I'm not there yet

This project started as an impuls when I experienced insomnia and got bored. Not knowing what to do with myself and the extra time I have because of my insomnia, I decided to film myself.

When I observed the results and spoke about my findings in a tutorial with David, he noticed that my critiques about what is and isn't working in the image is in a way the narrative of the project. I mostly criticize the poses if they look either real, fake, too constructed or too vulnerable this is interesting to me because it is me in the image. The boundaries between the camera, the operator and the subject become blurred.

A small piece I wrote:

First recording looked very posed it was not good yet, fake. Second recording was more natural already better. I want to keep recording until the footage is good enough. Because I'm not there yet.