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| === Question: ===
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| IF WE PLAY DOES THAT MEAN ITS NOT REAL(ITY) ?
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| ==== Description of two previous video works ====
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| THIS IS AND THAT IS AND A BIT OF THIS AND A LOT OF THAT (2018)
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| Is a 10 minutes video in which you see a series of moving portraits of Luca. In every portrait, Luca looks totally different. The video is guided by a narration that speaks an repetitive test always starting with the words: “THIS IS ME…..” The person you see in the image always may look different in every scene but the narrator tells you it's always the same person. The video plays with the versatile aspects of beliefs concerning 'identity', a research into the intriguing differences, the moldability of 'being' and in surge of a kind of essence. We search for authenticity. Yet we want to be accepted, to converse, to belong to one another in risk of losing that very authenticity. The complex game that plays with the urge for acceptance, recognition and the need for authenticity is central to this work.
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| THIS IS THEM (2020)
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| Is a video in which you see Branda and Hilda playing in a room. They play different characters and scenes. Every scene is introduced by the narrator, always starting with the words; “THIS IS THEM…” Branda and Hilda long for a big life worth living but what does that mean a big life? Who influenced them to believe what is worthy? Branda and Hilda have such a grand idea of what life should be like that they are scared to go outside and live beyond their imagination. So they stay and try to create a vibrant life right there in that room. The question that this work raises is if staying in your room and creating words with your imagination is less of a real life compared to going outside into the world full of people where you can not control all that is happening.
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| ==== Intention for a new piece ====
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| Something that fascinates me is how we as humans seek to connect with others and therefore ourselves - what we will do to experience connection and what kind of connection we allow. I think we often try to be "something" so we can belong to a certain group or movement in order to experience contact. This is how we create our story and our identity …
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| In my work, the central focus is on people and their search for identity. Who are we? Where do we belong? How malleable is our identity? Why do we want confirmation from others? I try to show that people never know or possess one identity. Our identity consists of many layers and different "characters" that we discover and alternate in a playful way, in order to create our own story.
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| I am intrigued by group dynamics: which role/identity someone takes within a group, but also that groups create their identity by opposing other people and groups. People are often looking for confirmation, but this search may lead to alienation, isolation and the feeling of "not being alive".
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| These elements (identity and group dynamics) are in line with my fascination for people who constantly present themselves to the outside world. How do we want other people to see us? How do we want to see ourselves? I do not find this self-conscious urge for presentation to be exclusively negative: I think that the human being is a playful being at its core and that the different ways of presenting yourself to the outside world are in line with our urge to play. By self-presentation, people can playfully create an identity and reality with which he / she can approach and avoid the world. I believe playing is both a flight and a search for genuine contact with ourselves and the other. With the making of a new video called THIS IS US I want to further investigate how a small group of people surge for how they are individually and as one.
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| THIS IS US (2021)
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| In THIS IS US we see a group of three people in five different scenes. Every scene shows how the group wants to be identified as a whole. “ I belong therefore I am ”. The style of the video is characterized by the four performers, wearing distinct coherent costumes in a minimal scenographic setting. THIS IS US has a non linear dramaturgie, and can be seen as a collage of moments.
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| In this film I'm applying the same restrictions to investigate playing but this time going further by questioning how identity is constructed within a group context. I believe this work can build on the previous works, and has an opportunity to show how people change their identity for the sake of belonging to the other. What role/identity does someone take within a group, and how fast can this role change? This work can also make a new step in showing how groups create their identity by opposing other people and groups. Next to that I wish to make THIS IS US to further discover a (for me) form of dramaturgy. That means I want to look for a dramaturgy that offers me the ideal combination of abstract images and a narrative form. The video works that I have made so far are formalistic and visual, and I have a longing to add a narrative layer to it. I am fascinated by narrative structures that are non-linear and are not based on the direct action of a character, but on his or her psychological inner world. After all, the complicated inner world of man is not linear, but fragmented and contradictory. I want to deepen this by investigating the narrative structures of Roy Anderson and diving into the work of Federico Fellini. In the case of Anderson, because his story structure is characterized by a fragmentary approach and Fellini because he masterfully captured both reality and fantasy in his film language. In this way I would like to investigate the following question: in what way (technically and substantively) do Fellini's absurdist scenes enter into a dialogue with the realistic scenes? This can help me with my own video language, as I want to alternate realism and absurdism without the works losing their sense of unity. With the making of THIS IS US, I wish to develop a narrative structure that combines the concrete with artistic freedom, accessibility with innovation and intelligence with emotion. Because how do you create a story that is as clear as possible, while creating a lot of artistic freedom on a visual level? How do you ensure that the viewer does not experience an "anything goes" feeling? That the artistry of the video actually reinforces rather than hinders the story? Where do the suspension of disbelief and artistic wonder meet? I now imagine THIS IS US to have a dramaturgy in which tableaux vivants show the inner emotional world of the characters, in combination with realistic situations. In that sense, the video will play with the dividing line between realism and fantasy, the real world and the playing world, and between story in language and story in images.
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| ==== What do i what the thesis to do? ====
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| In the first video, I made THIS IS AND THAT IS AND A BIT OF THIS AND A LOT OF THAT It started with one person's alternating characters. This person is limited in playing with one's identity, one body. One person could be anybody/everybody. When you present yourself as one, you're the only one deciding what you show or how you believe to be and what you could become.
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| Then in the second video, THIS IS THEM there are two people playing. I noticed that the definition of how they were was an immediate rejection to the other and relayed on the other. Unlike in the first video they could not be everybody they were always somebody else opposite earth other. That means that defining their identities was always in relation to the other.
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| The thesis should become an artistic piece that functions as a script. This script moves throw three different chapters:
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| Solo *
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| Duo **
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| Trio ***
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| With every chapter, I want to look at the different ways of identifying a self in relation to:
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| oneself, the other, and the others. Therefore this thesis is a resurge in the different ways of articulating who we are, and how many versions we can be depending on the circumstances. And diving into a new dynamic of three characters I want to investigate what kind of dynamics are new and not existing in the previous constructions.
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| == chapters ====
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| ==== 1) solo (I (me-mine) mode of address) ====
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| This is ME solo
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| This is
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| My face
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| My body
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| This is me
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| Me is a somebody with a body
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| A someone
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| One being
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| Is me
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| this is me being
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| this is me being be yond
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| this is me trying to be
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| This is me being nothing
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| this is me being at least something
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| Thinks
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| This is me being thinks
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| This is feeling things
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| Good
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| Bad
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| Strong
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| Soft
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| this is me being me
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| this is me being myself
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| this is me being and i
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| this is me being animalistic
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| this is me being dutch
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| this is me being small
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| this is me being tall
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| this is me being without an audience
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| this is me being trying to be in love
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| this is me being loving and kind
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| this is me being free
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| this is me being present
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| A present something to be raped around and let go off
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| Something to give away
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| This is me given
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| This is me being raped around a curtain
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| This is me being unseen
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| this is me being human
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| this is me being a ‘viswijf’
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| this is me being a cook
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| this is me being
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| this is me being
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| this is me being
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| this is me thinking about children
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| this is me thinking
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| this is me thinking about the rest of my life
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| this is me thinking like the pope
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| this is me thinking forward
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| this is me thinking backward
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| this is me thinking a bit to the side
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| this is me thinking like you
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| this is me thinking about you
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| this is me thinking like no one
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| this is me thinking just after i had no sleep and a party before that were i felt alone and to shy to dance and to dom to talk and small for the adult, to tall for the kids
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| this is me thinking like barbie
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| this is me thinking like ken
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| this is me thinking like obama
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| this is me thinking money
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| this is me thinking like marina
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| abramovic
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| otero verzier
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| sirtis
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| this is me thinking like an adult taking responsibility
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| this is me thinking i can not even take care of myself
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| this is me thinking like liking a ice cream but not knowing which taste I shall take
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| this is me taking
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| this is me giving
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| this is me grieving
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| this is me grieving about …
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| About feeling things
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| this is me grieving with ..
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| It’s me it’s me
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| This
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| Is
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| Me. on. my. way.
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| this is me going out
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| oud of it all,
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| this is me having no energie to talk, no talking to, no one, no talking at all,, all do i mostly like talkinggggg
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| aaaaaa
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| LLLOOOOTTTT
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| lot
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| lots lots of talking
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| this is me talking
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| It’s me at a part
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| this is me at a party confronted with a feeling; the feeling off “im alone allllllllll a. lone.”
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| All one?
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| this is me being funny
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| Is it?
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| lots
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| of
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| it
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| of
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| fun
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| fun,fun,fun
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| this is me having fun
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| this is
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| is it?
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| It’s me at the supermarket trying to remember what i needed
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| this is me getting angry and showing it
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| this is me being angry and hiding it
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| this is me playing hide and seek
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| this is me manly
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| this is me féminin
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| This is me not being man nor woman
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| Simply being i guess
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| I guess?…
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| Guessing that is something new
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| This is me guessing
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| This is me in panic
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| This is me in the water
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| this is me having a problem with my skin and the way i feel in it
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| the way I’m feeling in that skin, it’s not the way i wanna feel within that skin i wanna feel some little softness some little something i wanna feel my skin but this is me not feeling anything
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| this is me realizing I could never be in some one el’s its skin, i will only have this space to life within
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| this is me pretending to be free
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| this is me looking to you
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| for you
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| you without me
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| maybe a …uhhm
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| no i don’t know
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| me not knowing wanting to know it all
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| alll allllllllllll lalallala didadidoedada
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| dod dodadaid dododododo
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| do something go on and do something
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| Things that matter
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| things that are important and have impact
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| one day this face my will have
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| freckles, lines,ways
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| me looking to the future
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| me being the future
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| this is me looking cool
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| me looking full
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| seeing a bird
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| seeing blue
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| a blue color
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| sky?
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| sea?
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| Birthday cake with blue marsepein?
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| water?
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| filthy water
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| Do you still see me?
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| this is
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| Come on look, can you see or hear me?
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| listen
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| this is me listening
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| to my mother's voice telling me stories from the children's bible
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| Listening to a song of a movie that had a strong impact on me
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| listening
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| this is listening
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| to my belly
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| listening at people talking
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| this is me listening at people talking
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| about
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| about
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| there
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| life
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| lifess
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| this is be me believing in today
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| and believing in tomorrow
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| some you some me
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| som som som
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| handsome
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| Do you find this handsome?
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| this is me peaceful
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| full of it all
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| all that jazz
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| and all that
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| Ass
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| All the assholes in the world and mine
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| this is me being a child
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| this is me wanting to have a child
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| this is me getting children
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| this is me having my on mother as a child
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| this is me being mother of all
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| this is me mother of my mother
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| this is me being moddder
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| ‘modder, modder’ it’s a dutch word
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| this is me having no words for the other I always waited for, always wanted
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| to
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| get
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| to know
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| The other
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| always there
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| but now for the first time for the very first time
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| in my life
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| no words for life
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| just ‘modder’
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| this is me building a house
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| looking for a new color
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| this is having a lot, wanting more
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| this is me having no dignity
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| no insanity
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| no reality
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| maybe
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| yes maybe
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| we should all believe
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| believe in me
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| maybe
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| not
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| maybe
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| stop with all the maybes
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| this is me ….maybe
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| maybe..
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| beyond the apple tree there’s another tree
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| and on that tree
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| hangs a apple
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| and in that apple
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| there’s a tunnel
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| it's a long, long tunnel
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| it’s a narrow tunnel
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| you can not walk straid
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| You have to crawl
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| it takes hours, days,takes lifes
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| Infact
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| there’s no ending in the tunnel
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| There is
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| this is and that is
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| and a bit of this and all that
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| There is this with
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| and without
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| This is a moment I feel something is going to happen something big
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| something unexpected
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| this is me in fantasie
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| this is me singing
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| loud
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| soft
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| married
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| unmarried
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| this is me being one with nature
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| this is me being touched by God, but not physically i wouldn't want that, no that would be strange…
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| not being hungry for a while
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| no laughter for a while
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| not feeling like doing anything
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| like doing something
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| things, ooh things
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| this is me in the house of a friend of mine, my friend is not there but i am
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| the friend left the house, left the city left to another place, a place i don’t know
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| this is me in my place
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| this is me in my house
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| this is leaving my house
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| this is not leaving
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| don’t open the curtains
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| a tiny bird
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| no a small one
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| a tinny and
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| This is not saving the world.
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| save me.
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| no.
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| not wanting to be saved.
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| This is living until the end of my life.
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| This is being afraid of traffic.
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| truth.
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| lies.
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| losing my parents
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| this is dancing in the park
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| this is being touched by a letter
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| me writing a letter to you
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| this is me touched by a letter i wrote to myself
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| me writing a letter to you
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| the
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| un
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| known
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| you.
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| writing little letters lots of words
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| I do not think you notice how much effort i put in this
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| this is not liking the heat of the sun
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| this is believing my life will be more meaningful when i win that golden bracelet with stars on-top
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| this is being the fat lady who sings when it’s all over
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| this is me unable to enjoy sexual pleasures
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| this is making a spectacle of myself
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| this is not understanding everything so i can not make you understand so that means that you can not make a other understand so then maybe no one will ever understand
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| this is not knowing
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| not knowing how to tell my parents i forgot them
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| this is not knowing what is expected from me
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| this is not being expected
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| this is me wanting to feel something
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| big feelings
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| trying to hear almost nonexistent sounds
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| This is me starting crying over nothing
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| It's me! it's me!
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| This.
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| Is.
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| me.
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| This is me talking to my sister about what I think is good about her and what things she can work on.
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| this is me talking to myself
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| this is me talking on the phone to someone i hope i can call a friend
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| this is me thinking
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| this is me thinking about thinking
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| this is me thinking about the rest of my life
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| this is me at the party, I was really looking forward to this party. A lot of cool people would have been here if it wasn't for the rain, I could just go home… no i just arrived, maybe try to talk to some people, people i don’t know
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| Yet
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| you don’t know jet
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| go on
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| be surprised
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| Come on, go for it, meet new people, maybe go home with a smile on your face, you never know until you try yyy.
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| trying
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| this is trying
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| gggggggggggggggggiving this moment a try
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| this is me in panic
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| this is me looking for you looking for me
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| trying
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| I always was i’ll always be
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| trying to be
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| before there was
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| before there will be
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| some you some me
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| sommee
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| this is hoping
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| I hope
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| I hope life is good to all you
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| hope life is good to you
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| hope you love
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| hope you grieve in order to relief
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| hope it didn’t mind what i did or do or am going to
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| hope this was not all about me
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| hope also a bit about you
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| this is
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| it’ s my face
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| it is in the beginning and the end
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| ==== 2) duet (we [us -they- their's] mode of address) ====
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| This is THEM duo
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| In a world full of worlds,
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| there is this little place which is a town,
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| and in that town are many long streets, small trees and 33 big houses.
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| Every house looks exactly the same … well actually there is one, just one house that doesn’t look exactly like the others..
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| It’s that house on the corner to the park
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| It has a lot of windows and is very colorful.
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| it’s ..sss ehhm... well, ehm, yellow and green, and has some touches of pink here and there.
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| And in that. bright. yellow, green, a little bit of pink house are many rooms and many doors
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| Ohh… so many
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| I mean if I wouldn’t have known the place, I would totally get lost.
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| On the second floor, there is a long, long hallway and at the end of that long, long hallway there are two doors.
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| Do you see that one on the left?
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| That’s the door to Hilda’s room
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| And in that room Hilda spends her time with her dear friend Branda
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| Let me introduce them shortly;
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| Hilda is a young energetic, but shy girl. She loves collecting feathers and has a complex relationship with her mother, who also had a complex relationship with her own mother, so maybe there is some connection there. Well anyway... Hilda has one very, very, very very, very close friend. It’s Branda, she’s also shy. But… unlike Hilda she likes telling secrets to strangers. Branda doesn’t collect things, nooo… she is a minimalist.
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| And her parents are never around,.So it's hard to build some kind of, or any kind of relationship.
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| This is them,
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| Branda is wearing her favorite blue sweater, while clipping Hilda’s
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| nails, which are way overdue.
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| There is one thing Hilda and Branda both deeply love,
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| is playing, yes playing.
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| In this room Hilda and Branda spend hours, weeks, years creating worlds, playing people, day in day out they play, play, play. I’m not even sure if they ever left the place.
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| This isss themmmmmmmmmm
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| in class
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| This is them being parents
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| Being my parents
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| Telling a big big secret
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| This is receiving a letter
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| This is them introducing a self
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| HILDA:
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| hello you
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| BRANDA:
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| hallo jij
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| HILDA:
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| we or me
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| BRANDA:
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| wij of mij
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| HILDA:
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| they call me she
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| BRANDA:
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| ze noemen me zij
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| HILDA:
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| my sister calls me sissy
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| BRANDA:
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| mijn zus noemt me zusje
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| HILDA:
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| have a brother calls me sis
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| BRANDA:
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| heb een broer noemt me zus
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| HILDA:
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| or maybe lady,
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| BRANDA:
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| of misschien dame
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| HILDA:
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| A young lady.
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| BRANDA:
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| een jonge dame
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| HILDA:
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| the delivery guy calls me a little chickie.
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| BRANDA:
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| the delivery guy calls you a little chickie
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| HILDA:
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| my mother calls me young girl.
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| BRANDA:
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| Mijn moeder noemt me klein meisje
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| HILDA:
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| I have a friend, she calls me baby
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| BRANDA:
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| Ik heb een vriend, ze noemt me baby
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| HILDA:
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| boys should call me like that
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| BRANDA:
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| jongens zouden me zo moeten noemen
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| HILDA:
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| call me there baby
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| BRANDA:
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| call me there baby
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| HILDA:
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| but my mother calls me baby as well
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| BRANDA:
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| maar men moeder noemt me ook baby
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| HILDA:
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| only when were in Italy.
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| BRANDA:
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| alleen als we in Italië zijn
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| HILDA:
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| when I’m no good she calls me darling
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| BRANDA:
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| little darling
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| HILDA:
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| little darling
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| BRANDA:
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| I call me, “me” whatever that may be or become
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| HILDA:
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| I don’t believe in the word being
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| BRANDA:
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| Why?
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| HILDA:
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| I like poetic words
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| BRANDA:
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| Being is very poetic.
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| HILDA:
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| No , not at all, being is an idea.
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| BRANDA:
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| being is a verb, Present continuous
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| I am being
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| you are being
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| he/she/it is being
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| we are being
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| you are being
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| they are being
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| Present perfect
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| I have been
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| you have been
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| he/she/it has been
| |
| we have been
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| you have been
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| they have been
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| Future
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| I will be
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| you will be
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| he/she/it will be
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| we will be
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| you will be
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| they will be
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| Future perfect
| |
| I will have been…….
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|
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| This is them being attacked, but kinda liking it
| |
|
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| This is them waiting for a bus
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|
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| Trying the unknown
| |
|
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| Trying, Trying a..new…look?
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|
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| This is them somewhere in a French cafe drinking strong coffee smoking ciggies and thinking ooh thinking
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|
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| HILDA:
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| I move my face slightly to the right
| |
| I blink my eyes three times, I swallow,
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| I think, I think,
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| and what of all that I’ve decided to do myself?
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| for all i know i've not been the one making the decision to start breathing, it just happened.
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| All things just happen, we don't decide. I didn’t decide who I am, and it has not been decided for me
| |
| it's decided along the way ...
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|
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| HILDA:
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| So are we not responsible for our actions?
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| OO I think we are, but we tend to forget about that part.
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|
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|
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| This is them knowing what tomorrow will look like
| |
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| HILDA:
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| Lately I have been thinking, do you know why God created the world the way he did? I mean so complicated, Because i’ve been thinking about it, and it just get more and more puzzled
| |
| if there is a divine plan it sure doesn’t look very divine, or plant like. It looks kinda like a mess. That's just how I feel. like i don’t know anything, it’s really scary
| |
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| BRANDA:
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| I know what you mean I don’t even know the smallest things like the name of the prime minister, I don’t know why the sky is blue?
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| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| I don’t know what blue is,
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don’t know why i don’t know
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| I don’t know what my dad does at work
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
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| I don’t know how many different types of insects there are , can’t even remember if a spider has 6 or 8 legs.
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
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| I don’t know the difference between good art and bad art. I have no clue what a hostile takeover is, nor why junk bonds are junky, I mean why would anybody want them if they’re worthless? it doesn’t make any sense.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don’t know nothing about politics, I don’t know why carbs are bad for you, I don't know how to spell carbon monoxide nor the meaning. I don’t know what the recipe for a good apple crumble is.
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| | |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| I don’t know how to play the piano, I don’t know how to speak french, I don’t know how to make love, I do know how to make a scrambled egg , I know I like glitter, I know I like money, I know I like to party, I know I like to cry, I know I like to be seen.
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| BRANDA:
| |
| I know how stubborn i can be, I know I’m a vegetarian, i know I’m feminine , I know I’m a daughter, I know I’m short I know I’m technically not the smartest person, I know I can smile, I know I want to be successful
| |
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| HILDA:
| |
| own a lot of books
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| read them
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| books about
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| the world
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| society
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Books
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| About
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| About
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| about people
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| about me
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| I want to read a book about me
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| write it
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| write it with my
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Secrets
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| my deepest fears
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I want people to know me
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| like Nietzsche
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| like Christina
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| Aguilera
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| and
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| make movies
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Direct them
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| play them
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| show them
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| I want to make movies about love
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| About
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| Good
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Stuff
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| you see
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I see
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| you see we need to have
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| a purpose
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| a desire
| |
| | |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| a fulfilling
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| dream
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| This is Hilda showing brand her costume
| |
| This is Hilda being proud of her new costume
| |
|
| |
| This is seeking for a strong opinion
| |
|
| |
| This is Branda telling Hilda it’s important to make something of their lives, something that will last forever.
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| It's important that we make something of our lives. Become something unexpected. we should go out there. do things, I mean big things. thinks that will last forever.
| |
|
| |
| This is them having cake
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| O god you’re never going to believe what I’ve heard
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Go on..
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| You know Brenda and Hilda right?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| hmm kinda…
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Well they have decided to no longer live in the shadows, in that room of theirs. And want to become something worth living...
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| like what???
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| YYYEEAHHHA This is the best part, they want to become…clowns
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| What?? Like a clown duo??! Are you joking?
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Well I hope they have some jokes because for all I know being a clown, it’s a tough business
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| My god I can’t wait to tell the girls on Tuesday
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I know right, so crazy
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| I always thought they were strange
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Oh god George is coming this way, act like we're having fun
| |
|
| |
| This is them looking for some fresh air
| |
|
| |
| This is them in a forest. Ooh ehm no its, its them at the swimming pool
| |
|
| |
| That’s playing football
| |
|
| |
| Staying close to the wall
| |
| Being the one unwanted
| |
|
| |
| At the audition
| |
|
| |
| This is them at the audition
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Soo, thanks for coming, is this your first time auditioning?
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Yes, well no, well, I had some small roles here and there. But I really want to become serious with acting. It's my dream.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Great! How would you describe yourself? As a modern female actress?
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Uhm...
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| No worries, you’re young, and beautiful, (you have) the keys to the kingdom.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Now show me your emotions, please
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Surprised
| |
| Afraid
| |
| Wondering
| |
| Wondering about your name
| |
| Angry
| |
| Happy with a touch of suspicion
| |
| In love
| |
| Mmm no wait I don't seem to believe that you're in love, please try that one again
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| No something different…
| |
| Uhhmm give it some sadness maybe that will work
| |
| Andddd now go to mad
| |
| More….moo…ore
| |
| Happy
| |
| OK thanks, now let’s do some dialogue from the scene at the swimming pool, OK? We’ll start from… .page 7
| |
| Oh and move a little bit closer to the wall please, mmm… yeah… eehm… but more yeah OK. Whenever you’re ready.
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don't feel like playing football: there's a lot of water around here, I don’t think it's very safe
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Ooh… please come on…, all the cool kids finally want to play with us, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don't know, I’m not even … I’m not even
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| …good at football?
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I’m not even good at football
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| OK! Great, that was the scene. Thank you very much, we’ll send your tap to the director and give you a call, OK?
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Oh OK
| |
| This is knowing small things matter
| |
|
| |
| This is them trying to be complete
| |
|
| |
| This is them
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| “what happened?
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| don't know”
| |
|
| |
| This is getting ready for granny
| |
|
| |
| This is them taking a break
| |
|
| |
| Having a small break
| |
|
| |
| This is them wandering around
| |
|
| |
| This is them looking for a wonder
| |
|
| |
| Getting a phone call...
| |
| Oh no just missed it.
| |
|
| |
| Getting ready for success
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| In the interview you gave to Time magazine you were very open about your childhood, especially
| |
| about that room in which you spent hours. Can you tell us, what was your experience in this room?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Well emmmm
| |
| You know, I remember when I was 5,6, 7, 8 years old and I was very, very happy. Because I lived in dream…..s .
| |
| I liked my own world. I created it myself and it was very, very peaceful. In that room I was far away from everything.
| |
| But you know, at a certain point I didn't know if I dreamed things or if they really existed.
| |
| And that, well yeah became very difficult for me
| |
| and then my parents of-course…
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Well, what about them?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| well they told me
| |
| “waarom heb je dat gedaan?”
| |
| why did you do that
| |
| or or “je hebt gelogen.” you lied!
| |
| That was very painful. Because for me it was real you know, I mixed things.
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| It was at this point that you went off to pursue your big dream to become a clown? How did your parents deal with that?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Oo Gosh hmm
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Well...I remember, I went away from home, to, you know, work on my career. And I didn’t see them for a while but I started to miss them. So I went back ..home. Only the parents weren't parents…..they were just… people.
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don't agree .. .
| |
|
| |
| Ooh This is Branda going off script….
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| That was your experience. But mine was different. They were there, but they were children.. and I was the parent.
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| This is being the kind of parent that tries to make a difference
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Ooh my dear, you wish for so many things but you really don't get any of them do you? because the world has a wish on its own. All you may do, really, is stand by and look at what remains...
| |
|
| |
| This is hilda feeling nauseous and brandy feeling a bit lost
| |
|
| |
| This is them knowing better
| |
|
| |
| This is getting better
| |
|
| |
| feeling terribly sorry
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| “because the world has a wish on its one”
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| This is them dancing in the middle of a field of flowers with a breeze of wind
| |
| | |
| This is them wondering
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Sometimes I wonder if I'm really named …., and that freaks me out, because if I am not, then who am i? And if I don't have a real name, what am i?
| |
| | |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Maybe i don’t exist and this is some kind of a cruel joke My family is playing on me but I don’t know if there capable of such a thing,
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I think they're all faking it, particularly our parents, our social betters, people in positions of authority.
| |
|
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| even in the middle of the night, when we are all asleep. I had a dream last night
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| a dream
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| I dreamed I had a baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| a baby? ..the mystery of babies.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| the mystery of babies.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| of having babies
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| the mystery of a baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| of having
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| of wanting
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| of wanting to have
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| a baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| the mystery of wanting to have a baby
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| a tiny
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| dependent
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| a very tiny
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| very dependent
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Iddy biddy
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| widdoo widdoo
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| baby.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| the mystery
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| of wanting to have one
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| of wanting to own one
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| of wanting to have one’s own
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| baby.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| I want to have a baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| why?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| I want to hold t in my arms
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| here hold mine.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| I want to have one, one baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| here have this one. This extra one
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| No, I want to have my own.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| why?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| To be like me.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| To look like you?
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes, yes, I want a baby.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| To look like you
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes, yes, I want to look
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| at that baby
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| and see
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| yourself
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes, and my mother
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Father.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes, yes Yes I want my baby to be
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Your history
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Oooh, my history yes
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| your history and
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes my history and
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Your legacy
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Yes, my legacy, my history and my legacy
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Okay, ho dear
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| whatever you want Here’s your baby
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| My baby??
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| He’s going to grow up
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Oh, not too fast I hope
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| to be an artist
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Oh my dear
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| you wish for so many things…
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| And you really don’t get any of them, do you?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| because the world has a wish of its own…
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| all you may do, really, is stand by, in a kind of horror, until the world is finished and you can collect whatever remains.
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| It must be awful to believe that.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Hilda, you revise and revise and revise the thing you want… and what are you left with?
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| the other things you want, the trick is wanting a lot of things.
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| What if, maybe, I only think I'm Branda and that in fact I'm Hilda and you’re Branda and that somehow we got it all mixed up, tragically.
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| This is them on the ground
| |
| | |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| what happened to us
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Nothing
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| Should we do more?
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| I don't know
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| What do you know?
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| All I know is I want to go home take off this uniform and leave the show
| |
| there will be a thousand performances like this you wouldn’t remember.
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| You think we will be useless and forgotten if we do nothing. if we just lay here?
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| i don’t know, all i know is we will not
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| what?
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| we will not just lay here.
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| i see
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| your looking?
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| i’m looking
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| at what?
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| You. i am looking at you
| |
| | |
| BRANDA:
| |
| do i fit the description
| |
| | |
| HILDA:
| |
| i think you do.
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| This is waiting , waiting for a ….miracle ?
| |
|
| |
| This is them at the end of a day
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| Aaaah I’m exhausted
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Yeah i'm broken into a million pieces but it was all worth it
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| What a night. What a crowd!
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| And what a performance!
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| We were..
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Amazing..
| |
|
| |
| HILDA:
| |
| We were!! We were the best thing
| |
|
| |
|
| |
| BRANDA:
| |
| Ever!
| |
|
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| HILDA:
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| No one will ever accomplish what we just did
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| We were outstanding,
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|
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| HILDA:
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| Excellent
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| Exceptional
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|
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| HILDA:
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| Extraordinary
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| Sensational?...!!
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|
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| HILDA:
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| Seeennnnn Sssssaationnaaalllll!!
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| BRANDA:
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| Ooh and that that part when we
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|
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| HILDA:
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| OOOh that parttttttttt!!!
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| BRANDA:
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| I never knew
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|
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|
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| HILDA:
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| We were capable of such a thing?!!!
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| What a night
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|
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| HILDA:
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| What a performance
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|
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| BRANDA:
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|
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| OOh and did you see that man on the 4th row
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|
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| HILDA:
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| OOh yesss
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|
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| He was, he was…
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|
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| HILDA:
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| He was crying ?
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| Yeah crying,
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|
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| HILDA:
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| Yeah crying!
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| Crying and …
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|
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| HILDA:
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| laughing
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| Yeahh laughing. Crying and laughing at the same time
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| HILDA:
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| And so passionate like as if… as if
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| As if he had never cried nor laughed before.
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|
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| HILDA:
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| And my god did the audience love us
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| They did
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|
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| HILDA:
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| They still do
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|
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| BRANDA:
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| They always will
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| This is them in a world full of worlds
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| This is them in their little place
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| This is them at the end of a long long hallway
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| Just them, in that colorful house on the corner at the park.
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| This was a day like any other day
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| This was it for now
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| | |
| ==== 3) trio (we+ [us -they- their's] mode of address) ==== | |
| This is US trio
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| LUCA:
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| This is us
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| At the moment us is named; TIM ADINA & LUCA
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| ADINA:
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| Us is a group of three body’s
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| LUCA:
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| Us exercised thought having these bodys, Because how are we without a body?
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| TIM:
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| A nobody?
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| | |
| LUCA:
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| You see
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| ADINA:
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| You understand?
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| LUCA:
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| we need a body to be any body.
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| ADINA:
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| Exactly
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| TIM:
| |
| But maybe without a body we are one, like one someONE..
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| LUCA:
| |
| Wowwww
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| ADINA:
| |
| Wooww
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| TIM:
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| Woow?
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| ADINA:
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| Very spiritual
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Yeah…
| |
| ADINA:
| |
| Yeah.
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Yeah..?
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| LUCA:
| |
| This is us looking at our bodys
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Moving within that skin
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Having a sense of pain within this skin
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Feeling free within
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Standing still
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| This is us standing still
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Standing and looking
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| This is us looking at a the other
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| It is a totally
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Don't say it
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Yes maybe don't say it
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Can us fly?
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Mmm physically you mean?
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Yeah
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| I'm not sure
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| I think us…
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Maybe don't go to spiritual again
| |
| Oke?
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Oke.
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Oke!
| |
| This is us
| |
| Us at the dinner table
| |
| Us forgiving
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us forgetting
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| One of us is very good in talking
| |
| One of us knows how the world is going to end but can not tell us
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| One of us has very shiny hair
| |
| One of us has strong nails
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| One of us knows how to look at dead animals without feeling disgusted
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| One of us gets high on smelling its own stinky feet after a long walk in the park
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| One of us knows the alphabet the best
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us goes to the gym
| |
| Us goes to the park
| |
| Us reads food menus to relax
| |
| Us like the part after sex
| |
| Us never liked sex
| |
| Us doesnt know sex
| |
| Us knows how it feels to be looked at
| |
| Us likes when people cry when something is beautiful
| |
| Us will let you know when you're being a dick
| |
| Or a pussy
| |
| Or something undisibible
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Us is getting better in lissing
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Where does us come from?
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| us doesn't know where us comes from
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Us wonders where us comes from
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Us knows what it would like to become
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us can me many things
| |
| Like…
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Like…
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| like a young theater group
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA
| |
| okee.. Where shall we pick it up…
| |
| | |
| | |
| LUCA
| |
| I was thinking maybe the backstage scene…
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| The backstage scene?
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA
| |
| Oh. oke
| |
| | |
| | |
| TIM
| |
| Uhum
| |
| | |
| LUCA
| |
| oke then I’ll just do the..
| |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA
| |
| Great.
| |
| | |
| LUCA
| |
| Why are you two exactly sitting on the floor?
| |
| | |
| | |
| TIM
| |
| It helps me.
| |
| | |
| LUCA
| |
| Oke, But maybe you should sit a bit further away from each other?
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Were not seated in this scene
| |
| | |
| LUCA
| |
| Yeah I know but for the feeling
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| the feeling
| |
|
| |
| TIM
| |
| A bit further, Uhm yeah not wait. stay and one step, NO a small step yeah. Oke…
| |
| | |
| Oke?
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Oke.
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Oke!
| |
| | |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| INT. DRESSING ROOM- EVENING
| |
| In the background, we hear a big…
| |
| | |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| sorry, I’m sorry. but it feels weird, I think it will work better if we sit closer to each other, therefore we can feel the tensions between these two. You know…
| |
| | |
| ..
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Here?
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| yeah, here
| |
| | |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Okay…
| |
| | |
| | |
| INT. DRESSING ROOM- EVENING
| |
| | |
| In the background, we hear a big audience cheering from excitement! into the dressing room walks a small clown looking very tired and a tall sweaty acrobat.
| |
| | |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| I tell you It was madness!!
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| It’s not true, this could never happen
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| What?! Why not?
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| Tell me It didn't happen.
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| But it did.
| |
|
| |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| you and your fantasy are going too far…
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| I’m telling you the truth.
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| OOh, don’t get me started on tHE truth.
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| I mean…
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| Like you even know what that means!
| |
| your mind is filled with illusions and you know it,
| |
| you know I’m right !. that. is…… the. truth.
| |
| | |
| | |
| A moment of silence as they walk to their mirrors
| |
| | |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| It’s just not fair.
| |
| | |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| fair?
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| This illusion makes me very happy, maybe a fool. but happy
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| Do you know happiness is not a national human condition? It’s actually absurd.. trying to be happy I mean come onnnn..
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| Just because you are not able to be, doesn’t mean you have to keep others away from it! you crazy, so crazy as I should have known and did from the very beginning looking deep into my heart! And yes I’m talking about my heart, the heart you think you understand but never even sad your eye’s on
| |
| | |
| ACROBAT:
| |
| now you’re just being a mean actress
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| a Clown, I’m a clown.
| |
| | |
| CLOWN:
| |
| yah.. yah a clown.
| |
| | |
| | |
| As they both stop talking we see them taking off their make-up and costumes. They think of all the years they have performed together knowing this was their very last time doing so. As the light dims we still hear the ground cheering in the background.
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Okay great, let's just do it again but this time…
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Can I just say,, I, I feel a kind of distance in this scene, and I think it should be more I don’t
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Yeah I see what you mean
| |
| | |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Maybe we should do it again but then I’ll like take more time for my first words, and you be more natural
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Yeah
| |
| Tim
| |
| natural? What do you mean?
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Like don’t play like yourself but be more like yourself
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| I actually think this character is very far away from how I really am…
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| But what is that right?
| |
| What is what you really are.. right?
| |
| | |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Ahhaha. Pfff well I don’t know it’s just not really me
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| It has to Make me feel something…
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Ofcourse
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Yeah
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Yeah
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Yeah…
| |
| | |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Just like play it more as you would play it
| |
| | |
| | |
| Just like yourself…
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| yes be more like yourself
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| you can be more like you
| |
| | |
| Okay?
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Okay……
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Okay!
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| But that’s so vague, right?
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Oke…
| |
| Maybe .. oke….
| |
| Well then more like
| |
| Like
| |
| Like
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Like?
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Like.. Do you remember when we went out into the park yesterday?
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Yeah
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| That was nice
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Yeah , Good weather!
| |
| anyway
| |
| you were telling us that story about being at that party, and you dressed up all glittery………and you were dancing all the time going crazy, and how you just had these bullshit conversations with everyone that didn’t make any sense, but that there was this one conversation. you had with this one person right, which was so good and deep and reall…and made total sense.
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Yeah..
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Well be more like you wear in that confrontation. with that person.
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| I’m a bit lost
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Yess You areeee
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Yessss lost
| |
| | |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| No, I mean in this conversation
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Yeah I know, and use this confusion for the scene
| |
| Right?
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Yeahhh totally
| |
| | |
| Tim
| |
| Oke..
| |
| | |
| Adina
| |
| Oke.
| |
| | |
| Luca
| |
| Oke!
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Us posses many things
| |
| Us has stuff
| |
| Ooooh so many stuff
| |
| A nice swedish sofa
| |
| | |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us possesis many colors
| |
| Us can be
| |
| blue
| |
| Shiny pink
| |
| Soft ice White
| |
| Strong Black
| |
| Creamy Beige
| |
| Fresh Yellow
| |
| Smelly Green
| |
| Soft Orange
| |
| Intense Red
| |
| Us never know just one color
| |
| Us changes constantly
| |
| Any moment and voila something new
| |
| Us is gooooood in thinking
| |
| And because us is good in it
| |
| Us tents to do it a lot
| |
| This is us looking at tv and thinking
| |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| This is us feeling terribly sorry for what us said on the train to that stranger that just wanted to have a small conversation.
| |
| The sun makes us feel happy because the sun is warm and gives vitamins. Ue doesn't want to admit that the weather has a big influence on how us feels.
| |
| | |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Us loves to talk about us
| |
| Us loves to wonder about us
| |
| Us doesn't know how us is
| |
| but us wonders and surges for how it can be
| |
| Even do us is always looking for a definition of us
| |
| Us will never possess one
| |
| Us is free to be all of us
| |
| Oooh look its us
| |
| Us at the museum
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us is in costand surge of defining us
| |
| Us knows many definitions of us but has never come to possess just one definition
| |
| So us keeps on surging for THE definition
| |
| | |
| Us doesn't notice the small things
| |
| Us trying to play
| |
| Us not knowing the rules
| |
| This is us trying to understand the other
| |
| This is us giving up
| |
| This is us showing something precious
| |
| This should be us
| |
| This could be us
| |
| Us is something soft
| |
| Something kind
| |
| Something unnest
| |
| This is us talking
| |
| Us is good in talking
| |
| Us talks a lot
| |
| About
| |
| About what us did or is about to do
| |
| Us talks about how it has lots of friends and has difficulty finding time for all of them
| |
| Us talks about what its good and bad
| |
| Us finds it hard to talk about what it's not good at
| |
| Us takes things personal
| |
| And when us does
| |
| Its finds talking about whats us just took personal difficult to talk about
| |
| Maybe when us feels personally attract it doesn't talk but it screams
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Oeeehh screaming
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Yes maybe us can scream really loud
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us wonders what us needs to not feel attract
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Us often blames the other
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| The other is a problem
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| The other made it difficult to feel good
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| how is the other?
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us can be with four people
| |
| But us can also be all people
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Us people destroying the world
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Are we?
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Ohhh let’s not go into that topic
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Why not?
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Because this video is only going to be 10 minutes
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| How do you know
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Im making it
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Right oke right
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| We…us are making it right?
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| Right...
| |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Right…?!
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| I mean us is in the this video because its about us
| |
| | |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| so all of us made this video
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| So where talking about copyrights right now
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Yeah like is it only you how decides how us is
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| No we all decide how us can be
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Us can be all
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| Yeah but that's too abstract like
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| We could make a video of just 1 minute: hi dear viewer this is us
| |
| Us is all, you vieuwe is also us your looking at all of us…
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| Pfff very pretentious
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| We totally lost the scene
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| You're right let's go back to the script
| |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| This is us at the museum
| |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| | |
| TIM:
| |
| This was a small beginning for us.
| |
| | |
| ADINA:
| |
| This was a small beginning from us.
| |
| | |
| LUCA:
| |
| This was a small beginning of us.
| |
| | |
| == Timeline ====
| |
| DEC
| |
| | |
| this is
| |
|
| |
| this is them
| |
| | |
| intention of new work THIS IS US
| |
| | |
| What do I what the thesis to do
| |
| | |
| JAN
| |
| | |
| 1) solo (I (me-mine) mode of address)
| |
| | |
| 2) duet (we [us -they- their's] mode of address)
| |
| | |
| 3) trio (we+ [us -they- their's] mode of address)
| |
| | |
| | |
| FEB
| |
| First Draft
| |
| | |
| MAR
| |
| Second Draft + physical layout
| |
| | |
| APRIL
| |
| DEADLINE
| |
| | |
| ==== Bibliography ====
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| Brainard, J. (2001). I remember. Granary Books;Distributed to the trade by D.A.P.
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| Huizinga, J. (1970). Homo Ludens: A study of the play element in culture. London: Maurice Temple Smith Ltd.
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| Maalouf, A. (2001). In the name of identity: Violence and the need to belong. New York: Arcade. b. Photography and artworks
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| Porter, C (2020). What Artist wear.Penguin.England.
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| Versluis, A and Uyttenbroek, E. (2002-2021). Exactitudes. Holland.
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