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The goal of this thesis is to document my process of exploring my mostly Chinese heritage and dealing with my alienation from it.  
The goal of this thesis is to document my process of exploring my mostly Chinese heritage and dealing with my alienation from it.  


I will be producing a series of photographs or perhaps a short film exploring my journey into my family history coming from China to Surinam and finally to The Netherlands and how it culminated into the person I am today. My anger towards growing up in a western country and dealing with racism and Chinese stereotypes. The feeling of unbelonging because of the rejection coming from every culture that I come from.  
I will be producing a series of photographs or perhaps a short film following a research period in which I will explore directions through prototyping exploring my family's history coming from China to Surinam and finally to The Netherlands and how it culminated into the person I am today.  


But also pride. Pride that I have this unique and complicated background. Pride of being Asian and pride that I have this enormous culture to explore.
I've felt anger, a feeling of unbelonging, but also pride. Pride that I have this unique and complicated background. Pride of being Asian and pride that I have this enormous culture to explore.


Because there are so many different emotions and aspects to this story, I want to start with creating mini-projects within a bigger project. I want one project to focus on my exploration into and dealing with my lack of knowledge of the Chinese culture. This I will do in the gift shop where I work. Here I will either photograph or film aspects of the shop and describe my involvement, experience or interaction with these aspects. Either in text or voice over.
Because there are so many different emotions and aspects to this story I am not sure what the outcome will be eventually, so I will be prototyping different visual approaches. I want one possible approach to focus on in  my exploration and dealing with my lack of knowledge of the Chinese culture. Firstly I will document the gift shop where I work. Here I will either photograph or film aspects of the shop and describe my involvement, experience or interaction with these aspects. Either in text or voice over.


Second I want to focus on dealing with racism and stereotypes as I've had to deal with them my entire life. I want to explore this area because it has been a big part of my sense of belonging in this country, my insecurities and feeling like a second rate citizen because of not being white.
Second I want to focus on dealing with racism and stereotypes as I've had to deal with them my entire life. I want to explore this area because it has been a big part of my sense of belonging in this country, my insecurities and feeling like a second rate citizen because of not being white.
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=How do you plan to make it? =
=How do you plan to make it? =


I essentially want to put the thoughts and fears and emotions described below into my work.
  My exploration of Chinese culture
 
For this exploration I will be diving into Ta Hwa, a giftshop I started working in to connect with my Chinese heritage. Ta hwa is like a little exotic Asian bubble in a very Amsterdam street. It’s even in a typical Amsterdam townhouse. I will be producing a sort of documentary style type of series where I describe aspects of the store in relation to my own identity and how I am sometimes confronted with my own very limited knowledge of being Chinese.
  Fears and doubts into the exploration of Chinese culture.
I told a tutor before that I started working at a Chinese gift shop in order to learn about my Chinese heritage. This seemed to be an almost crude way of minimising the entirety of the culture into one gift shop (I swear it’s really authentic), but I stand by my words! For me starting out at the gift shop seemed like a non-threatening way of getting to know a culture I know very little about.
 
But with this exploration also come fears and questions: Am I allowed to get to know and own a culture that I feel like I am an outsider at?  I almost didn’t want to show my Chinese shoot to another Chinese student from China, because she is a real Chinese and and what if she thinks I’m a fake bitch who isn’t allowed to? My exploration into the culture can be quite surface level, but is it then also not allowed because I’m not digging as deep as I should or is it okay because my own heritage is quite surface level?
 
For this exploration I will be diving into Ta Hwa, the aforementioned giftshop. Ta hwa is like a little exotic Asian bubble in a very Amsterdam street. It’s even in a typical Amsterdam townhouse. I will be producing a sort of documentary style type of series where I describe aspects of the store in relation to my own identity and how I am sometimes confronted with my own very limited knowledge of being Chinese.




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This is my spot. Sometimes people come into the store and say “Ni Hau”. Usually I think it’s racist, but when I’m in the store I wonder if it’s because they themselves are just interested in Chinese culture and think it’s polite to greet me in Chinese. I always kind of smile back awkwardly because Ni Hau is literally the only Chinese word I know.  
This is my spot. Sometimes people come into the store and say “Ni Hau”. Usually I think it’s racist, but when I’m in the store I wonder if it’s because they themselves are just interested in Chinese culture and think it’s polite to greet me in Chinese. I always kind of smile back awkwardly because Ni Hau is literally the only Chinese word I know.  


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I used to work with a Dutch guy who studies China studies in Leiden. He knows how to speak some Chinese and can read the characters as well. When customers want to know what a character means, they usually make a b-line for me to ask me what it means. I find it kind of hilarious that I point them to a white Dutch guy because he knows what it means and I don’t. I always tell him that he’s more Chinese than I am.


For these kinds of observations I am not sure if I will only be doing photography or try darling in filming the store as well and do a voice over.  
For these kinds of observations I am not sure if I will only be doing photography or try darling in filming the store as well and do a voice over.  
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Because each member of my immediate family also identifies with different cultures, I would like to see if I can interview them about their own experiences and feelings surrounding growing up and experiencing racism. I might do a video style interview or just do voice memos in combination to portraits of them.
Because each member of my immediate family also identifies with different cultures, I would like to see if I can interview them about their own experiences and feelings surrounding growing up and experiencing racism. I might do a video style interview or just do voice memos in combination to portraits of them.


I want to talk to them about our fucked up family dynamics and how it relates to culture, growing up in a different country for my parents and raising children with different a different cultural mindset. As well as all of us dealing with looking Chinese but not feeling it and how each of us cope with it.
I want to talk to them about our fucked up family dynamics and how it relates to culture, growing up in a different country for my parents and raising children with different a different cultural mindset. As well as all of us dealing with looking Chinese but not feeling it and how each of us cope with it.  


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[[file:Mama1.jpeg|500px]]


My mom used to tell me she got a perm because they hated her straight "Chinese hair", growing up in Surinam meant she also got bullied for being Chinese. I intent to ask her experience as well as the other members of my family.
An old photo of my mom who got a perm because she didn't like her Chinese straight hair.


  Coping and ridicule of Asian stereotypes.  
  Prototypes: Coping and ridicule of Asian stereotypes.  
Like I said before I was bullied for being Asian in my youth. As I grew up I developed a different way of dealing with these bullies and stereotypes. Pretending like it doesn’t do shit to you proved my most effective way of dealing with it. So when people called me “poep-chinees” I just called them a “melkfles (jug of milk)” and laughed in their faces. My sister and I sang the “Hanki Panki Shanghai” song to each other on our birthdays. Sometimes I think the squinty eyes, big teeth, rice hat wearing fella is kind of funny. When I do it.
I grew up having to deal with racial stereotypes and so I coped with it by pretending it didn't bother me, or better yet pretend it was funny and bully the perpetrator back. My sister and I sang the “Hanki Panki Shanghai” song to each other on our birthdays. Sometimes I think the squinty eyes, big teeth, rice hat wearing fella is kind of funny. When I do it.


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Lately there's been a big uproar about this Krupup packaging which also features the stereotypical Chinese with rice hat and I wanted to buy the packaging so that I could do kind of a "Maybe we do look like this in our free time" type of photo. But they had already changed it, so I did a quick and bad photoshop with the packaing.
Lately there's been a big uproar about this Krupup packaging which also features the stereotypical Chinese with rice hat. I used this packaging as a prop in the image below, perpetuating this insane stereotype almost like I'm saying "hey maybe we do look like that in our free time!"


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I went to the Museum of Chinese in America in New York (Moca) and discovered a bunch of Chinese caricature  drawings where the Chinese men were the scary Fu Man Chu! Which is inherently offensive of course, but honestly I thought it was kind of cool because they give Chinese this whole air of being almost supernatural, wizard, vampire type people. Which is kind of awesome?
I went to the Museum of Chinese in America in New York (Moca) and discovered a bunch of Chinese caricature  drawings where the Chinese men were the scary Fu Man Chu.


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I also saw the movie "Freaky Friday" the other day, where they also featured a Chinese restaurant owner who did her "Chinese voodoo" on the main characters. And so when I was just messing around, I shot a photo that kind of looked like I was doing a magic spell and I immediately thought of the "Those Chinese with their weird voodoo!". Only it had more of a Kiki's delivery service vibe, which I was okay with!  
In the movie "Freaky Friday" they also featured a Chinese lady who cast a "Chinese voodoo" on the main characters. When I was messing around I shot a photo that kind of looked like I was doing a magic spell and I immediately thought of that. Only it had more of a Kiki's delivery service vibe, which I was okay with!  


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  November/December
  November/December


* Researching: I have received some great material  from Natasha about this subject which I would like to review and possibly draw inspiration from.
* Researching: I have received some great material  from Natasha about this subject for my thesis which I would like to review and possibly draw inspiration from.


* Prototyping and experimenting: During this phase I will do a lot of prototyping of my ideas in a more achievable way. This will not include any over the top styling, but will just be me bringing my ideas to life as rough prototypes. I will be possibly be experimenting more with film also.
* Prototyping and experimenting: During this phase I will do a lot of prototyping of my ideas in a more achievable way. This will not include any over the top styling, but will just be me bringing my ideas to life as rough prototypes. I will be possibly be experimenting more with film also.
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  Other transnational people
  Other transnational people
As for the unbelonging aspect I would like to talk to more people who also feel like they don’t belong to any one culture and why we feel the way we do. Reason for this is to also debunk my own made-up ‘criteria’ for when someone ‘belongs’ to a culture. For example a friend of mine is half-Italian/half-Tunesian also born in the Netherlands. She speaks Arabic and yet she tells me she doesn’t feel like she belongs within the Tunisian community at all despite speaking the language. This is because, to them, she doesn’t speak it ‘well enough’.  
As for the unbelonging aspect I would like to talk to more people who also feel like they don’t belong to any one culture and why we feel the way we do. Reason for this is to also debunk my own made-up ‘criteria’ for when someone ‘belongs’ to a culture.  


  My family
  My family
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  Asian Models
  Asian Models
For the acceptance and ridicule of Asian stereotypes I would like to work with other Asians willing to model these stereotypes so that we can create these types of offensive scenes and turn them around as a way of empowering ourselves!
For the acceptance and ridicule of Asian stereotypes I would like to work with other Asians willing to model these stereotypes so that we can create these types of offensive scenes and turn them around as a way of empowering ourselves!
Actual Chinese people
Exploring the culture within an aesthetic aspect means talking to Chinese people who are knowledgeable of the symbolism and classical traditions. So I would like to talk to Yu Ching more about this!


=Relation to a larger context=
=Relation to a larger context=

Latest revision as of 20:37, 17 November 2022

*CHOP SUEY* 

Inauthentic Chinese

What do you want to make?

In a previous assessment I showed a photograph of a model in a straw hat at a Chinese restaurant. I specifically chose to use the straw hat because in Dutch carnivals people wear the hat as a way of "dressing up like a chinese". I wanted to take this ridicule away from this hat and turn it around into a fashion item. An item to be proud of as opposed to ashamed.

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This story, however, didn't translate into the work, but started to get the ball rolling into why I felt the need to make this work.

The goal of this thesis is to document my process of exploring my mostly Chinese heritage and dealing with my alienation from it.

I will be producing a series of photographs or perhaps a short film following a research period in which I will explore directions through prototyping exploring my family's history coming from China to Surinam and finally to The Netherlands and how it culminated into the person I am today.

I've felt anger, a feeling of unbelonging, but also pride. Pride that I have this unique and complicated background. Pride of being Asian and pride that I have this enormous culture to explore.

Because there are so many different emotions and aspects to this story I am not sure what the outcome will be eventually, so I will be prototyping different visual approaches. I want one possible approach to focus on in my exploration and dealing with my lack of knowledge of the Chinese culture. Firstly I will document the gift shop where I work. Here I will either photograph or film aspects of the shop and describe my involvement, experience or interaction with these aspects. Either in text or voice over.

Second I want to focus on dealing with racism and stereotypes as I've had to deal with them my entire life. I want to explore this area because it has been a big part of my sense of belonging in this country, my insecurities and feeling like a second rate citizen because of not being white.

How do you plan to make it?

My exploration of Chinese culture

For this exploration I will be diving into Ta Hwa, a giftshop I started working in to connect with my Chinese heritage. Ta hwa is like a little exotic Asian bubble in a very Amsterdam street. It’s even in a typical Amsterdam townhouse. I will be producing a sort of documentary style type of series where I describe aspects of the store in relation to my own identity and how I am sometimes confronted with my own very limited knowledge of being Chinese.


Tahwa2.jpeg


The garments hanging in front of the shop are described as “Chinese kimonos” but there really is no such thing as a “Chinese kimono” as kimono’s are of course Japanese. Not even sure if they are a traditionally Chinese garment, or just a silk type bathrobe that western people think is Chinese. I always feel kind of culturally insensitive calling them Chinese kimonos, so I usually call them silk bathrobes.


Tahwa1.jpeg


This is my spot. Sometimes people come into the store and say “Ni Hau”. Usually I think it’s racist, but when I’m in the store I wonder if it’s because they themselves are just interested in Chinese culture and think it’s polite to greet me in Chinese. I always kind of smile back awkwardly because Ni Hau is literally the only Chinese word I know.


For these kinds of observations I am not sure if I will only be doing photography or try darling in filming the store as well and do a voice over. 

Family Experiences

Because each member of my immediate family also identifies with different cultures, I would like to see if I can interview them about their own experiences and feelings surrounding growing up and experiencing racism. I might do a video style interview or just do voice memos in combination to portraits of them.

I want to talk to them about our fucked up family dynamics and how it relates to culture, growing up in a different country for my parents and raising children with different a different cultural mindset. As well as all of us dealing with looking Chinese but not feeling it and how each of us cope with it.

Mama1.jpeg

An old photo of my mom who got a perm because she didn't like her Chinese straight hair. 

Prototypes: Coping and ridicule of Asian stereotypes.

I grew up having to deal with racial stereotypes and so I coped with it by pretending it didn't bother me, or better yet pretend it was funny and bully the perpetrator back. My sister and I sang the “Hanki Panki Shanghai” song to each other on our birthdays. Sometimes I think the squinty eyes, big teeth, rice hat wearing fella is kind of funny. When I do it.

  • Asian stereotypes

  • Asian Stereotypes

Lately there's been a big uproar about this Krupup packaging which also features the stereotypical Chinese with rice hat. I used this packaging as a prop in the image below, perpetuating this insane stereotype almost like I'm saying "hey maybe we do look like that in our free time!"

DSC06688-small.jpg Lidl-kroepoek-768x576.jpeg "Maybe I do chill like that, you don't know"


I went to the Museum of Chinese in America in New York (Moca) and discovered a bunch of Chinese caricature drawings where the Chinese men were the scary Fu Man Chu.

Moca1.jpeg Moca2.jpeg Moca3.jpeg Moca4.jpeg Moca5.jpeg

In the movie "Freaky Friday" they also featured a Chinese lady who cast a "Chinese voodoo" on the main characters. When I was messing around I shot a photo that kind of looked like I was doing a magic spell and I immediately thought of that. Only it had more of a Kiki's delivery service vibe, which I was okay with!

Thoseasiansandtheirvoodoo.jpeg "She did something! Some strange Asian voodoo!" - Lindsay Lohan in Freaky Friday (2003)

My plan is to make these rough prototypes using myself at first. I am not sure if I will be using myself later on.

What is your timetable?

November/December
  • Researching: I have received some great material from Natasha about this subject for my thesis which I would like to review and possibly draw inspiration from.
  • Prototyping and experimenting: During this phase I will do a lot of prototyping of my ideas in a more achievable way. This will not include any over the top styling, but will just be me bringing my ideas to life as rough prototypes. I will be possibly be experimenting more with film also.
  • Reflection: I then want to review this work with tutors who are knowledgeable and passionate about this subject in order to see how to go from here.
Januari/ februari
  • From prototypes to a real plan: During this time I would like a clearer view of what I want my work to actually be. By this time I would like to have a plan on what I want on screen, how I will be doing it and what I want it to look like aesthetically.
  • Planning for production and exhibiting: I will be planning for possible ways of exhibiting my work.
  • Reflection
March/april
  • Final work, hopefully: Hopefully by this time I will have a real plan along with my prototypes. These two combines will result in a final work whether that is photography, film or both.


  • Exhibition and publication: Once I have my final work, will have a clearer view of what the publication and exhibition plan will look like.

Who can help you and how?

Other transnational people

As for the unbelonging aspect I would like to talk to more people who also feel like they don’t belong to any one culture and why we feel the way we do. Reason for this is to also debunk my own made-up ‘criteria’ for when someone ‘belongs’ to a culture. 

My family

I do need to interview my family! 

Asian Models

For the acceptance and ridicule of Asian stereotypes I would like to work with other Asians willing to model these stereotypes so that we can create these types of offensive scenes and turn them around as a way of empowering ourselves!

Relation to a larger context

While this specific story might be personal to me, the feeling of unbelonging is something many people struggle with and a growing number of people will be struggling with. As travel becomes easier, the world gets to be smaller and more people will procreate with someone of a different culture. Schools these days are more and more mixed. We are already living in a world where lots of people come from multiple heritages and there is almost no place for the gatekeeping of these cultures.

It would be nice to have other people see this work and relate to this aspect of it so that we can perhaps create an open dialog.

References/Bibiography

To start with:

Terms:

  • Transational
  • Diasporic
  • Unbelonging
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