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WHAT, HOW, WHY

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What

‘’Nooit meer terug’’ is an experimental coming of age film about the journey of a girl who lost herself in an addiction where she thought she found herself in.

In this movie we’re following two characters. The character 10 years ago and the character 4 years ago. The younger character is surrounded by nature and calmness. But while being there she develops some kind of feeling of anxiety because she is ‘alone’. She starts panicking and runs to a big ignorant building. This building seems to be a maze where she meets the 10 years older version of herself. This 10 years older character seems to get lost in this maze as a symbolic representative for her addiction. While the two characters are losing their way deeper and deeper in this maze, the little girl will be able to get the older addicted character out of there by making her face her younger self.

How

This story is told in a very symbolic and referring way. For example, the little girl stands representative for the intrinsic motivation someone with the disease ‘addiction’ needs to feel to get better. The ‘maze’ is a symbol for the struggle with addiction and slowly losing sight of reality which entails an addiction. Because the film contains a lot of ‘unlogic’ moments which I like to call ‘emotional realism’, that some people do and some people don’t notice, it seems that this movie is about conveying a feeling (in this case a struggle) and not telling a logical story. The film doesn't only exist about these symbolic methods of narration. There’s a third layer, the voice over, that narrates a real life interview between the narrator and a psychologist that refers to the visually shown symbols.

Why

I made this film in this specific symbolic form, because I was looking for a way to tell my biggest untold story. My past struggle with addiction. Until the day I started this production, this was the hardest and most unspoken thing for me, ever. Because I was going to make this film I also started a journey to develop a visual translation for something that was this hard to actually ‘speak’ about. I found out that this film actually became the tool for telling and eventually closing this period of my life and started processing it.

new version

What

‘’Nooit meer terug’’ is an experimental coming of age film about the journey of a girl who lost herself in an addiction where she thought she found herself in.

In this movie we’re following two characters. The character 10 years ago and the character 4 years ago. The younger character is surrounded by nature and calmness. But while being there she develops some kind of feeling of anxiety because she is ‘alone’. She starts panicking and runs to a big ignorant building. This building seems to be a maze where she meets the 10 years older version of herself. This 10 years older character seemed to get rid of this anxious feeling of being alone, where the little girl was running from. But got lost in this maze as a symbolic representative for her addiction. While the two characters are losing their way deeper and deeper in this maze, the little girl will be able to get the older addicted character out of there by making her face her younger self.

new corrections: how long is the film? are you working with actors? did you write a script? go through the whole process give a concrete description

How

This story is told in a very symbolic and referring way. For example, the little girl stands representative for the intrinsic motivation someone with the disease ‘addiction’ needs to feel to get better. The ‘maze’ is a symbol for the struggle with addiction and slowly losing sight of reality which entails an addiction. The film contains a lot of ‘unlogic’ moments which I like to call ‘emotional realism’, that some people do and some people don’t notice. Because of the use of this emotional realism, the audience can let go of realistic structure and just let themselves be guided by the feelings they get while watching the movie. In addition to these symbolic methods of narration that you can find in both visual and audio layer, there is a third layer, – the voice over. The voice over narrates a real life interview between the narrator and a psychologist that refers to the visually shown symbols.

new corrections:

tell a bit more about the process try to tell more about the journey how you were going to ‘tell’ this story what did work, what didn’t work? what was this learning process? how did you work with the young actor?

Why

I made this film in this specific symbolic form, because I was looking for a way to tell my biggest untold story. My past struggle with addiction. Until the day I started this production, this was the hardest and most unspoken thing for me, ever. Because I was going to make this film I also started a journey to develop a visual translation for something that was this hard to actually ‘speak’ about. I found out that this film actually became the tool for telling and eventually closing this period of my life and started processing it. And by developing this visual translation, more untold stories will be told in the future.