Jujube/openings
my heart
three films in summer
So Long, my Son - 3hrs did not feel long. Sadness because I understood their pain. Prolonged moments of silence — something I recognize aesthetically and culturally. One cannot separate oppression, suppression, depression, stoicism, friendship, belief, livelihood, hope, suicide easily in this film.
Good Boys - there was a glitch on the screen for half of the movie, but no one left. A good narrative, a compelling story overall > pure aesthetical images
Tadre Para Morir Joven - beautiful color, melancholic yet not moving. See Good Boys.
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via The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows
https://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=182&v=1asBOCAmgaw
one thought
The more I make film, the less I care about art [exhibited with a lot of wall text].
what is your purpose
my emotional register as a filmmaker
grammar is related to purpose - there is no inherent right or wrong
film poem
defining purpose makes editing easier
haiku
minimalist
honest
taking control is okay
repeat, taking control is okay
just because you are good at something doesn't mean you shouldn't do it...
confusion
What is in an image? Does the image conduct my intention?
Gee, if my intention is blurry...
If I become aware and articulate all the decision-making in the making of an image...
I feel exhausted.
This thing about moving image is...
I have a ton of footage. I want to be precise. I am not always motivated to edit...
images
For a few years I drew rectangles.
Everything happens within the bounds.
In the beginning, screens are flattened, senitized surfaces.
Now.
Projections are light without a screen.
The screen catches.
What is the materiality of light... Memory image.
Cameras are portable.
I like to be centered when everything else moves.
I do not like moving much, to be honest.
I enjoy moments when things are quiet, when I am quiet.
I enjoy being quiet.
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The hierarchy of images is not dependent on the way they are produced, it comes from within. I have distrusted that within, but I will change now.
I am precious with this image and will not show it until it is done. Test the boundaries.
RSVP photo booth with curtains.
what I used to find beautiful
