Chae selfportrait

Hello, my name is Chaeyoung(채영). You can also call me Chae.
I'm from Seoul, South Korea.

• I get excited quite easily.

- I get excited when cutting purple cabbages, carrots or cucumber
- I get excited when tree leaves shine under the crispy sunlight. Japanese ppl even have a word for this specific sunlight. It is called 'Komorebi(木漏れ日)'
- I get excited seeing spider web after rain
- I get excited when I encounter strange but cute objects(a fork that gives you pinky, a cute cushion, dead from your sitting)
- etc.

Being excited by pretty much everything can be a problem.
This is because when I'm at 95% energy level and if the counterpart does not feel the same, I find that this person gets overwhelmed sometimes.
(Also, I can be stubbornly stuck in my own head which is not helpful.)

Oh, and I am easily affected by others feelings.
For example, when someone seems like she/he is not feeling happy about something, I pick up that energy quite easily and get affected by it.

In some cases, if I'm the one who is making someone feel uncomfortable, I think about that a lot in my head, play that situation over and over again in my head, and fall into this negative self-doubting area. I care about others and sometimes I care too much about how ppl see me. This scares me. That ppl might think about me that I'm not good enough or I'm a selfish ego-centric person, full of shit haha..

I guess that is why I am into cute aesthetics. The cute aesthetic is, in my opinion, an international language, and an aesthetic that is very democratic. I apply and yield the power of cuteness a lot in my life and I want to use that power more carefully and use it in a more alternative way.