User:Loes van Dorp/Thoughts Project

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6 April

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Change of scenery

Lets not stay captured in editing sound which will not provide the blueprint for the project. Give it a Turn by returning to the idea where you started with. Where did you wanted it to be about?

Think about the multiple layers of memory you wanted to give a space.

The more suggestive, provocative and drama it has the more it will communicate.

The interview sound you have now are not dramatic enough, there is not enough friction.

It doesn't mean that you will not use the interviews anymore. You can use the interviews as inspiration in this new turn or let them come back later....

Sound can say something different than the image does, this will make it more subjective.

2 April

After listening to the previous soundscape with Timo, we came to the conclusion that it is hard to recognize voices if they come in again and that by mixing all the stories, the relation between two people is not longer sensible.

So therefore I made another mix where I tried to mix it in a way that the memories would go from one set of person to the other, without mixing people who are not related as much as I did in the one of 1 april. This time with different footage, but maybe I will remix the footage from 1 april again more like this..... It might be a bit too long to animate, but I will try to put some images with it to see how sound and image work together.

see the sound page to listen to the results

29 march

Tutorial with Barend:

Do not forget what the project is about. It is about subjectivity and collectivity of the memory.

It is not reality but truth where you are looking for in the project. You are not making a documentary.

It is the truth intensified. Bringing it in a new context, finding a new truth.

A interesting question: what is true and what is reality?

Try to make a sound-scape and leave parts quiet to be able to let the image speak.

'De trap als kapstok voor de verhalen.'

I have a lot of stories about stairs: being pushed from the stairs, jumped of it, fall down from it , climbing it or remembering it.

I will start with the edits I have on this subject and try to build a interesting 3 minutes sound-scape out of that.

Try to keep the air in the story, do not make it to subjective. Try to make it fragmented, and untouchable not to concrete, in between lines.

  • Layered


The screen installation must be workable and not to big, considering the time it will take to make the animation on the three screens.

It also will take a lot of planning to get the timing of the focus of the camera work with the story.

I have to work fast now. Ready to storyboard by the end of this week.


To have myself in the image I could also use the reflection of the glass. This will be another layer on top of the layers.

Location

I have found a location where I can work on this project.

It is in a empty house of good friends of mine. The man who lived there (Kees) died a couple months ago and is has the same weird emptiness, sadness and quietness as my grandfathers house I used in 'Portrait of an empty house'.

Nothing is going on there and I am allowed to work there coming months. Electricity, water and everything is still working.

If the weather allows it I can even go outside. The garden and the space around it are pretty and privet property, so I can work without beeing disturbed.

to do

  • Make a new design for the installation, contact Stock about this.
  • Edit the sound while maybe already do a bit of storyboarding
  • Make test animations on glass to find the right material to draw with and to experiment with the changing of the focus

Material

  • Find out how to get a good camera and laptop. Should I buy it? rent it? What are the possibilities with renting stuff from school or other rentals.

The camera has to be able to work with dragon stop-motion and the laptop should be able to have dragon stop motion installed.

28 march

Sketches multi screen installation

Sketches of Simons explanation

Drawing 1.jpg Drawing 2 .jpeg Drawing 3 .jpeg


Sketches of Stock and me trying to get to a model

Drawing 4.jpeg Drawing 5.jpeg


Sketches after seeing the inspiration. Maybe It doesn't have to be as big, because I want as less as construction works like iron rails blocking the view of the camera. So maybe a table where the glass is only connected at the bottom I am going to talk with Barend about this tomorrow.

Drawing 6.jpeg Drawing 8.jpeg

27 march

Tutorial Simon today:

We came till a great idea, something that will be in line of my last project. There I played around with one screen and this time it might be interesting to use for each point of view of the story a separate frame.

So I will have max. three screens with stories drawn on it and the camera will alternate the focus between the screens. Kinda like the multiplane camera, but than bigger and shot sidewards instead from above.

Multiplan camera disney.jpeg

Speaking about the different stories in one image made me think about the film Timecode from Mike Figgis where the screen is split into four screens. You see different point of views and the important parts for the story is accampied with sound. The rest of the screens just went one with out sound. This is the only thing I remember of the film. I do not know the story, I only know I found it a refreshing way of looking at one story. I was very suprised by that effect.

It is a long time ago I saw this movie. I was 17 or 18 and visiting London where we went randomly to a cinema and This film was showed and there was even an artist talk in the end. I do not remember the story line or what was asked to Mike Figgis. Simon reminded me the title and because it has a connection with what I am going to do, I will watch it again more closely.

  • Link via Tomas special fx via glas paintings.... very cool indead. You do not even notice...

special effect painting on glass

  • history special ffx animation: [1]


inspiration images:

Inspiration 1.jpg Inspiration 2.jpg Inspiration 3.jpg Inspiration 4.jpg Inspiration 5.jpg Inspiration 6.jpg Inspiration 7.jpg

26 march

Tutorial Aymeric.

DO NOT GET LOST IN DETAILS

Try to focus on the location, subject and story.

Try to find a common thing to connect the different memories. Like a story about a balloon of one person and than it goes into an other small story where the balloon is in too. Try to find one space where it takes place ( stairs, sleepingroom e.d.)

Later dive more into the story for details. Do not cut that much than you loose the dynamics of the spoken words.

See if you can make it into one bigger story or els try to make several shorts..

my problem

My problem with rewriting about my project is that I do not know if I am going to use this screen thing and do not know yet how to animate it.....Its really hard to not be in control yet......

My planning will be more tight now. Working till late, get up early.

Dillemma Should I save time or money? ( should I go by train or by bike?)

The weather is great and it will make me feel good, but will make me very tired and loose a lot of time by cycling a lot.... What should I do??????

Monday Tuesday Wednesday

  • Write in the morning from 7 houre till 8.45
  • than get on my bike to the train of 9:04 at 10:00 at school.
  • edit sound, have tutorials
  • 18.37 train home ( or sooner to Den Haag at Wednesday)

Thursday, Friday

  • morning working at home
  • afternoon working for money
  • Study on the evening

Saturday

  • working at home, home related stuff, buying food e.d.

Sunday

  • study home till 12.30
  • 13.04 train Rotterdam Sound We See

25 March

In need for some tutor advise.

Feels like time is slipping away to fast...

I have moments where I feel waisting my time, alternated with euphoric feelings. I feel a little manic.

High tops and deep downers.. ( hoge toppen diepe dalen )

I did annotate and some sound editing today, instead of joining in on the SoundweSee project. Is better for my feeling of rest to be able to use this whole day for my own things.....

But if I used this time well is not really stated. Yes the annotation is good, and yes some sound things I am happy about...

Time for some advise, because next week I want to start thinking through the story and the week after I want to make it......

Time to let it get its shape, and thats making me nervous.

While writing about my project 'Portrait of an empty house' I considered redoing this piece in a proper way, so it can be a beautiful animated story.... But maybe that is not good to do now..and I need an empty house..... ( maybe in Kees his house...)

Back to listening and organizing sound again. Tomorrow tutorials and in the evening annotating and writing! Lets use this time!!!

Some nice words I wrote while annotating:

The past is present

Maybe a good tittle???

22 March

About my work.... let me think....

Maybe that I like the magic of animation and playing with different realities in one image. I prefer working in a way that sort of reveals the process of the making, but without losing the magic of the illusion of life.

20 march

Springtime! Hell Yeah! Back on my bike!!!!

Finished editing my first try out thing, now I have too find out how to put a audio file on the wiki.... Try to get that done today, so I can send this to the tutors to listen to it...

It is more then six minutes long now, but it probably will be less when looking and hearing at it again later this day/week.

It feels good again, I can smile again....

Now I have the urge to do this with all the interviews, but that will be a one year project. Maybe something to go on with after graduation. Or work so F%^%&king hard that i will be able to make at least a series of two ( or three) But probably my enthusiasm makes me overconfident and not seeing the time as sharp en short as it is.

Now I get on my bike and cycle in the sun to Rotterdam! Get movement in my body and brain!

And than start writing!!! Heel yeah, this will be a productive day after all!!

Fietsen.jpeg

Thomson and Craighead tutorials: http://www.thomson-craighead.net/

Tutorial today ! Some new names I have to look at. It is nice to talk to people who do not know your work,

My work is about :

  • revealing the process ( but what else? There is probably more behind this)
  • Work Labor, Time
  • markmaking
  • try to answer the question why am I in it? What is interesting about me being in it?
  • Is about the use of material
  • Think about youre audience, for who are you making the work and how do you ideally want to show it?

Some names to look at:

  • David Shrigley,
  • semiconductor
  • Dryden Goodwin
  • Robert Breer


Sound designing is not composing music.

16 March

After the tutorial with Barend, I felt a bit more secure again. Looking forward to work on the project.

Instead of over-thinking , I have to follow my intuition. I am going to make a sound collage of the interviews I recorded. By taking out parts I find interesting and putting them together in a random order.

My project is about subjectivity of the memory and I am not making a documentary! (although it felt Like I was going to that direction)

I can make several hints of content and try to work on it like I did with the observation Animation. Fragments and poetic an d in that way creating a new reality. .

Incomplete, fragmentary and subjective, contradictions.

Things do not have to relate, because the brain will search for an connection

Not linear or logically.... work on feeling..

I listened to 5 interviews now and wrote them all out. But how I am going to do it now is to edit while listening. Because just listening and typing the text out makes me feel like I am wasting my time.

Next week I want to have a soundtrack of max five minutes. Not using all the interviews, maybe just start with two persons....

To do:

Install adobe premiere again (where did I put that disk..? ... can´t remember!!! argh)

edit!!!!!!! according to my time schedule I had to bee done with animating by now and working on my sound. Seems like I am working the other way around now.

Looking forward to it, but first have to work for money, write for the deadline and party for fun!

13 march

O his is the moment I am getting nervous and start feeling really insecure about my project....

the feeling that I have been wasting my time in a search to nothing......

I am waiting for that magically feeling of the pieces falling in the right spot...... waiting and waiting....

Maybe I should just have been writing a story myself which visualizes my theory. Than I would have been more in control than I am at this moment. I feel like I am standing still, not moving forward but going back.....Wishing I had more time and using it in a more efficient way.......

Uselesss!!!!

I still have to listen to the text of a lot of people and I have the urge to write it all down to get grip on it, but maybe that is a waist of time aswell.....

AAAARRRRGGGGGG

lets make something this weekend.. just to get out of my head........ Lets try to make an animatic where the voice over tells a story but the drawings tell something different..... Lets see how that works.... I have to make something or else I think I will get mad...... I am getting mad......

Mad mad mad

advice of Daan: write down where you think it went wrong and what you wanted to do with your project. Where you think you are and where you want to go....

Maybe I am to inpatient but not having anything psysically now makes me nervous and unhappy and makes me not seeing where it is going.....

I wish already had something to show to Barend tomorrow......

But lets write tonight and fall assleep with a lighter heart..

9 march

During a recording session with my parents yesterday, I found out that the differences in the memories of people who experienced soemthing together aren't that big. I am afraid that this recordings will not give me something I can work with.

I do not feel comfortable about this project anymore. I get insecure and feeling the urge of running away from it as hard as I can. But instead I sleep a lot and shift my focus to my other duties.

Lets not give up!!!!

Because during that same recording, my parents spoke about my uncle. He is autistic and is the youngest brother of my father. My parents took him in, to help out his mother. She was not capable of taking care of him. So my parents had lots of memories about him.

My dad gave me a big pile of notebooks with years of communication between my parents and the school where Richard ( my uncle) was placed.

This weekend Richard is staying at my parents house and my father wanted to talk with him about the old house, grandfathers house, which is sold now. And about the death of there father a couple months ago.

Richards seems to have trouble accepting this big changes, although he didn't visit the house for years anymore.... He is very scared of getting hurt and doesn't want to speak about death. He doesn't want to die. And he can't handle it when things are broken.

I will be there to record this conversation and maybe ask Richard to tell me some memories.

My project is about different point of views of an event, and an autistic person really sees the world very differently. Maybe this will give my project the contrast it needs......

21 February

For real project: Real space combining the theatrical piece.

Event/ Subjects for interviews:

  • Father
  • Mother
  • Funeral
  • marriage

Or about a space?

  • How did your room look like?
  • What did you do on the loft?
  • What do you know of your childhood house?
  • Your saddest memory
  • Your happiest memory

I decided that I had to find a lot of family structured people and find per family a couple subjects/events where they have something to say about.

See Participants & Schedule

18 February

I haven't been writing down things lately, although the project gets more developed, small staps forward and big steps back.

A bit stuck in my head, I decided (again) to start making things, going out to get material and then play with that.


creauture comforts is one of the things that got me to think about the possibility of using recorded stories as core of my memory project.

I Have been thinking about this before, but sometimes it is good to take a step backwards in order to get on the right path.


What I will do now is:

Find people who want to cooperate.

Make a good question/subject list

Find a good strategy for getting the best interview result.

Recording couples talking together about the same thing, but also think about the possibility to mix different stories into one to make my own story.

Creatur comforts Making of

31 januari

Gebakken mannetjes: [2]


Filmfestival gekeken films.

Orkater theater herinneringen museum: [3] [4]

18 januari

walt-disneys-multiplane-camera

17 Januari

Spoke with Simon Yesterday about my project.

30 December


24 nov

Three storyboard sketches are on this page, as well as the first drawings of the girl character:

User:Loes_van_Dorp/drawings

23 nov

interaction with the drawing like La Linea, but then less gimmick?

21 nov

Be clean, less noisy!


Liz

Hotel Modern Hotel Modernis a theater production who use a lot of minature and small camera's to perform life on the set. They have very inspiring projects.

17 November

  • Good ideas always come when I am in motion. Running, cycling, training (as sitting in the train).
  • At this moment I still do not have a location to experiment with, to base my research of general history upon.

To be able to try some stuff out and think with my hands, I really need a space other than my studio. I did write to some organization and probably will be able to use an old empty school in Leiden: St Josef school.

St josefschool.jpg

  • While waiting I want to stay productive and therefore had this great idea while sitting in the train.

I do own a doll house! Why not use a miniature as place to practice. A doll house is already revering to the past because it is something I had when I was little. If it works properly, I might even use this element in the film. Playing with scale is something I have been interested in for a long time... Let's try this out and see what comes out of it!

My passion for stop-motion miniature animation might be able to grow into something usable.

I think that besides drawing as my core, small worlds and puppets and the crafts of creating them and give them live is also a part of my core, but maybe not as developed.


  • DOLL HOUSE

Dollhouse.jpegDoll House 2.jpeg

The story behind this doll House is very funny and weird. My father and I bought it at a second hand store ( kringloopwinkel) When I was around 8 years old. I decoraded it again with my mother, using sample pieces of an wallpaper shop book. We also went to a doll house store, where we bought paper for on the floor that looked like a wooden floor and also some dollhouse carpet. I saved my money to buy the puppets and made a lot of decoration myself.

Because my collection of furniture became very big, my dad builded an other floor for it so it had 6 rooms instead of 4.

In my graduation year of the KABK I shot a serie of photo's in the doll house with my pet mouse.

These are pictures I still really like and like to show. ( as you can see on my front page )

Two years ago my mother and father went to my brothers grilfriends (Nancy) parents. They showed a lot of pictures of Nancy when she was little and they found out that the doll house they bought for me years ago was made by the father of Nancy (my brothers girlfriend). ! How funny is that!!!!



  • For now I am trying some stuff out with the big screen.

It is funny that I always come into the studio with a plan, but as soon as I start, I forget about that and improvise. Maybe that is the way of working what fits me the best. William Kentridge way of working is similar. He comes in the studio with one image and let the drawings and hands do the thinking.

Link to my storyboard

  • There is no One truth

I also asked my parents and brother to tell their memory of the ones I wrote down and I already have fn reading them and the different interpretation they had.

6 november

  • Associatief memory, Memory comes in fragments.

Objects are connected and deformable.

Thinking about a way to reveal just parts of different memories by using objects who start the memory.

Write down different memories and use one to focus on. Think through making.

a normalday is stuffed with memories, everythingyou do is because of things you did before or did not do before.

Youre brain automates a lot of processes you need to do when cycling or walking, typing, reading.

  • Everything is connected.

Find a way to connect this different memories

Innerworld and outside world combined is how people perceive and therefor everybody conceives things differently.

  • The after image.

How can I show the load of memory people carry with them all the time...

How can I show what goes on in poeples head.


2 november

  • I mailed the director of Old-Poelgeest with questions about the jagerswoning.

Jagerswoning.jpeg


Geachte Heer P.V. Hofweegen,

Na aanleiding van telefonisch contact met Oud-Poelgeest, werd mij aangeraden via de mail contact met u op te nemen. Mijn naam is Loes van Dorp en ben woonachtig in Oegstgeest. In 2006 ben ik afgestudeerd als beelden kunstenaar aan de KABK te Den Haag. Op dit moment zit ik mijn laatste jaar van mijn Master studie Lens-based Media aan het Piet Zwart Instituut te Rotterdam. Deze Master is gericht op film, fotografie en animatie. Voor mijn afstudeer-project wil ik me gaan focussen op gebouwen en hun herinneringen/geschiedenis en onderzoek ik hoe ik dit het beste kan laten zien. Door middel van het combineren van een animatie techniek en film, probeer ik gebouwen een persoonlijkheid te geven met een eigen verhaal en verleden. Afgelopen jaar heb ik een filmpje gemaakt waarin ik deze techniek uitprobeer. Via deze link: http://vimeo.com/25672828 kunt u de schets bekijken.

In mijn zoektocht naar gebouwen met een geschiedenis welke geschikt zijn om te portretteren, herinnerde ik mij het Jagershuisje. Al jaren heb ik het jagershuisje gepasseerd en ben altijd al benieuwd geweest naar zijn geschiedenis. Mijn vraag aan u is of u wat in het idee ziet om het Jagershuisje te laten portretteren en of u in de mogelijkheid bent hem beschikbaar te stellen voor het uitvoeren van mijn film/animatie? Verder vroeg ik mij af of er een archief is over de geschiedenis van dit huisje? Bijvoorbeeld verhalen/documenten over de families die er hebben gewoond. Ik hoop dat u iets voor mij kunt betekenen.

Indien u vragen heeft of meer informatie wilt hebben kunt u ook telefonisch contact met mij opnemen. Alvast heel erg bedankt voor uw tijd. In afwachting van uw reactie verblijf ik met vriendelijke groet,

Loes van Dorp 0614409392

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Geachte mevrouw van Dorp,

De jagerswoning is ooit gebouwd als kapel door de heer Gerrit Willink. De eerste steen verwijst hier nog naar. Er is wel onderzoek naar gedaan. Dan kunt u het beste terecht bij mevrouw Rink, historica te Sassenheim.

Via google is zij te traceren. Er is niet zo heel veel documentatie over. Een foto met de jager en zijn familie, gefotografeerd vanaf de kwaakbrug is alles wat ik mij herinner.

Ik kan echter geen toestemming verlenen om binnen te filmen. Het staat u vrij om de kapel/jagershuis van buiten te filmen.

Met vriendelijke groet,


Peter van Hofweegen Directeur Kasteel Oud-Poelgeest

Poelgeesterweg 1 2341 NM Oegstgeest

Postbus 1145 2340 BC Oegstgeest

T 071 517 4224 M 06 2468 40 58 E p.v.hofweegen@oudpoelgeest.nl I www.oudpoelgeest.nl

31 October

  • De daltons, child serie...' Nieuwe Buren'

part one part from 9.17

part two till 2.17

In this episode the boy walks in the empty house of the neighbors who just moved out after one of them died. While walking in the house he imagined how and where the neighbor could have died.

A way to project the imagination of the brain into the space.


  • fantasy and memory

What is real and what is made up by the brain?

30 October

Memory: What triggers a memory to appear? A smell, an object, a space. Or is memory there all the time? What we remember and what we forget forms us who we are and how we will response on situations in the future.

Why should the memories to use be bad, can't they be happy? Or is it a matter of using both in the right balance... Isn't it easier to remember the nice things of the past? I tend to forget the bad things. For example, I went hiking every year with the scouts. Every year I was very eager to go again, only to find out that I forgot about the negative things during these hikes.

Which way to go with this interest?

  • Autobiographical,

use my own memory as starting point for a fiction.

Use My own memory as the story

  • Bigger history about a building,

using its archives and imagination to create a story.

  • Use the same location/space, but several generation talking about there memory of that place.

In the town where my grandmother lives, my aunt grew up there and still lives there as well as her daughter(my cousin) and her grand daughter. so that are four generations I could work with.

  • One event, two sides of the story, both rel but contradicting... rashomon like, what to believe

Places to use

  • Old police station Leiden
  • Jagerswoning Oud Poelgeest, oegstgeest
  • Home Kees in Voorhout

The use of Time

  • Past, present future
  • Real time v.s. time of creating.

Brainstorm 9 October

What I like about memory is how little we know about the function and how important it is for creating a personality. How easy memory is manipulated and how memories of the past will be adjusted by experience in the future. For example: When I was around 7 years old I was walking to school in the morning, I saw to cats fighting. There was one little one and the other one was very big and obvious stronger than the little one. Te small one was crying very loudly. After I pulled the cats apart I felt pretty good about myself, because I saved that little cat. A couple of years later I wrote about cats and got hit by the fact how cats mate and realized I didn't see to cats fighting and saved the little cat. I was a interrupter of a mating session. ..

The fact that my uncle always tickled me in a funny way, changed its meaning when I heard years later that he was a pedophile.

No- one has exact the same memory. Would it be interesting to let different memories about the same thing fight each other. As in the film Zusje and Rashomon.

Memories are unreliable.

I want to play around whit these facts and make a story which takes place in one building, one spot.

Memory of space, you easily forget how it was before.

It is also interesting How people want to archive life, save everything, information, making libraries. Like how I want to write and draw things down and keep it with me.

The screen memory/ false memory......Which are reel and which are projections of memory who is not yours..

collective memory, you use other peoples experience to make your own work on. The media influences this collective memory .

Memory keeper. When you write down memories, you change the memory because you have to translate it in words. The proces os verstarring will occur sooner when written down, because it displaces the memory, like pictures do become the memory, instead of the memory itself. I think I rememner when I walked for the first time,or the moment that I didn't want to pee in my diper when I was one, but I do remember it because my mother told me that story and know it feels like my own memory.


Old buildings I can use:

  • Old policebuilding langebrug. A lot of things happened here.
  • Meel fabriek
  • Huis Kees ( next to jaap studio), Only I do not know when it is going to be sold...

5 september

Screen memory False Memory

Memory of space , how it looked like before. When you see a space which has been looking differently before, in your mind you keep the memory of how it looked before. But not for long. After a while the old memory lose form and disappear.

You have memories of actions in a space which hasn't changed at all. Which could be many.

haunting for memories, haunting the past. True the screen you see the past. Was that the real past? Or was it differently, did you remember it wrong? By whipping this memory of the screen, another one appears. This time a memory which is not that good and that I fight to get rid of it by scratching on the screen.. Chased by memories, Looking for the good memories, memories who turn into bad memories....


Should I use my own past? Make a story based on my own memories? Things I want to forget and things I do not remember. How do I show something I cannot remember ? In which space?

Or should I dive into a history of a building and make a story of my search to the memories of that building? This by talking to people and about there memory. In that way I will have a lot of memories different ones about the same place. They might contradict each other. Like Marcia and mine idea about visiting grandmother and father is very different, but both true. So I can search for one happening or one space and collect memories and create a search animation with that. something historical in Leiden , like 'de waag'. There is history and now because they rent it out, a lot of party memories.... What is interesting about that? Isn't it more interesting to keep it more close to myself? But it is more difficult to use my own inner conflicts of memory. I do not know if Ii want to confront other people with myself......

30 augustus 2011

What do I want to do with this technique? Where can I use it for ? and how can I use it differently than I did in my test last year?

Hunting memories.

Searching for memories.

The process s of trying to remember.

The struggle during this search.

Of myself or somebody else?

Two different people fighting over the accuracy of their memory of one event. ( jaap and I- Annie and Jannie) Like in the film Zusje, where an awful memory about a girls childhood turned out to be not as bad as she remembered it. -->FALSE MEMORY. Zusje

Or different generations living in the same village, telling their memory about one specific place.--> ( Oma, Annie of Jannie, Doortje, Guusje)

The process of forgetting. Fading of the memory. We forget more than we remember. For a reason, we will not be smarter if we would remember everything, we will only be more confused. Memory is something that forms you, who you are and how you react in certain situations.

'Memory of the future' can we already have an image of the future? And therefore remember it when we are in that future. You can make decisions for the future, the memory about what you want to become when you are older is a memory of the future....

Memory of the future is just as unreliable as the memories of the past. Both are changing all the time during live experience. Memory of dreams..

What were my first memories? Are these pure or influenced by stories told about them? Or collective memory? What could bring you back into a memory? An action, a space, a smell, a feeling...

Projection of memory in time and space... Memories of my own past in my old neighborhood? Like I wanted to make when I was in the 3th year of KABK. That house in the 'pinksterbloemstraat' is a house that still returns in my dreams. It is a house where I have lived in a very big and important part of my live.

Must it be autobiographical? Documentary like? That also I do not know on forehand where the story will go? A documentation of the my Memories? Or should I make a story based on my own memories, but then adjust to fit in a good story?

Memories never come in one clean story, they are like a dream, like brakhage films. In new build houses are no memories yet. There are no ghosts of the past yet, there are ghost, but very fresh ones.....

How?

Better prepared than the test. Maybe first go on the hount for memories with the frame, but without the memories. After that work out the memories I came along and do the same thing again, but then with the animation in the frame....

Why?

to show the extra layer we see when we come in a familiar or unfamiliar place. To show what our brain does. A way to show how memory is like a ghost, it haunts you or you haunt it... It gives a place a extra dimension, you see the different times, the real time, the time of producing the memory and the time in the memory. It is past and present together. It makes you look in a other persons head. It shows the projection in the brain.... Screen memory is a memory that is there to replace a memory you do not want to have. Which of the memories are reliable? Which are the screen memories?