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DIARY - RANT SPACE

RANT ABOUT OPENSOURCE SYNC AND PLAYSTORE

I just want to link obsidian via syncthing and I just can´t get it to work and it is really not helping me in production

RANT ABOUT BEING STUCK

I have 1000 thoughts at the same time

PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N 

beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down} 

Now what do I need to do

- GRS

Make a pmomm page and link it to the wiki

Write 3 pmomms and make some early prototypes or 3 prototypes ooof where is the T H I R D

Meet with Alessia to make decisions and make some rapido deciones

- Read and finish Femke Sneltings text, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

read next text

- Read the email of Constant and reply

- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself

- OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA ^{MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH}

RENDERDAM_[YEAR].FORMAT

PROTOTYPING

/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read

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Projects that May/Mayn't

Reader: 

   - Eigen Welzijn Eerst - Roxane van Iperen



   - Synopsis 
An Ourobouros: the snake biting it's own tail. == the circle that the writer intended to go through:
1. Equality as a starting point 
2. The rise of Nativism in NL == the ideas of a first class and second class citizen  (the end of equality)
3. The fear of falling (meaning the middle class being afraid of falling back to a / the lower class, being pressure with the future perspective of an offspring not being able to enjoy the privileges of their parents)
4. The Closed Circle of the middle class  (The Country Club Mentality, so creating your own little clubs to gain exclusivity)
5. Wellness-Right (The radicalization of the group within the middle class)

this 5-step program plays with of the ourobouros, the snake biting its own tail in the sense of progress. 
idea 'we have reached emancipation, we can now claim our superiority' 



 

Paraphrased from the website: https://www.roxanevaniperen.nl/eigenelzijn-eerst

<blockquote>

Nederland heeft lang een zelfbeeld van openheid en tolerantie gehad. Dat beeld kwam voort uit het naoorlogse optimisme van de middenklasse, die geloofde in kansengelijkheid, ongeacht afkomst of achternaam, en het belang van goede publieke voorzieningen. Zo zou elke nieuwe generatie het beter krijgen dan de vorige.
Het geloof in vooruitgang is de afgelopen jaren afgebrokkeld en heeft onder invloed van de politiek plaatsgemaakt voor een sterke hang naar zelfbehoud, met extreme sentimenten tot gevolg. In Eigen welzijn eerst laat Roxane van Iperen op prikkelende wijze zien hoe dit heeft kunnen gebeuren, en spreekt ze de hoop uit dat de middenklasse opnieuw de vooruitgangsgedachte omarmt.

Rond het verschijnen van Eigen welzijn eerst op 10 mei gaf Roxane interviews aan De Telegraaf en Het Financieele Dagblad en sprak ze met Leon Verdonschot voor Linda: lees het hier. Ook schoof ze aan bij de Zelfspodcast en de talkshow Khalid & Sophie. Het essay werd gepresenteerd in De Rode Hoed en stond vier maanden in de Bestseller60, waar het de 2e plaats bereikte. 

‘Een messcherp pamflet en een klassiek essay brengen het hedendaagse egoïsme in kaart… In Eigen welzijn eerst zet schrijfster Roxane van Iperen zeer effectief de kettingzaag in het gedrag van yogamoeders en andere spirituele kruidenheksen die Facebook en omstreken opstoken met deskundologische wijsheden over opvoeding of huidverzorging. Wat we denken te zien is een sociale media-gezondheidsbeweging, met mooie foto’s van moeders met kinderen aan de borst en tegeltjeswijsheden over nachtrust. Wat we moeten zien is ‘wellness-rechts’, een agressieve marketingmachine die extreem-rechts gedachtengoed normaliseert. Men schakelt in die contreien nu in één moeite van anti-vaccinatie naar pro-Poetin. Tussen ‘eigen lijf eerst’ en ‘eigen volk eerst’ zit weinig licht.’  

**** Menno Hurenkamp, NRC Handelsblad 

‘Dat is wat mij betreft het belangrijkste inzicht uit het boek: laat de vooroordelen los, en probeer je voor te stellen hoe het kómt dat een groep mensen bang is en zich zorgen maakt. Dat hoeft niet te betekenen dat je dan ook alles wat die groep zegt en doet goedpraat, maar het betekent wél dat je probeert te achterhalen wat er achter die uitspraken schuilgaat. Dan pas kun je de voedingsbodem voor die angst aanpakken.’
/  Dilara Bilgic, De Correspondent

</blockquote>

   - Why is this text important to my research/work
It deals with normality and the rise of neoliberalism. The mechanism of what we define as 'wellness' and 'normal' and 'fit'.
I wanted this book for the idea of Wellness Right-critique. It speaks about the classes towards health being something you are in charge of. Which is an unfair statement to people with disabilities / illness. My graduation project was a work about the wellness, spirituality industry. Another big source was the Conspirituality podcast. 


   - Annotations and notes

   --> format: up to you (transclusion optional!) 

   

   - Pick 2 or 3 references (they are not fixed or set in stone, don't spend too much time picking the best references)






   - Write a synopsis (even if you haven't read it 



   - Why this is important to you
This essay is a historical / political / socially / critically accurate book. It shows the dangers of nostalgic elements in political populist beliefs "Before THEY came it was BETTER", it shows how the most progressive 'looking' people having conservative values: "Father with beard and tattoos and modern fashion and mother with purple long hair and a nose piercing and a hippie dress maintaining conservative thoughts like not vaccinating their kids because of political biases".






   - If you're drawing blanks/not sure about a reference, browse the bootleg library
bibliography 








Reader: 

   - Collection of texts/works (in whichever way you would like to include it (section/whole text/...), How is the original present in the reader?)


Ten Theses on Life Hacks - Former XPUB1




"Life Hacks in general aren’t taken too seriously. The ten theses
in this document are meant to provide a widened perspective on
Life Hacks, and on their relationship to our collective experiences
and reflections. The criteria listed in first thesis allow us to test
whether something is a Life Hack or not. The remaining theses
present extended arguments, supported by examples, that
identify specific features of Life Hacks, the environments they
exist within, and the kind of culture they foster.
This publication’s format incorporates the Life Hack ethos. With
the addition of a series of holes, each loose page can be seen as
a hackable surface. We invite you to collate and bind them,
making an eclectic choice from a range of unorthodox materials." Copy of p1. 


   - Synopsis 


It seems that this text is looking at worthless and very meme-able lifehacks that could make your life easier but 9/10 times don't really do that. 

   - Why is this text important to my research/work

Selling the interaction 'doing nothing' as a life changing product is shit. (I wanted to say is just something I would really disagree with, but then my fingers wrote shit and that was a better tl;dr definition.) 

I speculate that these theseseses have an echo chambery effect on me but I might just read a lot of their sources.  


   - Annotations and notes

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   - Pick 2 or 3 references (they are not fixed or set in stone, don't spend too much time picking the best references)

   - Write a synopsis (even if you haven't read it yet)

   - Why this is important to you

   

   - If you're drawing blanks/not sure about a reference, browse the bootleg library


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https://www.roxanevaniperen.nl/eigen-welzijn-eerst

MIKROKONTROLLER

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LDR NOIZE

int ldr = A0;

void setup() {

Serial.begin(115200); // USB

pinMode(ldr, INPUT); // LDR == input

}

void loop() {

int value = analogRead(A0);

Serial.println(value);

delay(100);

}

LED X 1

int ledPin = 12;               //the int ledPin is 12

void setup() {
pinMode(ledPin,OUTPUT);      //ledPin is a OUTPUT
}

void loop() {
  digitalWrite(ledPin,HIGH);   //turns pin 12 on
  delay(500);                  //stops the loop for 500 milliseconds
  digitalWrite(ledPin,LOW);    //turns pin 12 off
  delay(500);                  //stops the loop for 500 milliseconds
}

LED X 2

int RedLedPin = 8;                 //the int RedLedPin is 13
int GreenLedPin = 12;               //the int GreenLedPin is 12

void setup() {

pinMode(RedLedPin,OUTPUT);        //ledPin is a OUTPUT
pinMode(GreenLedPin,OUTPUT);      //ledPin is a OUTPUT
}

void loop() {
digitalWrite(GreenLedPin,HIGH);   //turns green led  on
delay(5000);                      //stops the loop for 5000 milliseconds
for(int i = 0; i < 5; i++){       //this for loop gets 5 times repeated
digitalWrite(GreenLedPin,LOW);  //turns green led off
delay(500);                     //stops the loop for 500 milliseconds
digitalWrite(GreenLedPin,HIGH); //turns green led off
delay(500);                     //stops the loop for 500 milliseconds
}

digitalWrite(GreenLedPin,LOW);    //turns green led off
digitalWrite(RedLedPin,HIGH);     //turns red led on
delay(5000);                      //stops the loop for 5000 milliseconds
digitalWrite(RedLedPin,LOW);      //turns red led on
}

LDR NOIZE

int ldr = A0; 
int pinTone = 11; 


void setup() {
Serial.begin(115200); // USB
pinMode(ldr, INPUT); // LDR == input
}

void loop() {
int value = analogRead(A0);
tone (pinTone, value*0.2);
Serial.println(value);
delay(100);
}

NOIZE POTENTIOMETER

int poti = A0; 

void setup() {
Serial.begin(115200); // USB
pinMode(poti, INPUT); // LDR == input
}

void loop() {
int value = analogRead(poti);
tone (10, value*0.5);
Serial.println(value);
delay(10);
}

int BUTTON = A0; 
int speaker = 10;


void setup() {
  Serial.begin(115200); // USB
  pinMode(BUTTON, INPUT); // LDR == input
}

void loop() {
  bool value = digitalRead(BUTTON);
  if (value){
    Serial.println ("ALARMSTART");
    for(int peter = 0; peter < 5; peter++){ 
      for(int frequency = 500; frequency<1200; frequency++){
      tone(speaker, frequency);
    delay(0.5);
    }
    noTone(speaker);
    delay(1);
    }
  Serial.print ("ALARM END");
  }
else{
  Serial.println ("DEPRESSED");
  noTone (speaker);
}
}
//tone (10, value*0.5);
//Serial.println(value);
//delay(10);

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                 == Assesmental Presentental Wikipageroo aka Lorenzo Quint's ==

*airhorn sounds* == BEST OF XPUB1 TRIMESTER 1 & 2 = Protocolastic Quiltessential Boogaloo == *that windows celebrational noise.mp3*

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BEFORE WE START I WOULD LIKE TO say that this is a type of presentation format I'm just playing with. Everything is in one place on this page. I will scroll back and forth, I will reflect and whilst making this I'm overthinking about this being the right way, but there is no right way. Anyway let's get on with the show->>>>>

This is the page you will be watching whilst experiencing the process I went through. It will be a bit on the linear chronological side. As an old wise cliché once said whilst gazing to the inevitable sunburn:

<image of a mountain.jpeg> <some wacky pseudoscientific font.otf>

You need to look backwards in order to look forwards. (Or if you want to use a cheat code up up down down left right left right B BA RT LT left X O spacebar spacebar spacebar epic backspace)

so before we ask ourselves: How did we get here? / Transport / /DOOR/PORT.html

I'm first going to talk about the first trimester.

Quilt INC / METHODOLOGY

Methods remark:

Method(ol(atry)ogy) is a way of surviving experience

Method is a way of surviving experience. The post-coping mechanism of someone on a journey to the center of the data. How does one look. Is it the landscape of hexadecimals, binaries, flying bits or deeper digging. A mole goes into depth in a different matter than the human does.

As I kinda recalled in my 'essay'(as Rosa called my methods remark ;)), this word or experiment/experience has been quite the quilt on its own, I'm a bit confused but it also feels like the step after coping? Method on its own feels like a way to practicalize whatever the ---- I'm struggling with.

Yes, I'm currently linking this sentence to my own surviving experience as I'm trying to create my own method in how to live this

◹xpub / ◹carer / ◹own life ◹triangle◹.

...But about the text; the word first makes an entry in the title. And it introduces feminist methodology as a radical alternative.

../

My current method is just doing a quick scan through the text and react quickly and associative through the text. (Whilst making comments on the side)(to process text, this worked, to read, it didn't work

)/..

When searching for methods vs methodology;

"Methodology vs. method. 'Methodology' is not just a fancier-sounding term for 'methods' – it refers to the school of thought by which you conduct research. Method, on the other hand, is all about practicalities: surveys, experiments, observations and so on

Luckily the text goes back to the nature of method, which contextualizes it to 'normal everyday life stuff' as a cleaning habit towards radicalizing (mobilizing) in order to protest injustice. As I'm writing about Methods, I hear Victor talk about methods and I'm not sure if I'm doing this right but I'm doing it in my own method?

It mentions methodolatry; "Worship of a method that employs it uncritically regardless of ever- changing particulars and steadfastly ignoring past negative results."

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Text I'm responding to / with:

"A method is distinct from a recipe or formula, in exactly the sense that science is not embodied in a textbook and cooking is not a cookbook. It is a real-time, lived, and experiential form of ordering practice. In the words of Isabelle Stengers: Indeed, you do not follow a challenge, you do not obey it, it does not direct you. You have to invent the way to answer it, it proposes risks for your answers, but gives you no model. Thus it is consonant with my conception of science. It is consonant because our “social experience,” the moral and political options which situate us cannot become self-conscious just by a process of honest self-examination. It must be created through an active process of learning. Learning how we are situated, inventing the situations from which we can learn more about our situation does not give power to emancipation over cognition. It associates both emancipation and cognition. (1993, 46)"

"... It is a word at once stronger than para- digm, in the sense that it often crosses, both historically and spatially, most uses of the Kuhnian term. It may be part of several paradigms; it may persist after other attributes of a paradigm have fallen away. Methods considered in this fashion may have many of the features of surviving experience, depending on the values of the community using them: they can become imperialistic or monolithic (if one only has a hammer, the world becomes a nail, etc.); they can become a means of enforcing fundamentalism (reducing the world to that which can be perceived using the method); or they can become ways of encompassing multiplicity, complexity, and ambiguity. It is in this latter sense that feminism is important methodologically, I think, although we have sometimes used it in the monolithic or reductionist senses. Feminists have written some extremely powerful methodological pieces, not always recognized as such..."

"Considered formally, then, the attributes of feminist method that are particularly important are: 1. experiential and collective basis; 2. processual nature; 3. honoring contradiction and partialness; 4. situated historicity with great attention to detail and specificity; and 5. the simultaneous application of all of these points."