User:Ssstephen/grs/20231023

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thesis outline

… has anyone ever asked you the question: why are you here stephen? they asked me and I'm starting to form a bit of an opinion on the matter. It's slow but it's certainly forming. But i will fight to keep it amorphous this time, unstratified, well tilled. I will dig around in it actively and play with it. But in the mess and confusion it's ok to identify or describe. Not like Linnaeus but like lying in the grass making stories from the clouds. That one looks like the grids have been taken away. That one looks like a poem, it says; consciously, with love, caring and careful. That one around the sun looks like a green lion. That one looks wait where did it go, it's completely escaped not even a cloud anymore. And now we're lying where the clouds were, dissolved, falling, flying. There's an irony in a blacksmith who wants to give up control. And the shaman trying to do the same. Meanwhile their brother the prince has never been able to control them. The trick is to remove the viewpoint of cybernetics entirely. Where will this tool flow to? What is this strange new dance, I kinda like it? Do you want to play a game with us? Oh I like your picture can you teach me how to draw like that? I'm trying to work out a way to make graphic design without and that can escape from and that imagines otherwise. I don't really like some of this would it be ok if I made a fork? Do you have coffee here? If I made a pot would anyone have some? Is this practice sustainable? Can we make it be somehow, it might be a bit less stressful then? What happens if I plug this in here? It's about integration and combining parts that were previously defined as separate. Everything is going to be fine, that's why its called refining. Eventually if you smash up all the shards enough they will flow like sand. Have you ever been to Murvagh beach the sand is so fine …

I want to write about the compartmentalisations I find intra- and inter- personally in my life, in particular as they relate to the "profession" / "practice" / "field" / "whatever" of ⊞, the ⊞er. I want to write about my examinations of these and my explorations of ways to cross apparent categories and boundaries. I want to dissolve and reintegrate. The text is about the discipline and potential to be undisciplined, or transdisciplinary but that's not as exciting. It is about living life within particular working conditions, a point or points in social economic and cultural webs, becoming aware of this location and exploring new imaginaries of relating practices and people. How I want to tell my story is through autoethnographic documentation, reflection, academic reference and positioning, description of new connections I am making that may or may not be technological/tool-based, imaginative ravings.

Outline three key issues you want to explore.

  1. What is a ⊞er and what is the act of ⊞? (reflexive mode, contextual, multiple lenses. What compartments and boundaries exist, why are they there what do they do, what do they prevent). I would like this to be based on various modes of describing, examining and understanding. It is not about one practice but the reality of being more as a person than one practice. An example that a life doesnt fit into categories neatly. Being aware of my white gmt male position also and the privileges that allow me to flow between these categories and occupy this much space.
  2. What can a ⊞ be and what can the act of ⊞ be? (imaginative and description of practice: tools and breaking boundaries of disciplines, destructuring my self) Again it is not about this one category. From the observations in the first question and the growing awareness that will hopefully come from this, making tools and work that cross structural boundaries. It is an anticapitalist action as it is about disclosing what has been enclosed. As a human this is my time and my space. Again I'm aware not everyone has the freedom to do this and I would like to draw attention to that.
  3. Where else can these categories be opened and shattered and bridged and dissolved? (imaginative and description of practice: interpersonal and collaborative, destructuring society). Some of the boundaries are interpersonal rather than within or solvable by one person. I think structural issues will appear in the research of the first issue about division of labour as well as class stratification of society. Similar to the second part I hope I can find ways to bridge or break or seep through the walls.

I dont really like that it all refers to "⊞", the whole point is to break this label. byeeee.