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06-11-24 I feel like I am in a bit of a slump. There was a very nice process I was in. I have good things going on but I just feel like I am stuck for a second.

Looking back from the previous few weeks. I went from the personal accessibility to the rendering image of where I live. I am a bit in between the hyperpersonal and the macropoetic feelings.

The feedback story of my life is I need to start narrowing down.

The public moment had a positive outcome. I talked ~~too much~~ a lot and there were some nice conversations, however I felt like I needed to defend something.

The inputs and interests were analyzing and gave me some nice references.

I just recovered from my flu shit, barely digested the colloquium and feedback + tutorial I had 21-10-24. This public moment felt like I was sharing my own questionmarks with other people. As if I exposed things in a way too premature state.

pen plottered pamphplet

There was one feedback that kinda just got me REALLY frustrated -----> someone asked of 'isn't that just part of living in a big city everywhere?' and it just felt like it was a mood killer. Whilst my points were about making new city planning, marketing imagery while the things that we don't see rendered are still there.

There was also a remark, asking if I was working with the municipality.

I need(ed) to digest and reflect and the public moment was a good moment to reflect if I am clear or not. I was sharper at the colloquium.

I have bought books, I still want to buy one more. I am also thinking about how to continue developing a method.

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REFLECTING:

It is now 2,5 weeks ago since the colloquium. There was an interesting method I (subconsciously) started to develop. Asking the questions

Bernadette & Rosa https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo-2

Anita & RIviera https://pad.xpub.nl/p/lorenzo-colloquium-anita-and-riviera

Wang, Alessia & Maria https://pad.xpub.nl/p/wam

Michel, Mania & Zuzu https://pad.xpub.nl/p/michel-mania-zuzu

Thijs & Victor https://pad.xpub.nl/p/oslo&duiven

Notes I got from Manetta:

Obsession/research/question

postcard utopianism
"best scenario"
city marketing

"where you come from": how does this city profile itself?
"what do you want to change": which axes do you want to add?

athens: infrastructural tours
oslo: visual identity; we just copy paste a typeface everywhere, not adopt it to a specific place

- "collective jam session for research" nice
- pretty open session... intentionally?
- from the municipality pov... from the specific needs pov...
    - from which perspective do you speak?
        issue of time gaps, not living there anymore, .. interestingly brings up the specificness of perspective
        tourists (alessia), youth (anita), disabilities (maria), city marketing (bernadette), pets (maria), city design (victor/zuzu), history (mania), biggest/tallest records (mania), advertisements (mania), city planning (riviera)
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- unpack!
    - video municipality.. time to observe together?
    - quote Jara Rocha + Femke Snelting
    - xyzt axes, what do they do, where are they used?

How will collected material be used? Why are we doing this? Work towards concrete outputs?


Personal perspective works!
Moment of sharing after first part would work

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XYZT+? as a method
method to critique + reflect (!)
building infrastructure for this method as a way to circulate it

Notes: 10-11

Groups are made, people are invested, I think people are going for it and are enjoying themselves

There were some questions but not changing in context or so.

People were really focussing and so I added a few minutes.

Notes 11.15 - 12.15

There were some confusions about how to apply the second part.

There were some thinking eyes as if I were in a forest and owls are all looking at me from the dark hahaha

Overall, people were sharing anecdotes and arguments

around 11:45 I went for a walk around to see how things are going :))

Question Mark Eyes

city planning as annotation / drawing out loud method?

https://pad.xpub.nl/p/prototyping-colloquium-lorenzo

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PS -> GIMP

INDD -> SCRIBUS

AI -> INKSCAPE

PREMIERE -> OPENSHOT/OLIVE/KDENLIVE/SHOTCUT?

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Now what do I need to do

~~- get better~~

- buy / rent Rene Boer - Smooth City

- ~~decide between buying year subscription adobe or~~ go F(L)OSS hmmmmmm

- GRS -> see page

- make a prototype for essay, play with formats

~~- prepare monday 21 oct colloquium oop~~

- ~~Read and finish Femke Sneltings tex~~t, contextualize it to Renderdam and mention conflux, traces of power and contemplate / reflect on city rendering.

- read next text

~~- Read the email of Constant and reply~~

~~- Don't forget to stay sane and be kind to yourself~~

- ~~OH AND CLEAN UP THIS WIKIMESS HAHA~~ ~~^{MAYBE LATER HEHEHEH}~~

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PMOMM GRADUATION PROTOTYPING WHAT DO I DELIVER AND WHY AM I AGAIN IN MASS CONFUSION ABOUT WHAT WHO WHERE HUH

I go to bed early, wake up early, I go to seminars, I try to read but it is just the movement again of

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