit
Age: 15
Context: I liked the energy of the song but was generally ashamed of listening to music in german, it felt so explicit.
İmre: "King For a Day" - Pierce The Veil ft. Kellin Quinn
Age: 13-14
Context: It was exactly what I needed at the time but if people from my class heard it I think my depression would prove itself very difficult to hide.
Eleni: "Lolly" - Justin Bieber ft. Juicy J
Age: 15
Context: My two best friends were OBSESSED with Justin back in the day yet I never engaged with the craze. When I got a Bieber song stuck in my head I would feel "ashamed" for liking it, because I wasn't a mega fan, so I wasn't "worth it". It's so funny to think now, but also an interesting introspection of my teenagehood. Extra shame points because the theme was explicit.
Tessa: "Feel it All" - Tokio Hotel
Age: 14 - 16
Context: We were a group of 6 girls back in school, 5 of them massive fans of either One direction or 5SOS (that I actually enjoyed but was never an actual fan of), and during that time, I rediscovered Tokio Hotel through a friend of a friend and fell back into it. The girls never really got it, and you best believe I would never play TH at sleepovers.
GUILT
Prompt: A guilty pleasure song from your teenage years (you still listen to).
Imina: "You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home" - Hannah Montana
Age: 12-14
Context: If Hannah Montana can find her way back home, so can I :')
Zuhui: "Pump it" - Black Eyed Peas
Age: 14-16
Context: I used to be a big fan of the Black Eyed Peas as a teenager because back then they were the coolest thing ever. I still listen to some of their songs, but I think I feel guilty about it because my friends think they're cringe. It's mostly because their music is now played regularly at tasteless pubs and clubs during 2000s-themed nights(but I would still love to dance my ass off to this).
Alexandria: "Unravel" - Toru Kitajima
Age: 14-15
Context: Was absolutely obsessed with Tokyo Ghoul and the anime's opening and I still sing it at karaoke nights, but I'd be hesitant to admit that to anyone outside of that bubble.
Kiara: "Tatoue Moi" - Mozart L'Opéra Rock
Age: 13-16
Context: It's a musical, the lead singer is Italian and has this sexy accent when singing in French... I know the lyrics by heart <3.
Martina: "Only Love" - Ben Howard
Age: 13
Context: I remember someone introducing me to Ben Howard in secondary school, this is probably his most overplayed song- I still love it though!!!
Claudio: "Il mio inferno" - Skruigners
Age: 16
Context: From my favorite Italian punk band, some of their songs last 20 seconds and are just explosions of words and instruments, some last 1 minute and state a malcontent and repeat it a couple of times before the song ends abruptly. This one is a bit of both.
Chrissy: "3 Minuten" - Prinz Pi
Age: 15-16
Context: The song is about party youth & the struggles of being a teenager in Germany at that time & we used to listen to it at parties & it still reminds me of that time in a good & nostalgic way. Even though Prinz Pi is kinda cringe for an adult person.
Feline: "Chiquitita" - ABBA
Age: 15
Context: Its ABBA. I have nothing to add to this.
Eleni: "She Looks So Perfect" - 5 Seconds of Summer
Age: 16
Context: A banger I still revisit every now and then. I was never a boyband girlie but this is the closest I've come to it!
Kim: "Otherside" - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Age: 14 to now
Context: I listened to many Red Hot Chili Peppers Songs throughout being a teenager (though was never a 100% fan, just something that was always there), it was not really 'cool' back then - I still like some of their songs for their energetic / emotional vibes
İmre: "Blank Space" - Taylor Swift
Age: 13 to still but rarely
Context: Needless to say I am not the biggest fan of Taylor Swift the person, but I can not deny that I enjoy the music she makes. Getting to admit I liked her songs as an 13 year old was the first time I willingly and consciously step outside of the "I'm not like other girls" mindset. Not the feminist icon we need but the feminist icon the world deserves (accusatory).
Tessa: "Prendre l'air" - Shy'm
Age: 14 to 25
Context: This song makes me go insane, like possessed by miss Shy'm herself. The halftone change? Literally perfection. The track? Awfully, insanely, disgustingly good (especially the electronic violins). Perfect karaoke song, and I'm not ashamed of it anymore.
Charlie: "Fuck You" - Sleeping With Sirens
Age: 16
Context: Deep in my emo awakening, Pop Goes Punk was my way of still listening to pop music. It was NOT very popular within my friendship circle at the time (purist metalheads and punks ugh) but was my little guilty pleasure. Some covers just go so hard! <3
SORROW
Prompt: A song that made you sob or which you listened to when you were terribly sad.
Alexandria: "Sometimes" - The Drones
Age: 16
Context: This song always managed to hit the melancholy just right, violent sobbing included!
Fred: "Candles" - Daughter
Age: 16
Context: When I was depressed and endlessly bored at boarding school, I used to sit in my room for hours and listen to Indie Shuffle. This is one of the songs that brings me back to that time. Sorry to everyone I sent this to.
Kiara: "Landfill" - Daughter
Age: 15-16
Context: I discovered this song because a friend of mine covered it at a high-school concert. She was sending a message to her ex who cheated on her at the time by singing this. It hit hard and it's now my go-to when I'm sad.
Martina: "Water Me" - FKA Twigs
Age: 16
Context: I had a massive FKA Twigs phase during this time, I remember listening to this song constantly when I took the bus back in Malta, dramatically looking outside the window as I listened.
Imina: "17" - Youth Lagoon
Age: 15-16
Context: This song immediately takes me back to tumblr-days when all I did was sit at home feeling misunderstood by the world but found my people on there. It also evokes the naive feeling of believing everything can happen for you when you're 16/17.
Claudio: "Triste" - Mina
Age: 13-16
Context: The song name says it all, it translates to "Sad". The singer constantly repeats "Sad, like... Sad, like...". I used to listen to this when I was sad to the point that I was tired, it felt like listening to a lullaby.
Chrissy: "Eigentlich wollte er nie ein Liebeslied schreiben" - SDP
Age: 13-14
Context: The song is about break-ups & other stuff I didn’t really experienced so much between 13 & 14 & still felt somehow understood? But remember so clearly how I was sitting at my window, smoking & thinking „oh boy, love & live is so hard“ haha
Eleni: "I Will Follow You Into the Dark" - Death Cab for Cutie https://pzwiki.wdka.nl/mw-mediadesign/images/b/bd/Death_Cab_for_Cutie_–_I_Will_Follow_You_into_the_Dark.mp3
Age: 14-16
Context: The realization that one day I WILL die started to haunt me in middle school. I would lose sleep for days and cry when I was alone, it was a mess! This song would ignite that feeling and still does.
Feline: "Jealous" - Labrinth
Age: 14-today
Context: The piano. The lyrics. Just ugh heartbreak.
Kim: "Interlude" - London Grammar
Age: 14-16
Context: most listened song of 2015 - not a very good year
İmre: "My Immortal" - Evanescence
Age: 13
Context: Picture this, a 13 y/o imre, laying in bed at 5 am on a school night, daydreaming about an "impossible relationship" going on between herself and the girl she has a crush on. No one knows she likes girls, she is still trying to make sense of it herself.
wyn: "Little Girl In The World" - Eman Lam
Age: 14-16
Context: it is normal for teenagers to be sentimental and experience feelings of helplessness and discomfort.
Tessa: "Putains vous m'aurez plus" - Saez
Age: 16
Context: First ever breakup, this used to be "our song", even though the song itself is about a breakup. Meta way of telling me they would cheat on me in advance I guess?
Charlie: "Love for a child" - Jason Mraz
Age: 14-15
Context: The song talks about the tumults of being a child of divorce and being neglected in some ways. During the time when my parents first separated, we'd always listen and sing along to the whole album in my mom's car. I don't think she knew how much some of the songs 'hit me in the feels' back then, but I can also see how she could relate to many of the lyrics. ~ "I'd like to believe it was all about love for a child."
LOVE
Prompt: A song from an artist/artists/band you still listen to today.
Sevgi: "Haberin Yok Oluyorum" - Duman
Age: 15
Context: Duman's concerts were the first concerts where I went with my friends, drank beers and had loads of fun. I loved this song because the crowd would become one and sway one way and then the other together and it felt incredible to finally be a person but also belong to the crowd.
Alexandria: "Easy Easy" - King Krule
Age: 14-16
Context: I loved King Krule for a lot of reasons, his accent, his vibe, his sound, it was definitely my first musician crush.
Kiara: "Breezeblocks" - Alt-J
Age: since 15 to forever <3
Context: Gym class: we have to make choreographies and choose a song to match with. One of my friends suggests Alt-J, i don't know them. She makes us listen to it, we agree. It's been one of my favourite bands ever since, saw them twice live, they're amazing.
Martina: "Never Let Me Down Again" - Depeche Mode
Age: 15
Context: My dad is obsessed with Depeche Mode- since I can remember till the present day, he plays all their albums in the car. He also plays them at home while he's working, their songs started to feel like background noise in the house. But this specific song, along with many others by the band, is great.
Imina: "Disease" - Lady Gaga
Age: 12-27
Context: I love Gaga. I have loved Gaga since I was 12 and my dad gifted me "The Fame" (and my first fav song was "I like it rough", lol). I think nothing and nobody has influenced my teenage years/coming of age as much as she has. I never thought I'd still sell my soul to see her live but here I am. Her new single came out on Friday and it's amazing.
Chrissy: "ReEducation (Through Labor)" - Rise Against
Age: 13-30
Context: I actually mainly listened to Rock, Metal(core), Alternative & stuff like that between the ages of 13 & 16 & this band is still a big part of my monthly listening. Back then I had no idea what the lyrics were about, but since knowing them I love the band even more <3
Eleni: "Future" - Paramore
Age: 10-26
The self-titled album came out when I was 15, this is one of the best tracks of the album. Paramore have been my number one band since I listened to Decode on MTV one random day in 2008 and after that I made my older cousin burn "Misery Business" (actually RIOT!) on a CD for me!
Feline: "Unwritten" - Natasha Bedingfield
Age: 14-today
Context: timeless BANGER! (no other opinion accepted)
Claudio: "Hip Hop Remix" - Fabri Fibra, Mastafive
Age: yes
Context: Fabri Fibra tributes this song to music, telling how he discovered hip hop and how it changed his life. It is a nice throwback, during my high school years hip hop and rap music connected me with a lot of people as well, we used to meet up outside and listen to it together.
Kim: "The Look" - Metronomy
Age: 14-now
Context: I listened to Metronomy a lot, especially this song was everywhere I went for a few years. Then I forgot about them. Back this summer I was talking about music to my 8 years younger brother who 'recommended' Metronomy to me - and I immediately fell in love again.
İmre: "Ceviz Ağacı" - Cem Karaca
Age: 5 (Idk if it still counts)-now
Context: This song is an adaptation of Nazım Hikmet's poem with the same name. One of my favorite poets, good poem good song. Always loved it. One day when I was drunk with my father in a meyhane listening to and singing this song, I told him "I should have known it wouldn't have worked between me and (insert my first love's name), she didn't know of this song". It was right after the summer my parents got a divorce and I had my first major hearth break, it was a weirdly bonding experience. Me and my father was going through the loss of our first love at the same time.
İmre: "Nilüfer" - Müslüm Gürses
Age: 16-now
Context: Same as the song above, adaptation of a poem; this time the poet is Murathan Mungan, love it a lot. Also a song of "loss of love" both me and my father listened to.
Tessa: "Risibles Amours" - Nekfeu
Age: 15-now
Context: Nekfeu doesn't know this, but we will get married one day <3. This track from 2015 has a secret second track that is referenced in his last album (2019), and really ties up his whole creative and story-telling process. This song is about the different kind of love people experience through their life, and its title is a reference to Kundera's eponym book, who happens to be one of my favorite authors of all time. Perfect combo.EDIT: He has since been accused of sexual and domestic violence by his partner. I will personally stop listening and supporting his work, and this song will not be played during the show.
EDIT EDIT: This might be entirely false. The status of this song and its possibility to air is still on hold.
Charlie: "In the End" - Linkin Park
Age: 14-now
Context: ♡♡2000s♡♡Linkin Park♡♡Forever♡♡
Charlie: "Surrender" - Billy Talent
Age: 15-now
Context: Billy Talent is one of my all time favorite bands! Seen them twice, want to see them again. I caught a guitar pick during my first Billy Talent concert and then we camped outside to get autographs. I didn't have anything for them to write on so I just gave them my pink Eastpack backpack, which was already full of marker drawings and they autographed and drew on it! Good memories<3