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Hello, welcome tot 1 2 0 2 4 3mester2  XPUB  -----> [https://hub.xpub.nl/chopchop/~lorenzo/ norenzoQuilt] 
== /XPUB2 ==


...LOADING FEELS SCRPT
08-02-24 ///


Dear Xpubdiary, I'm starting to get some more time off on my own to put things into perspective.  I'm digesting through more than one channel
Now what do I need to do
 
- get better
 
- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City
 
- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm
 
- GRS -> see page
 
- make a prototype for essay, play with formats
 
 
- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop
 
- <s>Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex</s>t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.  
 
- read next text  
 
<s>- Read the email of Constant and reply</s>
 
<s>- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself</s>       
   
   
channel 1 // The first channel is or was the care channel. I am <code>function mantelzorger() {</code>
<small>- <s>OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA</s></small> <s>'''''<sup>MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH</sup>'''''</s>
<code>for my mother, dog and four chicken; exception: sometimes also brother;}</code>
 
 
== /GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR ==
It's a hassle but I feel like that is starting to land and give me some headspace. I have no idea what is happening or  bound to happen but I am just completely bamboozled sometimes
channel 2 // The second channel is the xpub channel, where I tend to be moreI do not know what information to process first and what to do next  what to research and what to reflect or experiment with it is a lot to process and I want to be productive but [x=channel 3] is taking over help.js
channel 3 //
The third channel is the health channel. This should be top priority but in the heat
of everything I am just lost. It is truly madness to deal with the days of information
and an unlimited load of things coming from channel 1 / 2 / 3. The pipeline is clogged


initiate.unclogProtocol
* [[User:Lor.ensō/Lorenzo's Projects that May/Mayn't|PMoMMs: <progress is found here, but order was never an option>]]
* [[Renderdam|Rapid Prototypes: <Renderdam> /]] [[Spiritual media psychosis|Obsessive Catalogue of Madness:Spiritual Media Psychosis]] B2BALESSIA
* [[Lor.ensō/projectproposal|Draft project proposal]]
* [[User:Lor.ensō/thesis-outline|Thesis outline]]


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== [[/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read]] ==
  ..
  Currently reading


  conclusion
== [[/XPUB1]] ==
  dir.../Lor.ensō/[[User:Lor.ensō/XPUB1|XPUB1]]/
/* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters
XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24
*/


there is no perfect way to deal with this, anyone in my shoes would either struggle, give up or have other ideas so  comparing myself to another isn't the way
== /RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S ==
pushing myself isn't the way
punishing myself for things beyond me isn't the way
initiate be-good-to-self protocol print ('it's fucking hard to proceed in a grieving time');


if else {
ask-for-help-maybe protocol
}


 
=== '''''PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER'''''  AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH ===


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DEAR DIARY I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO YET
MY MIND HAS BEEN CHAwfdsfdgfhgfgdfsda
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'''''I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of'''''
<code>E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N</code>


I haven't been in chopchop since 24th of october
beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}


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Latest revision as of 12:37, 15 October 2024

/XPUB2

Now what do I need to do

- get better

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- decide between buying year subscription adobe or go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats


- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop

- Read and finish Femke Sneltings text, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

- read next text

- Read the email of Constant and reply

- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself

- OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH

/GRADUATION RESEARCH SEMINAR

/ReaderThatMayOrMayNot(Be)Read

Currently reading

/XPUB1

dir.../Lor.ensō/XPUB1/ 


/* Here lie the tombs and ruins of my works and processes of my XPUB1 year divided by three trimesters

XPUB1 SI22 - SI23 - SI24 

*/

/RANTS THOUGHTS WORRIES AND OTHER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S

PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of 

E X E C U T I V E  D Y S F U N C T I O N 

beep boop brain not participating .../ am not functioning. Can't seem to focus, find a point to start but just crashing a bit. [Grief] It has already been almost a year and my head is just not there. I just want to be healthily productive but that is impossible if I force start myself into doing this. But I als W A N T to be productive and AaAaAaA [/Grief]  {crash report: I need to calm down}




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