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Latest revision as of 12:37, 15 October 2024

/XPUB2

Now what do I need to do

- get better

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats

- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop

- ~~Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex~~t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

- read next text

~~- Read the email of Constant and reply~~

~~- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself~~

- ~~OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA~~ ~~^{MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH}~~

/GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR

/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read

Currently reading

/XPUB1

dir.../Lor.ensō/XPUB1/ 


/* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters

XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24 

*/

/RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S

PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N

beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}

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-== Hello, welcome tot 1 2 0 2 4 3mester2  XPUB  -----> QUILTING AS AN INFRASTRUCTURE ==
+== /XPUB2 ==
+Now what do I need to do
-so...
+- get better
-== WHAT AM I DOING CURRENTLY ==
+- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City
-''CURRENTLY I AM <s>PROCESSING</s>SORRY MICHAEL I MEAN DIGESTING INFO AND UPDATING ALL PAGES AND SUCH IN ORDER TO KINDA UNDERSTAND BUT I DO NOT KNOW FOR SURE, YET I FEEL GOOD DOING THIS BECAUSE IT'S A CRASH COURSE FOR MYSELF WITH THE NOTES AND ALL / INCONSISTENCY IS KEY AND THE KEY IS OFTEN LOST''
+- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm
- [https://hub.xpub.nl/chopchop/~lorenzo/ norenzoQuilt] // page on chopchop
+- GRS -> see page
+- make a prototype for essay, play with formats
- [[Quilt INC]]
-<syntaxhighlight lang="d" line="1">
-...LOADING FEELS SCRPT
--02-24 ///
- Dear Xpubdiary, I'm starting to get some more time off on my own to put things into perspective.  I'm digesting through more than one channel
- channel 1 //
-The first channel is or was the care channel. I am <code>function mantelzorger() {for my mother, dog and four chicken; exception: sometimes also brother;}</code>
- It's a hassle but I feel like that is starting to land and give me some headspace. I have no idea what is happening or  bound to happen but I am just completely bamboozled sometimes
- channel 2 //
-The second channel is the xpub channel, where I tend to be moreI do not know what information to process first and what to do next  what to research and what to reflect or experiment with it is a lot to process and I want to be productive but [x=channel 3] is taking over help.js
- channel 3 //
- The third channel is the health channel. This should be top priority but in the heat
- of everything I am just lost. It is truly madness to deal with the days of information
- and an unlimited load of things coming from channel 1 / 2 / 3. The pipeline is clogged
+- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop
-PROPOSITION // CHANNEL 3 MOVE TO CHANNEL 1 AND TRY TO EQUALLY DIVIDE 2 AND 1
+- <s>Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex</s>t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.
- initiate.unclogProtocol
-  .
+- read next text
- ..
- conclusion
+<s>- Read the email of Constant and reply</s>
- there is no perfect way to deal with this, anyone in my shoes would either struggle, give up or have other ideas so  comparing myself to another isn't the way
+<s>- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself</s>
-  pushing myself isn't the way
- punishing myself for things beyond me isn't the way
+<small>- <s>OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA</s></small> <s>'''''<sup>MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH</sup>'''''</s>
- initiate be-good-to-self protocol print ('it's fucking hard to proceed in a grieving time');
- if else {
+== /GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR ==
- ask-for-help-maybe protocol
- }
-wtf is plotting, what are servers, how do I do the things I wanna do and still keep up and avoid panicc and ztrezz and jdnfjdskfAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
+* [[User:Lor.ensō/Lorenzo's Projects that May/Mayn't|PMoMMs: <progress is found here, but order was never an option>]]
+* [[Renderdam|Rapid Prototypes: <Renderdam> /]] [[Spiritual media psychosis|Obsessive Catalogue of Madness:Spiritual Media Psychosis]] B2BALESSIA
+* [[Lor.ensō/projectproposal|Draft project proposal]]
+* [[User:Lor.ensō/thesis-outline|Thesis outline]]
-til next time, I'll do more things.
-</syntaxhighlight>
+==  [[/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read]] ==
+ Currently reading
+== [[/XPUB1]] ==
+ dir.../Lor.ensō/[[User:Lor.ensō/XPUB1|XPUB1]]/
+ /* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters
+ XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24
+ */
-========================== MY PART IN THE QUILT ==================================
+== /RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S ==
-Also will edit stuff concerning Validity and Standardization based on [https://hub.xpub.nl/bootleglibrary/read/863/pdf Susan Leigh's Misconcrete somethingtism(page 143)]
-== Method(ol(atry)ogy) is a way of surviving experience ==
-{{:Quilt INC./Method(ol(atry)ogy) is a way of surviving experience}}
-[[Category:Wordquilt]]
-[[Category:Quilt Inc.]]
+=== '''''PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER'''''  AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH ===
-BTW I HAVE A DESK NOW YES
+'''''I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of'''''
+ <code>E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N</code>
-OLDER STOCK vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
+ beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}
-I haven't been in chopchop since 24th of october
-belonging  / / / / / / / / / / space\\\\\\\\\\\
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