✩FINAL ASSESSMENT ADA

00.	----> to now
social science research on media and technology	python, generating poetry, making cards and books, printing
illustration	web design, html, css, javascript and php
baking as a trade	baking as part of my artistic practice
"I hope this course will help me become a contextually aware artist able to challenge audiences by producing work that is both self-reflexive and that questions oppressive societal structures."	bootleg book making and glue-binding
	artistic license making
	prototyping as a bigger part of my artistic practice
	more confidence in my creative writing, gained methods for it
	station skills: i learnt so much about laser cutting, printing, ceramic making, tried wood and metal working and created a more playful approach to the materials I use.

01. contributions to the special issues (reading, writing & prototyping practice)

first website i made

my gardening rules

Special Issue 19: Garden Leeszal

scanning

encoding converter

Reading & Writing

• gardening python rules
• catalog, archival document of the event

Special Issue 20: Console

Reading & Writing

• 

  dunno
  python games
• modding oracles: oracolotto
• paged.js for book
• laser cutting boxes
• license on rituals

Special Issue 21: TTY

Reading & Writing

• • unicode encoding
  • worm entanglement, coming up with rules
• - learnt how to code from scratch, learnt python, html, css, javascript - web to print! - using open source, giving up when you really can't, different ways to be on the internet - glue binding - using a terminal - laser cutting cards - receipt printers

After school

summer = nyu summer school: interactive telecomunnications program (ITP)

• 

  form
  finished work on entangled matter with friendship bracelet and algae knitting
• collect call = reimagining a modern web call trhough our visit at the telecom museum. A js switchboard that opens up a two way webcam to call xpub from new york.

04. thesis (only a brief overview)

All intimacy is about bodies. Is this true? Does it matter? I doubt it. Do you know? Let’s find out, maybe.

In my thesis, I explored digital intimacies, questioning whether physical presence is truly necessary for intimacy. I also looked at how identities can fluidly exist across both human and digital realms. Instead of trying to resolve the tensions between virtual and real-life experiences, I used personal stories and shared experiences to show how online interactions can go beyond physical limitations and reshape who we are.

I focused on the idea of a digital body—a representation of ourselves similar to a dream version of our physical form. Through this concept, I discussed how digital bodies can offer relief for people in types of pain that is stigmatised, and how they can foster healing connections for diverse individuals. At the same time, I examined how prolonged use of digital intimacy can have negative effects.

0. DIGITAL BODIES

a. what is a digital body?

b. body vs. computer

c. bot-feelings

1.DIGITAL COMFORT

a. comfort care

b. uncomfortable comfort

c. unbearable intimacy

Stories that are hard to tell and hard to hear and even more, maybe, hard to understand. I have loved these stories and I have loved telling them to you. I hope you understand that my goal was for you to live these questions, to feel these stories in their confusion. My digital body, my bot-feelings, my divergent communities. I have given them to you, so they may live longer, like an obsolete but beloved cyborg shown in a museum. Look: I was here, Look: I was loved, Look: I was saved.

05. graduation project and research

Hi.

I made this play for you. It is a question, for us to hold together.

Is all intimacy about bodies? What is it about our bodies that makes intimacy? What happens when our bodies distance intimacy from us? This small anthology of poems and short stories lives with these questions—about having a body without intimacy and intimacy without a body. This project is also a homage to everyone who has come before and alongside me, sharing their vulnerability and emotions on the Internet. I called the places where these things happen backplaces. They are small, tender online rooms where people experiencing societally uncomfortable pain can find relief, ease, and transcendence.

I made three backplaces for you to see, click, and feel: Solar Sibling, Hermit Fantasy, and Cake Intimacies. Each of these is the result of its own unique performance or project. Some of the stories I will share carry memories of pain—both physical and emotional. As you sit in the audience, know I am with you, holding your hand through each scene. If the performance feels overwhelming at any point, you have my full permission to step out, take a break, or leave. This is not choreographed, and I care deeply for you.

Solar Sibling is an online performance of shared loss about leaving and siblings. This project used comments people left on TikTok poetry. I extracted the emotions from these comments, mixed them with my own, and crafted them into poems. It is an ongoing performance, ending only when your feelings are secretly whispered to me. When you do, by typing into the comment box, your feelings are sent to me and the first act closes as the sun rises.

Hermit Fantasy is a short story about a bot who wants to be a hermit. Inspired by an email response from a survey I conducted about receiving emotional support on the Internet, this story explores the contradiction of being online while wanting to disconnect. As an act it’s a series of letters, click by click.

Cake Intimacies is a performance that took a year to bring together. It is a small selection of stories people told me and I held to memory and rewrote here. The stories come from two performances I hosted. First, I asked participants to eat cake, sitting facing or away from each other and sharing their stories about cake and the Internet. The second performance was hosted at the Art Meets Radical Openness Festival, as part of the Turning of the Internet workshop. For this performance, I predicted participants’ future lives on the Internet using felted archetypes and received stories from their Internet past in return. Now the stories are here, each of them a cake with a filling that tells a story, merging the bodily with the digital and making a mess of it all.

The play ends as all plays do. The curtains close, the website stays but the stories will never sound the same. For the final act, I give you the stories. It’s one last game, one last joke to ask my question again. Digital intimacies about the digital, our bodies and the cakes we eat. For the last act, I ask you to eat digital stories. To eat a comment, to eat a digital intimacy. Sharing an act of physical intimacy with yourself and with me, by eating sweets together. Sweets about digital intimacies that never had a body. There is no moral, no bow to wrap the story in. A great big mess of transcendence into the digital, of intimacy and of bodies. The way it always is. Thankfully.