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== /XPUB2/PROTOTYPING ==
 
13-11-24 I just had my talk with Michael yesterday and I feel like I have stuff everywhere. From which I have to grab the best parts and divide them into what I want put in the thesis (outline) and the project (proposal). 
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* ~!!!! IMPORTANTSELFNOTEPOEM
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] ONE THING AFTER THE OTHER.</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] THERE ISSTILL TIME.</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] YOU WANT TO HAVE EVERYTHING DONE BY YESTERYEAR AND YOU PUT A BIG PRESSURE ON YOU</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] DONT BREATHEN'T</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] DO THE THINGS BY THINGS AND THEN YOU SHARPEN</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] DOUBT ONLY IS GOOD WHEN CRITICAL AND PREPARED, DOUBT IS NOT GOOD WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING DOUBTABLE</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] WRITE IT OFF, WALK IT OFF, WORK IT OFF AND PROCEED.</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
* <code>''<sub><small>'''<u>[X] EVERYBODY IS CONFUSED, IT IS ALL FINE AND THE HECTICITY IS STARTING BUT ALSO PART OF IT.</u>'''</small></sub>''</code>
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== /XPUB2/PROTOTYPING/COLLOQUIUM/ ==
https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo 
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==== ''<u>REFLECTING:</u>'' ====
It is now 3,5 weeks ago since the colloquium. There was an interesting method I (subconsciously) started to develop. Asking the questions
 
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"Search for examples of city planning / marketing / maintenance of the city/village/township where you are from*"
collect img / promises / memories                    
then.......  
ask yourself / eachother "how does -location- relate to you as the inhabitant*?"
aaand thennn 
ask yourself / eachother "how do you relate to -location-?"
 
*free interpretation ofcourse, whatever feels the most comfortable
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====== ''  This part was the most exciting to share because the reactions were interesting:'' ======
 
=== Bernadette & Rosa https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo-2 ===
<blockquote>
> Rotterdam and Riesa
 
> they looked at merchandise and marketing


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''Marketing is produced outside of the marketed city. Rotterdam has popular merchandise''
                  <big>== '''Assesmental Presentental Wikipageroo aka Lorenzo Quint's''' ==</big>
''Riesa uses German mythological creatures and story to profile its city.''


= ''*airhorn sounds* == '''BEST OF XPUB1 TRIMESTER 1 & 2 = Protocolastic Quiltessential Boogaloo''' == *that windows celebrational noise.mp3*'' =
# ''"No strong feelings against city marketing.  Marketing is not known to address a city's issues. Promoting a city doesn't hide its issues."''
# ''City Marketing is a very subjective perspective on a city, optimistic so it sells better ofcourse.''
</blockquote>


== 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 ==
=== Anita & Riviera https://pad.xpub.nl/p/lorenzo-colloquium-anita-and-riviera ===
<blockquote><u>'''> Anita looked at the city of Treviso, Italy on its own and its digital entrance'''</u>


''Anita: there seems to be restricted access to the website unless you currently live there, but you can also log in with social media. The information behind this barrier is none. There is a live stream of one of the main squares of the city you can watch''


<big>This is the page you will be watching whilst experiencing the process I went through. It will be a bit on the linear chronological side. As an old wise cliché once said whilst gazing to the inevitable sunburn:</big>
''I think it is quite hard for me to be critical and analyse Treviso now, as I have not lived there for 5 years and am lacking a lot of information of living there now. I am a tourist when I go back and so much has changed since I moved away. I remember there being quite a lack of cultural activities and specifically activities for teenagers that did not involve drinking or just hanging out in the 'loggia dei cavalieri' or 'buranelli'''


<image of a mountain.jpeg> <some wacky pseudoscientific font.otf>  
'''<u>> Riviera focussed more on city planning and criteria via the official channels</u>'''


<big>''You need to look backwards in order to look forwards''</big>
''Context: the planning process in the UK is longwinded and complex. There are a lot of slow-moving parts so it takes a long time to get anything done. Camden is a region in the North of London.''


so before we ask ourselves: [[How did we get here?]] / Transport / /DOOR/PORT.html
''There's a planning search tool (Currently in beta) where applications can be searched for according to the following criteria:''</blockquote>
''Application Number / Applicant Name / Agent Name / Site Address / Street Name / Proposal Key Word / Ward / Application Type / Development Type / Status''
<blockquote>'''''Co-ordinates of planning in Camden Council'''''


I'm first going to talk about the first trimester.
''I would take account of listed properties, use cases, comments from the public, objections, proposals, opinions, agreements, appeals, communities, councils, parishes, areas of outstanding natural beauty, the greenbelt, the brownbelt, people who protest "Not in my back yard!"  and others who want to build absolutely nothing anywhere near anybody. And, of course, planning applicants who want planning permission.''</blockquote>


=== Wang, Alessia & Maria https://pad.xpub.nl/p/wam ===
<blockquote><u>'''> Maria looked at the pavements, ever changing town square per government change in Athens, Greece'''</u>


''Touristic areas is treated differently (maintenance wise)''


<blockquote>I have to admit, I kinda didn't knew what XPUB was gonna be like.  I recently graduated from KABK / IMD. A different institution and a different course. I knew that another IMD alumni parttook in XPUB.
''Floods in Athens because of problematic city planning''


So this first trimester was a bit of a fresh new start for my practice. 'kind of' stepping away from what shaped my graduation project Happytalism which revolves around the idea of wellness / new age and spirituality industries to be open for business, making more money than big pharma and being a safe haven for charlatans, disinformation weaponizing pseudo health claims.
'''''Proposed changes for livability:'''''


I stepped into this fresh new environment with new people and overall a to me new programme.  
''   1.  Create specific paths around the city for pedestrians, elderly people and people with disabilities or strollers and add a layer on (google) maps with these paths.''


And right after the first weeks of XPUB my life turned around and I needed to reconfigure everything for myself (as I am still kind of doing ofcourse)
''   2. Allow pets on public transport''


During the first trimester it was a bit difficult to me to kind of 'find a way' to get back on track. I wanted to deliver something productive.  
'''<u>> Alessia looked at Venice, how tourism is, again, more important than maintenance</u>'''


The changes in my life of course had an immediate effect on my way of thinking.  
''It's a sinking city, melancholic city.''


We were talking about the ideas of what it means to keep an archive and what protocols there should be made.  
''The population is melancholic too.''


My counterthought was about Protocols for passive hoarding.  
''It's not a city for anyone with any kind of disability, accesibility is not something the politics care about, the preservation of the city aesthetic is the most important thing.''


As an idea of "we might need this later".
''High water, Syrens system for the high water, soundscape of the city, Demographic index of Venice population Depopulation, Disneyfication of the city ---> Venice is not disneyland, on social media as an archive of city memories and complaints. Venice is built on logs.''


   The questions that I / We raised were
'''<u>> Wang looked at ChongQing, analyzing its heights and depths, considering it is a mountain area city.</u>'''


           'do we really need to preserve everything? What do we take with us?'
''ChongQing is a city in the East-South part of China, it is a city build on a mountain, some say ChongQing is a 8D city because all the roads, buildings streets are overlapping, sometimes when you get off from the 1st floor but you're actually at the 20st floor of another building.''


From this point, Senka and I started talking about the questions that were raised about to think about ideas protocols for active archiving. I read that personally as if we were responsible for the maintenance of the Radio Worm's archive. Instead, we made a work that asks for reflection.  
''It is a very interesting city for travel and food(where the hot pot comes from), but a nightmare for drivers and uber eats.''</blockquote>


With both having made some critical essays / poems, we decided to make a video work because we wanted to visualize the amount of archives. No sound, just video. In these videos, we portray the radio worm from the apocalyptic narrative of SIGNAL LOST: ARCHIVE UNZIPPED.
=== Michel, Mania & Zuzu https://pad.xpub.nl/p/michel-mania-zuzu ===
<blockquote><u>'''> Mania looked at the promises of a better developed square in Warsaw'''</u>


Where Senka shows the vessel of the radio station, I show the amount of data and sounds and players and information that actually go 'live'.
''For so many years we have been waiting in promise for better development of the square in the very center of Warsaw. I remember growing up with this promise that museum of modern art will be build there. The first thing you see after leaving the central station is a huge parking lot. An exhibition hall was built on the Vistula River - intended to serve as a temporary museum.  And even though we finally have a museum in the center (it opens in October), the museum on the Vistula River remains -  cause it became an absolutely fantastic spot.''


<write on this later></blockquote>
''In addition, Warsaw is full of advertisements that scream non-stop! There are also plenty of street markets and kitsch. Previously, I was annoyed by the lack of control and any restrictions regarding advertising and the onslaught of information in public spaces, but now, living in a country where the streets seem so perfect, I miss the kitsch present in my hometown.''


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<i> Questionnairerasure


Are worm a space a radio and a place and more
''If I could change something in my Home town I would definitely add more '''bike paths.''' I see its already improving but still I dont feel very safe cycling there.  That would be the first thing on my list. Once I was hit by a car while cycling in a pouring rain . But I have to admit that the rental bike Veturilo works great.''


I listen in / to worm


I go out I listen I read and I archive.  Through the pipeline |


can’t keep anything that is clutter but need to keep the importance and dance.
'''<u>> Michel wrote about food in Taipei, Taiwan but also the mobility and overcrowdedness</u>'''


not the snake, am the wormoborous the community that feeds on ourshelves.
''Din Tai Fung based in Taipei, Taiwan. It is known internationally for its paper-thin wrapped xiaolongbao with 18 folds.''


Leave the archive as to what is important rather than imported. leave files


And will come around and eat the cookies the crumbs lost. !important
''I lived at the bottom of a steep hill. Every time I wanted to get to the center it took forever and I had to carry my bike up the hill. There is a better, less steep driveway that goes a little further, but there is no bicycle path and the road is quite narrow and uncomfortable among cars. However, going down a steep heel is great and I loved coming home along that route, accelerating to wild speed and screaming while going down.''


Use the space for the next to continuity in unity of the worm


Prepare for leaving but never for farewell. Say goodbye to what you usen’t.
''Foe my perspectives, it would be nicer if there’s less population in Taipei. Now the estimated population is nearly 3 million(2,766,330) and the size is 271.80 km2 which is the similar size to Amsterdam(243.65 km2), but the population is only around 1 million (1,182,000). I've always struggle to live in a crowed city like this. Also there are too many motorcycles and cars in the city so the government doesn’t focus on the rights of pedestrians and bikers. I always feel unsafe when I cycling or walking on the streets in Taipei, perhaps it is one of the reasons for me in order to have a better lifestyles and living quality in other places.''


Is het kunst of kan het weg?


meaning
'''<u>> Zuzu described Shanghai, its temples and the urban development(or decay) and the tensions that could establish between the inhabitants</u>'''


Is it art or can it be thrown in the trash
''Jing'an Temple in Shanghai, situated in a highly coveted and expensive area of the city center, has preserved a Buddhist site amidst the urban sprawl. This has given rise to many urban legends, such as claims related to feng shui, with some believing that the temple's presence boosts the prosperity of the surrounding commercial district.''


Can we empty the bin
''Strangely enough, in stark contrast, there's a saying that Shanghai has the most vibrant Halloween atmosphere in the world.''


In order to begin where our wormhole left us
''There is a growing need to establish boundaries between people, especially in public spaces. Perhaps this is something that can be cultivated, though I am not entirely sure how. People seem to clash so easily, quick to anger. The last time I stayed in Shanghai, I was there for barely a week, and I felt an overwhelming urge to escape. Maybe it was the summer heat—it magnified my senses, and I became more irritable, more sensitive to everything around me.''


If moved from here to there to then from now
''At the same time, I long for it to lessen the political overtones—the large, slogan-like banners on the streets, the uniformity of shop signs. There’s a sense of rigidity in it all, a subtle pressure that lingers, making the everyday feel more controlled, less free.''</blockquote>


What is taken
=== Thijs & Victor https://pad.xpub.nl/p/oslo&duiven ===
<blockquote><u>'''> Victor viewed the buildings, international appeal, (re)branding'''</u>


What is taken into consideration
''A city with many faces?''


In what state is the open city, In which state lies it and how do you leave it
''barcode – early 2000 financial district modern late capitalist vibe''


The space as the wormhole through the wordhole takes us into the active archivalry.
''this area is where a lot of new fancy architecture is being displayed, as it is right by the water it is kind of the face outwards of Oslo, or an attempt at this. this area is a bit touristy and not really a place most Oslo people hang out.''


The physicality contradicts the practicality, being pragmatic of fragments
''prides itself in being a "environment-capital" – whatever that means..''


Being pragmatic over the roots of the space into the data trees
''to appeal to international business or something''


What can be erased?  In order to digest, what is there
''has pretty good public transport, but it has been a bit mis-managed, for example they redid the tram tracks like twice in 5 years because of new trams that were to heavy when for the tracks when they first renovated.''


It should be clear, or cleared or ´klaar´ which means done
''this is a bit typical I feel, that they undertake ambitious projects that always go over time and over budget''


You can store it elsewhere but that isn’t viable over the long run, worms don’t run, they crawl and feed on what is there.
''poster making tool released in relation to overhaul of Oslo visual identity: which embraces flat illustration and very simplified geometric visuals.''


This is no calling for to be sterile or a vote for marie kondo, please kondon’t, but only the wormunity can understand what needs to be kept
''the rebranding caused a controversy regarding some lettering on a sports stadium''


Who are the worms, do they want to keep everything?
''slogan from the city herladic''


Are they capable of leaving recordings behind?
''Unanimiter et constanter – «Enig og standhaftig». something like unified and resilient''


Is it a doom scenario to delete stuff to remain active in archive
''old city with stone-age settlements''


Or does cluttering / hoarding / keeping storage in servers and clouds fit the idea or the worm
''growing up in the suburbs of Oslo playing outside with immidiate vicinity to the forest was defining.''


Will the worm be worn out because of the ecological ideas of the worm
''has a strong sense of east/west division marked by the "Akers-elva" a river that was the epicenter of industry in the 1800's. Now adays most of the areas that used to be considered "rough" in the city pre 2000 have been heavily gentrified and is now the hippest trendiest most neo-liberal areas in particular "Grünerløkka"''


The worm can’t proceed while being stuck, the worm needs to crawl in order to move, to breathe through the space, how does the worm think of using the space,
<u>'''> Thijs dove into the municipality of Duiven, its portraits, planning, project renders, identity, mapping, weapon(shield?)'''</u>


How do you conserve if conservation can harm the soil, maybe digging a bit too deep in these old gardened graveyards but if we wish to make an apocalyptic doomsday protocol, we must show tough love about the institution of the open city. How do we maintain traffic in a city if the city is blocked and clogged?
''Mix of old town (for a Dutch town this size) and 'quiet suburb from Arnhem', situated in an area with lots of rivers, and remnants of the Roman Limes (region is also called Liemers)''


Making the worm accessible and open implies that space is made. In what order does the worm make space for achieving an active archive rather than proceeding as the hoarding worm.  
''Sketch from Duiven from 1742''


Consider this an open call for an open city, an open space for an open mind where questions are open food for thought that the worm can digest again and let its excrements be dissolved in the past. </i>
''Municipality Duiven consists of 3 towns, Duiven, Loo and Groessen''</blockquote>
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''In zilver 3 duiven van azuur, de eerste bedekt door een vrijkwartier van keel, beladen met een karbonkel van goud en over alles heen een hartschild van zilver''
<blockquote>''In the last 10 years, the 'town center' has seen an overhaul, now called 'Vitaal Centrum' (funny as most people living in the center are elderly, and there are a lot of 'vitality centers' around. Part of these plans include 45 'sociale huurwoningen' for people ages 55+. Some humble bouwplannen near De Ploen 'Projectfasen' only have 1 phase''</blockquote>
 
=== Notes I got from Manetta: ===
<blockquote>((Expressions of gratitude))<syntaxhighlight lang="f#">
Obsession/research/question
 
postcard utopianism
"best scenario"
city marketing
 
"where you come from": how does this city profile itself?
"what do you want to change": which axes do you want to add?
 
athens: infrastructural tours
oslo: visual identity; we just copy paste a typeface everywhere, not adopt it to a specific place
 
- "collective jam session for research" nice
- pretty open session... intentionally?
- from the municipality pov... from the specific needs pov...
    - from which perspective do you speak?
        issue of time gaps, not living there anymore, .. interestingly brings up the specificness of perspective
        tourists (alessia), youth (anita), disabilities (maria), city marketing (bernadette), pets (maria), city design (victor/zuzu), history (mania), biggest/tallest records (mania), advertisements (mania), city planning (riviera)
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- unpack!
    - video municipality.. time to observe together?
    - quote Jara Rocha + Femke Snelting
    - xyzt axes, what do they do, where are they used?
 
How will collected material be used? Why are we doing this? Work towards concrete outputs?
 
 
Personal perspective works!
Moment of sharing after first part would work
 
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XYZT+? as a method
method to critique + reflect (!)
building infrastructure for this method as a way to circulate it
</syntaxhighlight></blockquote>[[File:Questionmarkeyes.jpg|thumb|Question Mark Eyes]]
<br />TIMESTAMPS AND ANALYSIS
<small>Notes: 10-11: Groups are made, people are invested, I think people are going for it and are enjoying themselves. There were some questions but not changing in context or so.People were really focussing and so I added a few minutes.<br />
Notes 11.15 - 12.15: There were some confusions about how to apply the second part. There were some thinking eyes as if I were in a forest and owls are all looking at me from the dark hahaha. Overall, people were sharing anecdotes and arguments<br />
around 11:45 I went for a walk around to see how things are going :))</small>
 
=== REFLECTION OF THIS SESSION: ===
 
=== i ===
The first part of this colloquium was by far the most successful. Because people were invested in going in to groups, even though it took some seconds to get into the zone of diving into their places of origin. I intended to make this a collective jam sessions for research, I was a bit too deep with my head into Rotterdam and I wanted to see how other people would go into their own places.
 
=== ii ===
The second part of the colloquium was something I was invested in at the time but not sure how I would adapt this. Because I aiming towards 3D renders specifically.  It would have been better to review this in the second part. 
 
=== !? ===
Moments of sharing after first part would have worked better.
 
The ?? I had myself and also were ?? in the room:
 
* Personal perspectives, stories and observation give so much more context and understanding about the places we are in, rather than the ideas that are being shared from municipalities and commercial outputs. There is a nuance to be found in municipalities. Marketing is about attracting audiences, so it uses the products best qualities to attract. Urban planning is more of a gamble and analysis. How will a municipality grow, what zones are there, do they fit (all?!) needs, etc. ''"predicting population growth, zoning, geographic mapping and analysis, analyzing park space, surveying the water supply, identifying transportation patterns, recognizing food supply demands, allocating healthcare and social services, and analyzing the impact of land use."'' The visuals that come with the planning, relate to X(width), Y(height) Z(depth) & T(time). But where do the needs go? What kind of method would showcase these needs?  Not only to critique but also (maybe even more) to reflect.
 
=== <sup>''<code>What kind of infrastructure would work in ways of circulation. Getting the questionmarks around?</code>''</sup> ===
<sup>''<code>city planning as annotation / drawing out loud method?</code>''</sup>            
 
[ ] public moment  [[File:Renderplotter.jpg|thumb|pen plottered pamphplet|left]]
 
== /XPUB2/PROTOTYPING/PUBLICMOMENT ==
13-11-24
 
This presentation felt like I was presenting multiple things all at once in a sort of mess. I had some conversations and there were good points and cases. I wanted to talk with people but I felt like I 'had nothing to show'. I was showing my own research but I did not feel like this was the right way of showing things. I hadn't fully processed and reflected on the Colloquium and the tutorial with Manetta. So I had a feeling of just standing next to something which I didn't fully support. I felt less 'prepared' than others because I have not felt security and agency over the mess I was trying to sort out. I have a lot to work with but again, narrowing down is het most important part.
 
 
====== 06-11-24  ======
Looking back from the previous few weeks. I went from the personal accessibility to the rendering image of where I live.  I am a bit in between the hyperpersonal and the macropoetic feelings.


The feedback story of my life is I need to start narrowing down.[[File:The setup for the public moment.jpg|thumb|the setup for the public moment]]


The public moment had a positive outcome. I talked <s>too much</s> a lot and there were some nice conversations, however I felt like I needed to defend something.


== Jo Freeman's The Tyranny of Structurelessness ==
The inputs and interests were analyzing and gave me some nice references. [[File:Bellebows-tiktok (bellebows4117).gif|thumb|I just recovered from my flu shit, barely digested the colloquium and feedback + tutorial I had 21-10-24. This public moment felt like I was sharing my own questionmarks with other people. As if I exposed things in a way too premature state. ]]There was one feedback that kinda just got me REALLY frustrated -----> someone asked of 'isn't that just part of living in a big city everywhere?'  and it just felt like it was a mood killer. Whilst my points were about making new city planning, marketing imagery while the things that we don't see rendered are still there.


There was also a remark, asking if I was working with the municipality.


This text was something that really stuck to me in many ways. I was born in a 'red nest' and I have always considered myself a leftist (and no this is not a story about me being a liberated ancap libertarian, barf.) and part of subcultural scenes and supporter of autonomous spaces and the ideas of alternatives.  
I need(ed) to digest and reflect and the public moment was a good moment to reflect if I am clear or not. I was sharper at the colloquium.  


However, I have my doubts on the ideas of alternatives. In the text (and I'm paraphrasing now) the idea of community living is raised and questioned, the idea of a non-hierarchical community seems amazing, yet some sort of power structure or better put 'order' is inevitable. The more self-aware and critique friendly the better.  
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The text spoke to me as well because this idea of a big united group of ideology seems like an [oppositional] utopia. Especially in this time of online politics / meme culture wars.
== meeting with Michael ==
The moment I reflected with Michael, I was rambling a bit in the beginning. How things were going and then looking at what I have done for the project proposal until now.  


I have been thinking about the idea of an alternative doesn't mean that the alternative is actually the better alternative, yet the idea of an alternative could be. 
=== Trying to get my brain a bit more structured and searching for distinction between one and the other ===


Especially during covid (oh no a reference to my gradwork) it became visible that people who appeared to be critical thinkers fell for the conspiracy theories. Or that the ideas of a big pharma are given such a horror scenario that wellness (that makes way more money than pharma) is pushing left-leaning progressives via the anthroposophisticated homeopathic tunnel towards the conservative church of health hazards and [forgot the word] 


even though the internet is not all responsible for this but also the education and environmental influences that result people to go into their programmed minds. (I think that if you come from a space where certain beliefs are rooted, could easily influence you in your daily life even though you're agnostic or atheist but still have the coping mechanism of the circles or 'bubbles' you were raised in. ) 
I want to make choices 


<blockquote>'''Confirmation bias'''  
<big><sup>'''''what goes in the project proposal?                                        |                            what goes into the thesis outline'''''</sup></big><small>?</small>


Tim Minchin [comedian / artist] had a bit on [https://youtu.be/G1juPBoxBdc confirmation bias] where he talks about how search engine algorithms and social media feeds on our assumptions, (pre-existing) beliefs and fuels it with even more related content specifically aimed to these beliefs.
<small>is the proposal an outline of the method?                                |                                    do I criticize renders in the thesis?</small>


He points out that 'we' would do ANYTHING BUT the idea of intellectual heavylifting to change our minds. Which refers to the fact that (online) discourse has been pushing people apart not only from progressive to conservative or from left to right but also within the borders of political ideology where every movement is watched, recorded and frowned upon. 
<small>Is the visual essay a project                                                        |                or is this visual essay the thesis</small>


'''Tribalism'''
<small><nowiki>I want to use drawing as an alternative      ~~~~~~  |                      ~~~~~~~~~~                    to the hollowness of the 3D renderings and other visuals</nowiki></small>


Minchin speaks about how human beings love to be in herds and part of a group / a city or a community and how the internet is making distance between tribes and becoming more binary. 
<small>visualize the tensions ///                            |                  Is the tension something I describe in the thesis?</small>


the main point I was going to share in relation to structurelessness and my concerns as a leftist towards current state of 'the left' is portrayed by Minchin perfectly in the sense of kindness in modern day discourse is not being presented by (generalized) right wing christian pro gun anti-vaxx conservatives but that modern progressives (with an assumed degree in higher education) are missing the idea of kindness as well as 
<small>a method as a human touch as reminder of the human complications    |      the 3d renderings that are calculated based on over simplifications</small>


''A future of more empathy and understanding for more and more people'' 
<sup>how does this method look like?</sup> |                <small>Is the visual essay of the project proposal more the output for the thesis, rather than the project? Did my confusion develop here?</small>


instead, he claims that everybody that is not on 'their' side of the 'line' is immediately a fascist. 
<small>Is it a pamphlet? cartoon?  |            or are those illustrations that will end up in the thesis?</small>


  '''BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES''' 
<small>will it result into a form of countermapping and an anti-campaign? |   Do I even have to be (de)finite about this or am I overthinking this?</small>
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! '''BUBBLES WITHIN'''
! '''BUBBLES WITHIN'''
! '''BUBBLES'''
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|"I can't believe you still follow J.K. Rowling on Twitter"
|"why are you saying ''not all men?!"''
|"Why do you use the F slur in your song?"
|"Why are you sharing pictures of your manicure when you should be posting black squares, which means you are a racist"
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As an alternative he says that 


''showing humility'' 
<small>SHOWING THE LACK THAT IS BINDING / CRACKS. | BUT THEN ALSO WITH WORDS</small>


''mentioning not everybody has had the opportunity to read the books you have and learnt the lessons that you have learned''
<small>developing this method, granting myself multiple reasons and ways to start experimenting |      critique / reflection of the city, start with a tile...</small>


''practicing the principle of charity'' 
<small><nowiki>Is this a drawing ?      ~~~~              |  a first location from the smallest tile (at home) to zooming out / 3d renderings that show the big picture. | ~!!!~~ or a chapter¿</nowiki></small>


''and not assume that anyone that disagrees has a nefarious intent and try to hear their arguments'' 


is rejected by the idea of tone policing as he is put into place as a straight white male and that he needs to check his privilege in which he keeps in his satirically put "library on a mahogany shelf next to his BMW keys"  and as he ''checks'' his privileges he concludes that this way of thinking is still ''ffing'' wrong.  
[ ] I need to make  


He stresses that it ''can not be'' that progressives  progress forward into a future of more empathy and understanding for more people  
[ ] I need to read  


it ''can not be'' that the primary mechanism by which we approach this future is the suppression of empathy and understanding for anyone that doesn't align with our beliefs.  
[ ] I need to write  


it ''can not be'' that unmitigated expression of furious outrage will alchemize into a future of peace and love.
[ ] the project proposal specs / examples


ofcourse there is reason to want justification and be righteously furious about things and he can be as furious as cis gender straight white male with privileges being pissed off about 700 things before breakfast but it doesn't matter if it's not helping. And it's not helping that these aforementioned tribes are being pushed further and further apart.
[ ] thesis outline specs / examples


The moral is that it is hard to change peoples minds but it's not impossible. However, if you would tell someone that they were a fascist and publicly shame them for what they believe, you've lost them and prioritized your need to express outrage and if we're honest, signalling your virtue over the possibility that you could utilize your educational privilege to reach across this algorithmic casm.  
[ ] continue writing the first essay and drawing the first drawing for Steve's commissioning.      
 
06-11-24 I feel like I am in a bit of a slump. There was a very nice process I was in. I have good things going on but I just feel like I am stuck for a second.


Src: https://youtu.be/G1juPBoxBdc</blockquote>
== XPUB2/PROTOTYPING/F(L)OSS ==
PS -> GIMP


Another result is my utter discontent towards how the left parties in the Netherlands have perfectly shown the state of leftism in the Netherlands.
INDD -> SCRIBUS


I was talking to a friend and we evaluated the elections.
AI -> INKSCAPE


I said that
PREMIERE -> OPENSHOT/OLIVE/KDENLIVE/SHOTCUT?


''"The lesson that left leaning NL needs to learn, is that political parties being tiny power structures is a very bad example of an alternative.''


''the two parties I'd vote for (bij1 / animal party) but also GL/PVDA.  I.e. migration is also a very typical thing at the moment''
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''This morning (26/11/23) I was watching WNL op Zondag (conservative rightwing talkshow, my mother believes that you need to watch and listen to your opponent in order to understand and grow over their beliefs to unravel their beliefs)''


''One of the guests was the controversial Lale Gül and other names like (former left turned right leaning) Zihni Özdil were mentioned that represent 'migrants that who do not want to be viewed as pathetic minorities at all' and the sad soul crushing fact that people that lived here for (more than) 3 generations even voted for Geert Wilders [PVV]''
Now what do I need to do


''It made me think, I kinda get the why. The populist belief of "hey, screw your migration, could I be helped first?"''
<s>- get better</s>


''I heavily disagree with this, but I 'kinda get' why. No human is illegal and there's a humanitarian crisis. However the left here is way too individualistic and fighting between the bubbles, instead of actually uniting as worthy block of strong left (or something) instead of the effing bullshit of moralistic wee measuring whilst the status quo is destroying everything through aggressive neoliberalism.''
- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City


''I love to see PvdD en Bij1 as strong parties but I just get so sick of this corrupted management system. Fix it between eachother and it was also the worst timing ever right before the elections.  I voted for one of them. But with less motivation than before.''
- <s>decide between buying year subscription adobe or</s> go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm


''TL;DR  the dutch left should really start reflecting and start building, repairing and mobilizing.`''
- GRS -> see page


- make a prototype for essay, play with formats
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* [[User:Lor.ensō/Lorenzo's Projects that May/Mayn't|PMoMMs: <progress is found here, but order was never an option>]]
* [[COMMISSIONED/ESSAY/AREA|COMMISSIONED ESSAYAREA]] [[Renderdam|Rapid Prototypes: <Renderdam> /]] [[Spiritual media psychosis|Obsessive Catalogue of Madness:Spiritual Media Psychosis]] B2BALESSIA
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* [[User:Lor.ensō/thesis-outline|Thesis outline]]


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13-11-24 I just had my talk with Michael yesterday and I feel like I have stuff everywhere. From which I have to grab the best parts and divide them into what I want put in the thesis (outline) and the project (proposal).




  • ~!!!! IMPORTANTSELFNOTEPOEM
  • [X] ONE THING AFTER THE OTHER.
  • [X] THERE ISSTILL TIME.
  • [X] YOU WANT TO HAVE EVERYTHING DONE BY YESTERYEAR AND YOU PUT A BIG PRESSURE ON YOU
  • [X] DONT BREATHEN'T
  • [X] DO THE THINGS BY THINGS AND THEN YOU SHARPEN
  • [X] DOUBT ONLY IS GOOD WHEN CRITICAL AND PREPARED, DOUBT IS NOT GOOD WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING DOUBTABLE
  • [X] WRITE IT OFF, WALK IT OFF, WORK IT OFF AND PROCEED.
  • [X] EVERYBODY IS CONFUSED, IT IS ALL FINE AND THE HECTICITY IS STARTING BUT ALSO PART OF IT.
  • ~~!!!!!!!!



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https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo  

REFLECTING:

It is now 3,5 weeks ago since the colloquium. There was an interesting method I (subconsciously) started to develop. Asking the questions

"Search for examples of city planning / marketing / maintenance of the city/village/township where you are from*" 
collect img / promises / memories 					                     
then....... 
ask yourself / eachother "how does -location- relate to you as the inhabitant*?"
aaand thennn  
ask yourself / eachother "how do you relate to -location-?"

*free interpretation ofcourse, whatever feels the most comfortable
This part was the most exciting to share because the reactions were interesting:

Bernadette & Rosa https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo-2

> Rotterdam and Riesa

> they looked at merchandise and marketing

Marketing is produced outside of the marketed city. Rotterdam has popular merchandise

Riesa uses German mythological creatures and story to profile its city.

  1. "No strong feelings against city marketing. Marketing is not known to address a city's issues. Promoting a city doesn't hide its issues."
  2. City Marketing is a very subjective perspective on a city, optimistic so it sells better ofcourse.

Anita & Riviera https://pad.xpub.nl/p/lorenzo-colloquium-anita-and-riviera

> Anita looked at the city of Treviso, Italy on its own and its digital entrance

Anita: there seems to be restricted access to the website unless you currently live there, but you can also log in with social media. The information behind this barrier is none. There is a live stream of one of the main squares of the city you can watch

I think it is quite hard for me to be critical and analyse Treviso now, as I have not lived there for 5 years and am lacking a lot of information of living there now. I am a tourist when I go back and so much has changed since I moved away. I remember there being quite a lack of cultural activities and specifically activities for teenagers that did not involve drinking or just hanging out in the 'loggia dei cavalieri' or 'buranelli'

> Riviera focussed more on city planning and criteria via the official channels

Context: the planning process in the UK is longwinded and complex. There are a lot of slow-moving parts so it takes a long time to get anything done. Camden is a region in the North of London.

There's a planning search tool (Currently in beta) where applications can be searched for according to the following criteria:

Application Number / Applicant Name / Agent Name / Site Address / Street Name / Proposal Key Word / Ward / Application Type / Development Type / Status

Co-ordinates of planning in Camden Council I would take account of listed properties, use cases, comments from the public, objections, proposals, opinions, agreements, appeals, communities, councils, parishes, areas of outstanding natural beauty, the greenbelt, the brownbelt, people who protest "Not in my back yard!" and others who want to build absolutely nothing anywhere near anybody. And, of course, planning applicants who want planning permission.

Wang, Alessia & Maria https://pad.xpub.nl/p/wam

> Maria looked at the pavements, ever changing town square per government change in Athens, Greece

Touristic areas is treated differently (maintenance wise)

Floods in Athens because of problematic city planning

Proposed changes for livability:

  1.  Create specific paths around the city for pedestrians, elderly people and people with disabilities or strollers and add a layer on (google) maps with these paths.

   2. Allow pets on public transport

> Alessia looked at Venice, how tourism is, again, more important than maintenance

It's a sinking city, melancholic city.

The population is melancholic too.

It's not a city for anyone with any kind of disability, accesibility is not something the politics care about, the preservation of the city aesthetic is the most important thing.

High water, Syrens system for the high water, soundscape of the city, Demographic index of Venice population Depopulation, Disneyfication of the city ---> Venice is not disneyland, on social media as an archive of city memories and complaints. Venice is built on logs.

> Wang looked at ChongQing, analyzing its heights and depths, considering it is a mountain area city.

ChongQing is a city in the East-South part of China, it is a city build on a mountain, some say ChongQing is a 8D city because all the roads, buildings streets are overlapping, sometimes when you get off from the 1st floor but you're actually at the 20st floor of another building.

It is a very interesting city for travel and food(where the hot pot comes from), but a nightmare for drivers and uber eats.

Michel, Mania & Zuzu https://pad.xpub.nl/p/michel-mania-zuzu

> Mania looked at the promises of a better developed square in Warsaw

For so many years we have been waiting in promise for better development of the square in the very center of Warsaw. I remember growing up with this promise that museum of modern art will be build there. The first thing you see after leaving the central station is a huge parking lot. An exhibition hall was built on the Vistula River - intended to serve as a temporary museum.  And even though we finally have a museum in the center (it opens in October), the museum on the Vistula River remains - cause it became an absolutely fantastic spot.

In addition, Warsaw is full of advertisements that scream non-stop! There are also plenty of street markets and kitsch. Previously, I was annoyed by the lack of control and any restrictions regarding advertising and the onslaught of information in public spaces, but now, living in a country where the streets seem so perfect, I miss the kitsch present in my hometown.


If I could change something in my Home town I would definitely add more bike paths. I see its already improving but still I dont feel very safe cycling there.  That would be the first thing on my list. Once I was hit by a car while cycling in a pouring rain . But I have to admit that the rental bike Veturilo works great.


> Michel wrote about food in Taipei, Taiwan but also the mobility and overcrowdedness

Din Tai Fung based in Taipei, Taiwan. It is known internationally for its paper-thin wrapped xiaolongbao with 18 folds.


I lived at the bottom of a steep hill. Every time I wanted to get to the center it took forever and I had to carry my bike up the hill. There is a better, less steep driveway that goes a little further, but there is no bicycle path and the road is quite narrow and uncomfortable among cars. However, going down a steep heel is great and I loved coming home along that route, accelerating to wild speed and screaming while going down.


Foe my perspectives, it would be nicer if there’s less population in Taipei. Now the estimated population is nearly 3 million(2,766,330) and the size is 271.80 km2 which is the similar size to Amsterdam(243.65 km2), but the population is only around 1 million (1,182,000). I've always struggle to live in a crowed city like this. Also there are too many motorcycles and cars in the city so the government doesn’t focus on the rights of pedestrians and bikers. I always feel unsafe when I cycling or walking on the streets in Taipei, perhaps it is one of the reasons for me in order to have a better lifestyles and living quality in other places.


> Zuzu described Shanghai, its temples and the urban development(or decay) and the tensions that could establish between the inhabitants

Jing'an Temple in Shanghai, situated in a highly coveted and expensive area of the city center, has preserved a Buddhist site amidst the urban sprawl. This has given rise to many urban legends, such as claims related to feng shui, with some believing that the temple's presence boosts the prosperity of the surrounding commercial district.

Strangely enough, in stark contrast, there's a saying that Shanghai has the most vibrant Halloween atmosphere in the world.

There is a growing need to establish boundaries between people, especially in public spaces. Perhaps this is something that can be cultivated, though I am not entirely sure how. People seem to clash so easily, quick to anger. The last time I stayed in Shanghai, I was there for barely a week, and I felt an overwhelming urge to escape. Maybe it was the summer heat—it magnified my senses, and I became more irritable, more sensitive to everything around me.

At the same time, I long for it to lessen the political overtones—the large, slogan-like banners on the streets, the uniformity of shop signs. There’s a sense of rigidity in it all, a subtle pressure that lingers, making the everyday feel more controlled, less free.

Thijs & Victor https://pad.xpub.nl/p/oslo&duiven

> Victor viewed the buildings, international appeal, (re)branding

A city with many faces?

barcode – early 2000 financial district modern late capitalist vibe

this area is where a lot of new fancy architecture is being displayed, as it is right by the water it is kind of the face outwards of Oslo, or an attempt at this. this area is a bit touristy and not really a place most Oslo people hang out.

prides itself in being a "environment-capital" – whatever that means..

to appeal to international business or something

has pretty good public transport, but it has been a bit mis-managed, for example they redid the tram tracks like twice in 5 years because of new trams that were to heavy when for the tracks when they first renovated.

this is a bit typical I feel, that they undertake ambitious projects that always go over time and over budget

poster making tool released in relation to overhaul of Oslo visual identity: which embraces flat illustration and very simplified geometric visuals.

the rebranding caused a controversy regarding some lettering on a sports stadium

slogan from the city herladic

Unanimiter et constanter – «Enig og standhaftig». something like unified and resilient

old city with stone-age settlements

growing up in the suburbs of Oslo playing outside with immidiate vicinity to the forest was defining.

has a strong sense of east/west division marked by the "Akers-elva" a river that was the epicenter of industry in the 1800's. Now adays most of the areas that used to be considered "rough" in the city pre 2000 have been heavily gentrified and is now the hippest trendiest most neo-liberal areas in particular "Grünerløkka"

> Thijs dove into the municipality of Duiven, its portraits, planning, project renders, identity, mapping, weapon(shield?)

Mix of old town (for a Dutch town this size) and 'quiet suburb from Arnhem', situated in an area with lots of rivers, and remnants of the Roman Limes (region is also called Liemers)

Sketch from Duiven from 1742

Municipality Duiven consists of 3 towns, Duiven, Loo and Groessen

In zilver 3 duiven van azuur, de eerste bedekt door een vrijkwartier van keel, beladen met een karbonkel van goud en over alles heen een hartschild van zilver

In the last 10 years, the 'town center' has seen an overhaul, now called 'Vitaal Centrum' (funny as most people living in the center are elderly, and there are a lot of 'vitality centers' around. Part of these plans include 45 'sociale huurwoningen' for people ages 55+. Some humble bouwplannen near De Ploen 'Projectfasen' only have 1 phase

Notes I got from Manetta:

((Expressions of gratitude))

Obsession/research/question

postcard utopianism
"best scenario"
city marketing

"where you come from": how does this city profile itself?
"what do you want to change": which axes do you want to add?

athens: infrastructural tours
oslo: visual identity; we just copy paste a typeface everywhere, not adopt it to a specific place

- "collective jam session for research" nice
- pretty open session... intentionally?
- from the municipality pov... from the specific needs pov...
    - from which perspective do you speak?
        issue of time gaps, not living there anymore, .. interestingly brings up the specificness of perspective
        tourists (alessia), youth (anita), disabilities (maria), city marketing (bernadette), pets (maria), city design (victor/zuzu), history (mania), biggest/tallest records (mania), advertisements (mania), city planning (riviera)
    -

- unpack!
    - video municipality.. time to observe together?
    - quote Jara Rocha + Femke Snelting
    - xyzt axes, what do they do, where are they used?

How will collected material be used? Why are we doing this? Work towards concrete outputs?


Personal perspective works!
Moment of sharing after first part would work

---

XYZT+? as a method
method to critique + reflect (!)
building infrastructure for this method as a way to circulate it
Question Mark Eyes

TIMESTAMPS AND ANALYSIS Notes: 10-11: Groups are made, people are invested, I think people are going for it and are enjoying themselves. There were some questions but not changing in context or so.People were really focussing and so I added a few minutes.
Notes 11.15 - 12.15: There were some confusions about how to apply the second part. There were some thinking eyes as if I were in a forest and owls are all looking at me from the dark hahaha. Overall, people were sharing anecdotes and arguments
around 11:45 I went for a walk around to see how things are going :))

REFLECTION OF THIS SESSION:

i

The first part of this colloquium was by far the most successful. Because people were invested in going in to groups, even though it took some seconds to get into the zone of diving into their places of origin. I intended to make this a collective jam sessions for research, I was a bit too deep with my head into Rotterdam and I wanted to see how other people would go into their own places.

ii

The second part of the colloquium was something I was invested in at the time but not sure how I would adapt this. Because I aiming towards 3D renders specifically. It would have been better to review this in the second part.

!?

Moments of sharing after first part would have worked better.

The ?? I had myself and also were ?? in the room:

  • Personal perspectives, stories and observation give so much more context and understanding about the places we are in, rather than the ideas that are being shared from municipalities and commercial outputs. There is a nuance to be found in municipalities. Marketing is about attracting audiences, so it uses the products best qualities to attract. Urban planning is more of a gamble and analysis. How will a municipality grow, what zones are there, do they fit (all?!) needs, etc. "predicting population growth, zoning, geographic mapping and analysis, analyzing park space, surveying the water supply, identifying transportation patterns, recognizing food supply demands, allocating healthcare and social services, and analyzing the impact of land use." The visuals that come with the planning, relate to X(width), Y(height) Z(depth) & T(time). But where do the needs go? What kind of method would showcase these needs? Not only to critique but also (maybe even more) to reflect.

What kind of infrastructure would work in ways of circulation. Getting the questionmarks around?

city planning as annotation / drawing out loud method?

[ ] public moment

pen plottered pamphplet

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13-11-24

This presentation felt like I was presenting multiple things all at once in a sort of mess. I had some conversations and there were good points and cases. I wanted to talk with people but I felt like I 'had nothing to show'. I was showing my own research but I did not feel like this was the right way of showing things. I hadn't fully processed and reflected on the Colloquium and the tutorial with Manetta. So I had a feeling of just standing next to something which I didn't fully support. I felt less 'prepared' than others because I have not felt security and agency over the mess I was trying to sort out. I have a lot to work with but again, narrowing down is het most important part.


06-11-24

Looking back from the previous few weeks. I went from the personal accessibility to the rendering image of where I live. I am a bit in between the hyperpersonal and the macropoetic feelings.

The feedback story of my life is I need to start narrowing down.

the setup for the public moment

The public moment had a positive outcome. I talked too much a lot and there were some nice conversations, however I felt like I needed to defend something.

The inputs and interests were analyzing and gave me some nice references.

I just recovered from my flu shit, barely digested the colloquium and feedback + tutorial I had 21-10-24. This public moment felt like I was sharing my own questionmarks with other people. As if I exposed things in a way too premature state.

There was one feedback that kinda just got me REALLY frustrated -----> someone asked of 'isn't that just part of living in a big city everywhere?' and it just felt like it was a mood killer. Whilst my points were about making new city planning, marketing imagery while the things that we don't see rendered are still there.

There was also a remark, asking if I was working with the municipality.

I need(ed) to digest and reflect and the public moment was a good moment to reflect if I am clear or not. I was sharper at the colloquium.

I have bought books, I still want to buy one more. I am also thinking about how to continue developing a method.

meeting with Michael

The moment I reflected with Michael, I was rambling a bit in the beginning. How things were going and then looking at what I have done for the project proposal until now.

Trying to get my brain a bit more structured and searching for distinction between one and the other

I want to make choices

what goes in the project proposal? | what goes into the thesis outline?

is the proposal an outline of the method? | do I criticize renders in the thesis?

Is the visual essay a project | or is this visual essay the thesis

I want to use drawing as an alternative ~~~~~~ | ~~~~~~~~~~ to the hollowness of the 3D renderings and other visuals

visualize the tensions /// | Is the tension something I describe in the thesis?

a method as a human touch as reminder of the human complications | the 3d renderings that are calculated based on over simplifications

how does this method look like? | Is the visual essay of the project proposal more the output for the thesis, rather than the project? Did my confusion develop here?

Is it a pamphlet? cartoon? | or are those illustrations that will end up in the thesis?

will it result into a form of countermapping and an anti-campaign? | Do I even have to be (de)finite about this or am I overthinking this?

SHOWING THE LACK THAT IS BINDING / CRACKS. | BUT THEN ALSO WITH WORDS

developing this method, granting myself multiple reasons and ways to start experimenting | critique / reflection of the city, start with a tile...

Is this a drawing ? ~~~~ | a first location from the smallest tile (at home) to zooming out / 3d renderings that show the big picture. | ~!!!~~ or a chapter¿


[ ] I need to make

[ ] I need to read

[ ] I need to write

[ ] the project proposal specs / examples

[ ] thesis outline specs / examples

[ ] continue writing the first essay and drawing the first drawing for Steve's commissioning.

06-11-24 I feel like I am in a bit of a slump. There was a very nice process I was in. I have good things going on but I just feel like I am stuck for a second.


XPUB2/PROTOTYPING/F(L)OSS

PS -> GIMP

INDD -> SCRIBUS

AI -> INKSCAPE

PREMIERE -> OPENSHOT/OLIVE/KDENLIVE/SHOTCUT?


/XPUB2

Now what do I need to do

- get better

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats

/GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR

/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read

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PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N 
beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}