User:Lor.ensō

Hello, welcome tot 1 2 0 2 4 3mester2 XPUB -----> norenzoQuilt

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08-02-24 ///

Dear Xpubdiary, I'm starting to get some more time off on my own to put things into perspective.  I'm digesting through more than one channel 

channel 1 // The first channel is or was the care channel. I am function mantelzorger() {
for my mother, dog and four chicken; exception: sometimes also brother;}
 
It's a hassle but I feel like that is starting to land and give me some headspace. I have no idea what is happening or  bound to happen but I am just completely bamboozled sometimes

channel 2 // The second channel is the xpub channel, where I tend to be moreI do not know what information to process first and what to do next  what to research and what to reflect or experiment with it is a lot to process and I want to be productive but [x=channel 3] is taking over help.js

channel 3 // 
The third channel is the health channel. This should be top priority but in the heat
of everything I am just lost. It is truly madness to deal with the days of information 
and an unlimited load of things coming from channel 1 / 2 / 3. The pipeline is clogged

initiate.unclogProtocol

. 
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conclusion 

there is no perfect way to deal with this, anyone in my shoes would either struggle, give up or have other ideas so  comparing myself to another isn't the way 
pushing myself isn't the way 
punishing myself for things beyond me isn't the way
initiate be-good-to-self protocol print ('it's fucking hard to proceed in a grieving time');

if else {
ask-for-help-maybe protocol 
}

DEAR DIARY I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO YET
MY MIND HAS BEEN CHAwfdsfdgfhgfgdfsda

I haven't been in chopchop since 24th of october

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