Chae selfportrait
Hello, my name is Chaeyoung(채영). You can also call me Chae. I'm from Seoul, South Korea.
I get excited quite easily. I get excited when cutting purple cabbages, orangy carrots or cucumber, I get excited when tree leaves shine under the crispy sunlight, I get excited seeing spider web after rain, I get excited when I strange but cute objects etc.
Being excited by pretty much everything can be a problem because when I'm at 95% energy level and if the counterpart does not feel the same, I find that this person sometimes gets overwhelmed. Also, I am sometimes stubbornly stuck in my own head sometimes.
Oh, and I can easily be influenced by others feeling. For example, when someone seems like she/he is not feeling happy about something, or is in a bad mood, I pick up that energy quite easily and get affected by it.
So, in some cases, if I'm the one who is making someone feel uncomfortable, I think about that a lot in my head, play that situation over and over again in my head, and fall into this negative self-doubting area. I care about others and sometimes I care too much about how ppl see me. This scares me. That ppl might think about me that I'm not good enough or I'm a selfish full of shit haha..
I guess that is why I am into cute aesthetics. The cute aesthetic is, in my opinion, an international language, and an aesthetic that is very democratic. I apply and yield the power of cuteness a lot in my life and I want to use that power more carefully and use it in a more alternative way.