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13-11-24 I just had my talk with Michael yesterday and I feel like I have stuff everywhere. From which I have to grab the best parts and divide them into what I want put in the thesis (outline) and the project (proposal).

~!!!! IMPORTANTSELFNOTEPOEM
_{[X] ONE THING AFTER THE OTHER.}
_{[X] THERE ISSTILL TIME.}
_{[X] YOU WANT TO HAVE EVERYTHING DONE BY YESTERYEAR AND YOU PUT A BIG PRESSURE ON YOU}
_{[X] DONT BREATHEN'T}
_{[X] DO THE THINGS BY THINGS AND THEN YOU SHARPEN}
_{[X] DOUBT ONLY IS GOOD WHEN CRITICAL AND PREPARED, DOUBT IS NOT GOOD WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING DOUBTABLE}
_{[X] WRITE IT OFF, WALK IT OFF, WORK IT OFF AND PROCEED.}
_{[X] EVERYBODY IS CONFUSED, IT IS ALL FINE AND THE HECTICITY IS STARTING BUT ALSO PART OF IT.}
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[ ] I need to reflect on [ ] the colloquium,

[ ] public moment

[ ] and meeting with Michael

[ ] I need to read

[ ] the project proposal specs / examples

[ ] thesis outline specs / examples

[ ] continue writing the first essay and drawing the first drawing for Steve's commissioning.

06-11-24 I feel like I am in a bit of a slump. There was a very nice process I was in. I have good things going on but I just feel like I am stuck for a second.

Looking back from the previous few weeks. I went from the personal accessibility to the rendering image of where I live. I am a bit in between the hyperpersonal and the macropoetic feelings.

The feedback story of my life is I need to start narrowing down.

the setup for the public moment

The public moment had a positive outcome. I talked ~~too much~~ a lot and there were some nice conversations, however I felt like I needed to defend something.

The inputs and interests were analyzing and gave me some nice references.

I just recovered from my flu shit, barely digested the colloquium and feedback + tutorial I had 21-10-24. This public moment felt like I was sharing my own questionmarks with other people. As if I exposed things in a way too premature state.

pen plottered pamphplet

There was one feedback that kinda just got me REALLY frustrated -----> someone asked of 'isn't that just part of living in a big city everywhere?' and it just felt like it was a mood killer. Whilst my points were about making new city planning, marketing imagery while the things that we don't see rendered are still there.

There was also a remark, asking if I was working with the municipality.

I need(ed) to digest and reflect and the public moment was a good moment to reflect if I am clear or not. I was sharper at the colloquium.

I have bought books, I still want to buy one more. I am also thinking about how to continue developing a method.

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REFLECTING:

It is now 3,5 weeks ago since the colloquium. There was an interesting method I (subconsciously) started to develop. Asking the questions

"Search for examples of city planning / marketing / maintenance of the city/village/township where you are from*"

collect img / promises / memories

then.......

ask yourself / eachother "how does -location- relate to you as the inhabitant*?"

aaand thennn

ask yourself / eachother "how do you relate to -location-?"

*free interpretation ofcourse, whatever feels the most comfortable

"Search for examples of city planning / marketing / maintenance of the city/village/township where you are from*" 
collect img / promises / memories 					                     
then....... 
ask yourself / eachother "how does -location- relate to you as the inhabitant*?"
aaand thennn  
ask yourself / eachother "how do you relate to -location-?"

*free interpretation ofcourse, whatever feels the most comfortable

This part was the most exciting to share because the reactions were interesting:

Bernadette & Rosa https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo-2

Findings:

Anita & RIviera https://pad.xpub.nl/p/lorenzo-colloquium-anita-and-riviera

Findings:

Wang, Alessia & Maria https://pad.xpub.nl/p/wam

Findings:

Michel, Mania & Zuzu https://pad.xpub.nl/p/michel-mania-zuzu

Findings:

Thijs & Victor https://pad.xpub.nl/p/oslo&duiven

Findings:

Notes I got from Manetta:

Obsession/research/question

postcard utopianism
"best scenario"
city marketing

"where you come from": how does this city profile itself?
"what do you want to change": which axes do you want to add?

athens: infrastructural tours
oslo: visual identity; we just copy paste a typeface everywhere, not adopt it to a specific place

- "collective jam session for research" nice
- pretty open session... intentionally?
- from the municipality pov... from the specific needs pov...
    - from which perspective do you speak?
        issue of time gaps, not living there anymore, .. interestingly brings up the specificness of perspective
        tourists (alessia), youth (anita), disabilities (maria), city marketing (bernadette), pets (maria), city design (victor/zuzu), history (mania), biggest/tallest records (mania), advertisements (mania), city planning (riviera)
    -

- unpack!
    - video municipality.. time to observe together?
    - quote Jara Rocha + Femke Snelting
    - xyzt axes, what do they do, where are they used?

How will collected material be used? Why are we doing this? Work towards concrete outputs?


Personal perspective works!
Moment of sharing after first part would work

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XYZT+? as a method
method to critique + reflect (!)
building infrastructure for this method as a way to circulate it

Notes: 10-11

Groups are made, people are invested, I think people are going for it and are enjoying themselves

There were some questions but not changing in context or so.

People were really focussing and so I added a few minutes.

Notes 11.15 - 12.15

There were some confusions about how to apply the second part.

There were some thinking eyes as if I were in a forest and owls are all looking at me from the dark hahaha

Overall, people were sharing anecdotes and arguments

around 11:45 I went for a walk around to see how things are going :))

Question Mark Eyes

city planning as annotation / drawing out loud method?

https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo

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PS -> GIMP

INDD -> SCRIBUS

AI -> INKSCAPE

PREMIERE -> OPENSHOT/OLIVE/KDENLIVE/SHOTCUT?

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Now what do I need to do

~~- get better~~

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- ~~decide between buying year subscription adobe or~~ go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats

~~- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop~~

- ~~Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex~~t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

- read next text

~~- Read the email of Constant and reply~~

~~- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself~~

- ~~OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA~~ ~~^{MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH}~~

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PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N

beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}