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                  <big>== '''Assesmental Presentental Wikipageroo aka Lorenzo Quint's''' ==</big>


= ''*airhorn sounds* == '''BEST OF XPUB1 TRIMESTER 1 & 2 = Protocolastic Quiltessential Boogaloo''' == *that windows celebrational noise.mp3*'' =
Now what do I need to do


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- get better


- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City


<big>This is the page you will be watching whilst experiencing the process I went through. It will be a bit on the linear chronological side. As an old wise cliché once said whilst gazing to the inevitable sunburn:</big>
- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm


<image of a mountain.jpeg> <some wacky pseudoscientific font.otf>  
- GRS -> see page


<big>''You need to look backwards in order to look forwards''</big>
- make a prototype for essay, play with formats


so before we ask ourselves: [[How did we get here?]] / Transport / /DOOR/PORT.html


I'm first going to talk about the first trimester.
- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop


- <s>Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex</s>t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.


- read next text 


<blockquote>I have to admit, I kinda didn't knew what XPUB was gonna be like.  I recently graduated from KABK / IMD. A different institution and a different course. I knew that another IMD alumni parttook in XPUB.
<s>- Read the email of Constant and reply</s>


So this first trimester was a bit of a fresh new start for my practice. 'kind of' stepping away from what shaped my graduation project Happytalism which revolves around the idea of wellness / new age and spirituality industries to be open for business, making more money than big pharma and being a safe haven for charlatans, disinformation weaponizing pseudo health claims.
<s>- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself</s>       
<small>- <s>OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA</s></small> <s>'''''<sup>MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH</sup>'''''</s>


I stepped into this fresh new environment with new people and overall a to me new programme.
== /GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR ==


And right after the first weeks of XPUB my life turned around and I needed to reconfigure everything for myself (as I am still kind of doing ofcourse)
* [[User:Lor.ensō/Lorenzo's Projects that May/Mayn't|PMoMMs: <progress is found here, but order was never an option>]]
* [[Renderdam|Rapid Prototypes: <Renderdam> /]] [[Spiritual media psychosis|Obsessive Catalogue of Madness:Spiritual Media Psychosis]] B2BALESSIA
* [[Lor.ensō/projectproposal|Draft project proposal]]
* [[User:Lor.ensō/thesis-outline|Thesis outline]]


During the first trimester it was a bit difficult to me to kind of 'find a way' to get back on track. I wanted to deliver something productive.  
==  [[/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read]] ==
Currently reading


The changes in my life of course had an immediate effect on my way of thinking.
== [[/XPUB1]] ==
dir.../Lor.ensō/[[User:Lor.ensō/XPUB1|XPUB1]]/
/* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters
XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24
*/


We were talking about the ideas of what it means to keep an archive and what protocols there should be made.
== /RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S ==


My counterthought was about Protocols for passive hoarding.


As an idea of "we might need this later".
=== '''''PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER'''''  AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH ===


   The questions that I / We raised were


           'do we really need to preserve everything? What do we take with us?'
'''''I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of'''''  
<code>E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N</code>


From this point, Senka and I started talking about the questions that were raised about to think about ideas protocols for active archiving. I read that personally as if we were responsible for the maintenance of the Radio Worm's archive. Instead, we made a work that asks for reflection.  
beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}


With both having made some critical essays / poems, we decided to make a video work because we wanted to visualize the amount of archives. No sound, just video. In these videos, we portray the radio worm from the apocalyptic narrative of SIGNAL LOST: ARCHIVE UNZIPPED.


Where Senka shows the vessel of the radio station, I show the amount of data and sounds and players and information that actually go 'live'.


<write on this later></blockquote>


<syntaxhighlight lang="abap">
<i> Questionnairerasure


Are worm a space a radio and a place and more


I listen in / to worm
<!--- Thesepages will be updated
 
visit [[User:Lor.ensō/si22|SPECIAL ISSUE TWENTY TWO PERSONAL CONSTRUCTION SITE]] / [[User:Lor.ensō/si23|si23]] --->
I go out I listen I read and I archive.  Through the pipeline |
 
can’t keep anything that is clutter but need to keep the importance and dance.
 
not the snake, am the wormoborous the community that feeds on ourshelves.
 
Leave the archive as to what is important rather than imported. leave files
 
And will come around and eat the cookies the crumbs lost. !important
 
Use the space for the next to continuity in unity of the worm
 
Prepare for leaving but never for farewell. Say goodbye to what you usen’t.
 
Is het kunst of kan het weg?
 
meaning
 
Is it art or can it be thrown in the trash
 
Can we empty the bin
 
In order to begin where our wormhole left us
 
If moved from here to there to then from now
 
What is taken
 
What is taken into consideration
 
In what state is the open city, In which state lies it and how do you leave it
 
The space as the wormhole through the wordhole takes us into the active archivalry.
 
The physicality contradicts the practicality, being pragmatic of fragments
 
Being pragmatic over the roots of the space into the data trees
 
What can be erased?  In order to digest, what is there
 
It should be clear, or cleared or ´klaar´ which means done
 
You can store it elsewhere but that isn’t viable over the long run, worms don’t run, they crawl and feed on what is there.
 
This is no calling for to be sterile or a vote for marie kondo, please kondon’t, but only the wormunity can understand what needs to be kept
 
Who are the worms, do they want to keep everything?
 
Are they capable of leaving recordings behind?
 
Is it a doom scenario to delete stuff to remain active in archive
 
Or does cluttering / hoarding / keeping storage in servers and clouds fit the idea or the worm
 
Will the worm be worn out because of the ecological ideas of the worm
 
The worm can’t proceed while being stuck, the worm needs to crawl in order to move, to breathe through the space, how does the worm think of using the space,
 
How do you conserve if conservation can harm the soil, maybe digging a bit too deep in these old gardened graveyards but if we wish to make an apocalyptic doomsday protocol, we must show tough love about the institution of the open city. How do we maintain traffic in a city if the city is blocked and clogged?
 
Making the worm accessible and open implies that space is made. In what order does the worm make space for achieving an active archive rather than proceeding as the hoarding worm.  
 
Consider this an open call for an open city, an open space for an open mind where questions are open food for thought that the worm can digest again and let its excrements be dissolved in the past. </i>
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== Jo Freeman's The Tyranny of Structurelessness ==
 
 
This text was something that really stuck to me in many ways. I was born in a 'red nest' and I have always considered myself a leftist (and no this is not a story about me being a liberated ancap libertarian, barf.) and part of subcultural scenes and supporter of autonomous spaces and the ideas of alternatives.
 
However, I have my doubts on the ideas of alternatives. In the text (and I'm paraphrasing now) the idea of community living is raised and questioned, the idea of a non-hierarchical community seems amazing, yet some sort of power structure or better put 'order' is inevitable. The more self-aware and critique friendly the better.
 
The text spoke to me as well because this idea of a big united group of ideology seems like an [oppositional] utopia.  Especially in this time of online politics / meme culture wars. 
 
I have been thinking about the idea of an alternative doesn't mean that the alternative is actually the better alternative, yet the idea of an alternative could be. 
 
Especially during covid (oh no a reference to my gradwork) it became visible that people who appeared to be critical thinkers fell for the conspiracy theories. Or that the ideas of a big pharma are given such a horror scenario that wellness (that makes way more money than pharma) is pushing left-leaning progressives via the anthroposophisticated homeopathic tunnel towards the conservative church of health hazards and [forgot the word] 
 
even though the internet is not all responsible for this but also the education and environmental influences that result people to go into their programmed minds. (I think that if you come from a space where certain beliefs are rooted, could easily influence you in your daily life even though you're agnostic or atheist but still have the coping mechanism of the circles or 'bubbles' you were raised in. ) 
 
<blockquote>'''Confirmation bias'''
 
Tim Minchin [comedian / artist] had a bit on [https://youtu.be/G1juPBoxBdc confirmation bias] where he talks about how search engine algorithms and social media feeds on our assumptions, (pre-existing) beliefs and fuels it with even more related content specifically aimed to these beliefs.
 
He points out that 'we' would do ANYTHING BUT the idea of intellectual heavylifting to change our minds. Which refers to the fact that (online) discourse has been pushing people apart not only from progressive to conservative or from left to right but also within the borders of political ideology where every movement is watched, recorded and frowned upon. 
 
'''Tribalism'''
 
Minchin speaks about how human beings love to be in herds and part of a group / a city or a community and how the internet is making distance between tribes and becoming more binary. 
 
the main point I was going to share in relation to structurelessness and my concerns as a leftist towards current state of 'the left' is portrayed by Minchin perfectly in the sense of kindness in modern day discourse is not being presented by (generalized) right wing christian pro gun anti-vaxx conservatives but that modern progressives (with an assumed degree in higher education) are missing the idea of kindness as well as 
 
''A future of more empathy and understanding for more and more people'' 
 
instead, he claims that everybody that is not on 'their' side of the 'line' is immediately a fascist. 
 
'''BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES WITHIN BUBBLES''' 
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!'''BUBBLES WITHIN'''
! '''BUBBLES WITHIN'''
! '''BUBBLES WITHIN'''
! '''BUBBLES'''
|-
|"I can't believe you still follow J.K. Rowling on Twitter"
|"why are you saying ''not all men?!"''
|"Why do you use the F slur in your song?"
|"Why are you sharing pictures of your manicure when you should be posting black squares, which means you are a racist"
|-
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As an alternative he says that 
 
''showing humility'' 
 
''mentioning not everybody has had the opportunity to read the books you have and learnt the lessons that you have learned''
 
''practicing the principle of charity'' 
 
''and not assume that anyone that disagrees has a nefarious intent and try to hear their arguments'' 
 
is rejected by the idea of tone policing as he is put into place as a straight white male and that he needs to check his privilege in which he keeps in his satirically put "library on a mahogany shelf next to his BMW keys"  and as he ''checks'' his privileges he concludes that this way of thinking is still ''ffing'' wrong. 
 
He stresses that it ''can not be'' that progressives  progress forward into a future of more empathy and understanding for more people 
 
it ''can not be'' that the primary mechanism by which we approach this future is the suppression of empathy and understanding for anyone that doesn't align with our beliefs. 
 
it ''can not be'' that unmitigated expression of furious outrage will alchemize into a future of peace and love.
 
ofcourse there is reason to want justification and be righteously furious about things and he can be as furious as cis gender straight white male with privileges being pissed off about 700 things before breakfast but it doesn't matter if it's not helping. And it's not helping that these aforementioned tribes are being pushed further and further apart.
 
The moral is that it is hard to change peoples minds but it's not impossible. However, if you would tell someone that they were a fascist and publicly shame them for what they believe, you've lost them and prioritized your need to express outrage and if we're honest, signalling your virtue over the possibility that you could utilize your educational privilege to reach across this algorithmic casm.
 
Src: https://youtu.be/G1juPBoxBdc</blockquote>
 
Another result is my utter discontent towards how the left parties in the Netherlands have perfectly shown the state of leftism in the Netherlands.
 
I was talking to a friend and we evaluated the elections.
 
I said that
 
''"The lesson that left leaning NL needs to learn, is that political parties being tiny power structures is a very bad example of an alternative.''
 
''the two parties I'd vote for (bij1 / animal party) but also GL/PVDA.  I.e. migration is also a very typical thing at the moment''
 
''This morning (26/11/23) I was watching WNL op Zondag (conservative rightwing talkshow, my mother believes that you need to watch and listen to your opponent in order to understand and grow over their beliefs to unravel their beliefs)''
 
''One of the guests was the controversial Lale Gül and other names like (former left turned right leaning) Zihni Özdil were mentioned that represent 'migrants that who do not want to be viewed as pathetic minorities at all' and the sad soul crushing fact that people that lived here for (more than) 3 generations even voted for Geert Wilders [PVV]''
 
''It made me think, I kinda get the why. The populist belief of "hey, screw your migration, could I be helped first?"''
 
''I heavily disagree with this, but I 'kinda get' why. No human is illegal and there's a humanitarian crisis. However the left here is way too individualistic and fighting between the bubbles, instead of actually uniting as worthy block of strong left (or something) instead of the effing bullshit of moralistic wee measuring whilst the status quo is destroying everything through aggressive neoliberalism.''
 
''I love to see PvdD en Bij1 as strong parties but I just get so sick of this corrupted management system. Fix it between eachother and it was also the worst timing ever right before the elections.  I voted for one of them. But with less motivation than before.''
 
''TL;DR  the dutch left should really start reflecting and start building, repairing and mobilizing.`''
 
 
 
src: [[User:Lor.ensō/si22|SPECIAL ISSUE TWENTY TWO PERSONAL CONSTRUCTION SITE]] (enter if you want to see a messy room, if you don't, just keep listening)
 
 
 
Words:https://codepen.io/lor_enso/pen/LYvxYbd
 
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=== ''' /PORT''' ===
 
 
 
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Latest revision as of 12:37, 15 October 2024

/XPUB2

Now what do I need to do

- get better

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats


- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop

- Read and finish Femke Sneltings text, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

- read next text

- Read the email of Constant and reply

- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself

- OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH

/GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR

/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read

Currently reading

/XPUB1

dir.../Lor.ensō/XPUB1/ 


/* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters

XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24 

*/ 

/RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S

PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N 
beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}