Chae selfportrait
Hello, my name is Chaeyoung(채영). You can also call me Chae.
I'm from Seoul, South Korea.
- I get excited quite easily.
- I get excited when cutting purple cabbages, carrots or cucumber
- I get excited when tree leaves shine under the crispy sunlight. Japanese ppl even have a word for this specific sunlight. It is called 'Komorebi(木漏れ日)'
- I get excited about spider webs after rain
- I get excited when I encounter strange but cute objects(a fork that gives you pinky, a cute cushion, dead from your sitting)
- etc.
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Being excited by pretty much everything can be a problem.
This is because when I'm at 95% energy level and if the counterpart does not feel the same, I find that this person gets overwhelmed sometimes.
(Also, I can be stubbornly stuck in my own head which is not helpful.)
- Oh, and I am easily affected by others feelings.
For example, when someone seems like she/he is not feeling happy about something, I pick up that energy quite easily and get affected by it. In some cases, if I'm the one who is making someone feel uncomfortable, I think about that a lot in my head, play that situation over and over again in my head, and fall into this negative self-doubting area. I care about others. But sometimes I care too much about how ppl will see me. This scares me. That ppl might think about me that I'm not good enough or I'm a selfish ego-centric person, full of shit haha..
- I guess that is why I am into cute aesthetics.
The cute aesthetic is, in my opinion, an international language, and an aesthetic that is very democratic, an aesthetic that makes things a bit easy for me. I apply and yield the power of cuteness a lot in my life and I want to use that power more carefully and use it in a more alternative way.
When in a group of more than 5 people, I need some time to reflect on and digest on my own. I value mutual understanding and the beauty of collaboration.
To help ensure my needs are met, I will try to go through the pad again, have a small chat about the previous meeting with classmates, and speak up when I need some time to catch up on the discussion.
And I would appreciate it if others in the group would be willing to annotate the conversation on the pad, or if I can make a record of the conversation so that I can listen and make sure I understand correctly and reflect it.